one last day of serenity {Jeq/Sax}

[grim.]

"Say you'll remember me,
even if its just pretend..."

The stroke of a star filled night sky flourishes above my head. The cold becoming all the more excessive. I still could not comprehend the way Jeq showed me mercy. She felt bitter hatred toward for me for only a second, and then she went on to call me her friend? Her spear had dug ever so gently into the succulent skin of my neck. I had kept my gaze upon her, wanting to watch the expression of my murderer.

But with grace she pulled away, letting me live. In a sense I was killing myself, I was letting her destroy me, because I had fallen to such a low level of self hatred. Jeq had shown me kindness yet again, except this time she had known the crimes that I had committed against her.

It was a sensational feeling, the feeling of a thousand pounds being lifted from your body. I had felt like the piercing eyes of Satan had finally been relieved from my back, for I had told the truth. My tough spoke the words of revival, and here I was feeling as free as I could be in this arena.

We laid side by side looking up to the sky. Our pupils lit with the bright light of those who have passed.

The first face was Leo's and with the first glimpse of him, I slid my arm underneath Jeq's head. Feeling her body gravitate closer to mine, her head resting on my chest. I lay my chin on her forehead, and used my hand to pull the hair from her eyes.

"If it hurts to much...just look to the stars." I say pointing to a gathering of little glowing starlets. I feel the lift and fall of her breath on my body, the low lull of her steady heart.

It was that same reassuring sound that had kept me sane last night. The pounding of her heart meant life in her body, and her life meant the world to me.

Though I had known that I would one day have to end it, if that day was ever to come, I pray the divine may guide me.

Without much more of a thought I feel my face drift off into peacefulness, finally feeling a solemn night of sleep. I had awaken with a flutter of my lashes, happy to still feel the warmth of Jeq at my shoulder.

I stand from my position, gently brushing my lips against her forehead to awaken her. Today was a new day, and we will see what it has in store, but I swear to you, no lives will be lost among us, for we have learned to survive using each other. And that is exactly what we were going to do...survive.

Travel was much harder today, scurrying our way to the cliffs took a toll om the both of us. I kept my arm wrapped around Jeq for safety even with her protest. I knew she was strong enough to do it on her own, but I just needed an excuse to keep my hand around her waist.

It had seemed as though the day would remain clear, not much we could expect to happen, other then the few birds that swirled above our heads. With ease we take a rest near the edge of the cliffs. It was a rather beautiful sight, all of this to take in at once.

But when I looked to my left I saw the glowing smirk of Jeq, and that made the scene all the more enjoyable. I couldn't help but muster up the weakest of smiles. Someone had been looking out for us, maybe a day of peace would finally come our way.

I lay all of my item down, and sit near the grassy edge of the cliff, watching as the waves curl and retreat. It was like they had been tumbling in a game of tag. It wasn't long before I help Jeq to sit, and Held her close to me.

"Its important to pause for the little things, how often do we get to watch the ocean play tag with the sand?" I say sitting back onto my elbows, feeling the dull sun reflect from my face, today we would find serenity.

Credit to Thundy

[arx]

Jequirity Eckhart

♫

tired mechanical heart

It grows cold as the sun that we had been blessed with sinks over the horizon. Stars come out to greet us, the chill of the night kissing our cheeks and noses red. Even in the dark I can see it. I scoot closer to Saxton and the heat she brings with her every breath. It's a comfort, even in a place where comfort is supposed to have been exterminated. So maybe it was false comfort that I felt as I listened to her heartbeat and her fingers brush my hair away from my face. But I need it, so I take it.

As the anthem starts... it's different, it's---my heart beats faster, tears welling in my eyes at the sound of strings, strings, and more strings. My phantom hand twitches, aching to feel the pull of strings beneath the bow. It's beautiful. I know I'm supposed to feel disheartened and discouraged by the melody, but all I feel is ecstasy. I should hate the Gamemaker's for reminding me of what I have lost, but I've never been one to shun beautiful music. So I let it fill me up and engulf me in joy.

As the music continues and Leo's face appears in the sky more tears flow down my cheeks. Saxton pulls me closer, wrapping her arm around me. My head falls to rest on her chest. her lungs rise and fall, her heart beats steady beneath her ribs, and the sweet lull of her voice pulls me closer and closer to sleep I had been sure I wouldn't find. "If it hurts too much...just look to the stars." Little does she know that I don't need the stars as long as I can hear the steady beat, beat, beat of her heart.

I drift off as the anthem comes to a close, a sweet warning dancing in my ears. Joy in this life seldom lasts.

I wake the next day slowly rather than abruptly as I had on previous nights. Saxton shifts beneath me, the warmth of her lips against my forehead reassuring me that there was no need to rush to take up my sword. The smallest of grins comes over me. And then I'm reminded of my mother's kiss against my forehead and the grin falls away. I give a heavy sigh, remembering that no matter what Saxton does for me, she will have to die at some point if I am to feel my mothers' warm embraces ever again.

Cliffs were hard with only one arm. I tried to protest when Saxton continued to help me—I don't need help, I don't need help, I don't need help—but she insisted. Part of me wondered if she was doing it for her and not for me. So I let it go and let the feeling of her arm wrapped around my waist comfort me.

We sit next to the cliff edge, looking out over the ocean before us. Birds, ones that appear to have no quarrel with us, circle above our heads. The ebb and flow of the ocean over the sand, the sound of the waves crashing in the distance—it makes me smile. Even in a place like this there is beauty. Even here nature has its own voice, its own song.

"Its important to pause for the little things, how often do we get to watch the ocean play tag with the sand?" I glance at Saxton now, giving a simple nod. She has the smallest of smiles on her face, something that only makes mine grow larger. "It reminds me of a song I had been writing," I say, looking back out over the ocean. The breeze is warm today, the sun blotted out by waves of fog and mist. It truly is beautiful. But my own words bring on a bittersweet memory of a violin in my hands and a song in my heart. Slowly the smile falls from my face.

Saxton sits back on her elbows, settling into what can only be described as a day of serenity, peace, joy.

Joy in this life seldom lasts.

The words call out to me again, whispering as if it had only been on the breeze. I grab my sword and set it in my lap, staring at my reflection in the blade. My eyes are bloodshot despite the relatively restless night of sleep. This moment would not last. But I was going to get as much from it as I could before it disappeared forever.

"What did you do back home? Before all this?"

beats 'til the song disappears

lol dowsing cause why not
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