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Post by Anna Banana on Aug 29, 2013 21:15:15 GMT -5

Name: Abra Vespoli
Age: 12
Gender: Female
District/Area: District 4
Appearance:

I'm a Vespoli, some of us look the same, some of us don't. We're all one happy family though, and why shouldn't we be, we have each other.

Personality:

I'm a little more mature than most people my age, but sometimes I just want to be a little kid. Sometimes I just want to act my age instead of pretending I'm something I'm not.

History:

I lost my parents, it's sad but true, and I think with them died a little bit of my childhood. Is it wrong that I try to cling to that childhood, that I don't want to grow up to fast. Maybe it's too late for that, after everything I've been through maybe I'm not supposed to be a child.

Codeword: Odair
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Last Edit: Aug 31, 2013 21:49:27 GMT -5 by Anna Banana

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Post by Anna Banana on Aug 30, 2013 22:14:22 GMT -5

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Abra· Vespoli
(noun) /pro-noun-ci-a-tion/
1. 12, Female, District 4

“Is it wrong to paint a smile on your face when you hurt so much?”

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[/size]I've had to suffer the loss of my parents, they were great people, I loved them dearly. That isn't to say I'm alone now, I still have my brothers and sisters and cousins, but I don't have anyone in my life who can play that role of a mom or dad. Of course they weren't exactly the most responsible parents, but I'm only twelve years old, how am I supposed to grow up properly without them in my life. My brothers and sisters aren't exactly the most responsible people in the world, and for that matter neither am I. I'm probably the only twelve year old ~~at least that I know of~~, that's ever gotten stuck on drugs and booze. How's that for childhood innocence gone away in the blink of an eye? Well if I'm being honest that's just how our family is, we're set apart from everyone else and mind our own business, or at least we did before our parents died. It's hard to say how things will be now.

All I know is that we're all going to make the best of what life has given us, and for myself...well...I'm growing up faster than I thought I would. Do I wish I still could act my age and rely on my siblings not to let me grow up too fast? Yes, of course I wish that, but there comes a time in everyone's life when we just have to face the facts and grow up. It's time I accepted the fact that my parents are gone and they aren't coming back. My days of playing in the sun and laughing without a care in the world are over. I need to make sure I help the family stay together, I need to be the glue that keeps us all together and will make sure we never go our separate ways.

Of course some of my brothers are a bit...how to put this nicely...impossible to control. They're as wild and unruly as the ocean itself, and just as unpredictable too. Of course that's a large part of their charm, the fact that they were unpredictable made them fun to be around. You never knew what they would say or do next, and they never ceased to keep the family laughing in one way or another. That's another one of our family traits, we found joy in some of the simplest things in life. We didn't need the riches of some people, we didn't need the devastating good looks of others, we were just...us...the Vespoli family. Look at me though, I sound like I've lived a thousand lives and watched worlds come and go, I'm only twelve, I've barely lived one life.

Before my parents died, I was rather oblivious to things that went on around me. When I would wake up in the morning it was all about how much fun I could have and how I would do it. I'd play with my younger siblings and cousins, running and shouting all day without a care in the world. We had no cares at that point, our mother and father took good cares of us ~~maybe not so much morally or ethically~~, and we had self worth. We were taught to always look out for ourselves and do what we wanted in life. We all took that philosophy to heart, and it served us well, the world was ours for the taking, ~~or so we thought~~. Why should we think otherwise though, we were so set apart from the rest of the world, so different from everyone, we may as well be a different species from them.

It didn't bother us though, we liked how things were, ~~that could have been the affect of the drugs though~~. Yes, you heard me right, I said drugs. Maybe a funny word to here coming from a twelve year olds mouth, but they were as much a part of my life as waking up and eating breakfast was to the "normal" people that lived further inland. What was so wrong with it anyways, it kept us happy, and we never bothered anyone as a result. It just helped us see clearer, see the world in a different light from everyone else and realize that as terrible as the world was there were ways to find happiness. Talking about this though I sound so much older than I really am, maybe I never really was young to begin with.

I want to cling to my childhood memories and not grow up to fast, but what if I've already lost my childhood and grown up. It's like I live a double life, or at least have a split personality. Part of me is still a child that loves to run around and play, and doesn't want to have the responsibilities. Still...there is another part of me that has perhaps seen and done things no other twelve year old has. I don't see it as a bad thing though, that's been such a huge part of my life, something that has molded me into what I am today. So what am I exactly, am I a regular twelve year old girl or am I something strange and different, a product of the upbringing I've had.

I don't know what I am anymore, I just paint a smile on my face and hide my confusion by going about my day as I did before. Before my parents died I didn't feel this confusion though, I knew who I was and what I wanted to be. It's like by losing them I lost a part of myself that I may never be able to get back. When I look in the mirror I don't see that smiling, carefree girl anymore. I see a girl who's appearance mirrors her innermost thoughts and fears. Where once my eyes were bright and sparkling there seems to be an almost melancholy appearance to them. My mouth is no longer always drawn up into a smile, and my laughing seems hollow and empty. I've changed...and maybe not for the better...losing my parents seems to have done something to me...affected me in a way that I could never have forseen.

Maybe not entirely on the outside but those sparkling brown eyes are gone, and with them my smile. Maybe it is wrong to paint a smile on my face when I'm filled with so much despair, but I can't let my family know that I miss mom and dad, they're all coping with it so well. I'm smiling for their beneift...maybe that's why I'm growing up so fast...I'm taking on too much responsibility...I'm not letting myself stay carefree. Maybe what I really want is to just fall into my older brothers and sisters arms and cry. Maybe I want them to tell me it will all be okay and that I can still be a little kid, and I can just cry the tears that refused to come on the day my parents died. The tears I've been holding back for so long now, the tears that make my eyes sparkle not with happiness...but with sorrow.

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