Drowning {In} ~My~ {New} Life /Wyld\

[wyldwing]

(ooc- changing Jason colors to fit him better <33)

I felt as if my whole world had just shattered to peices. Had she really said that? Was I going crazy? My whole world just seemed to be falling apart slowly. The facade I'd been working so hard to keep up was slowly melting right before my eyes. I was no longer numb. My first instinct was to flee. It was the simplest choice, and the easiest. I'd run all my life. I was never one to actually fight when the going gets tough, running helped me from getting caught up in things I didn't want to be associated with. Like my past. I tensed my muscles, preparing to make up some lame-ass excuse and run for it, like the coward I was.

Then, I actually looked at Li-Li. My friend. My first love. And here she was, admitting that she loved me. Why was I running? Life could be perfect with her. I could be happy. Happy The word wrang through my head painfully. Happiness was something i'd avoided for a long time. Something, I'd never really missed until now. I didn't deserve this. I didn't deserve Li-Li.

"Li-Li... I..." God damn, I couldn't seem to get the words out. I took a deep breath, I could do this. I could. What was I going to do? Tell her I was caught up wallowing in self-pity and that I simply didn't have time for anyone else? What AM I? This was everything I'd ever dreamed of, only a year ago. I'd wanted nothing more than for Li-Li than to say, what she had said only a few seconds ago. I took another breath, then did the last thing I was ever expecting I'd do. What I'd wanted to do so badly what seemed like so long ago.

I kissed Li-Li.

[wyldwing]

A spark. That was what happened the moment her lips touched mine. Instant electricity. A thousand thoughts were flying through my head so quickly, I didn't comprehend most of them. This was unlike anything I felt before, but I'm not quite sure if that was a good or bad thing. I closed my eyes, taking in everything that was going on. It was all too much... moving way too fast. This seemed to be all to much, yet, I was all for it. Li-Li was everything I'd ever wanted. She was smart, beautiful, independent...

There was a sudden surge of an unkown feeling. What was it? It was warm... joyful... amazing. It wasn't competely new, I'd felt it before... but it had been so long. I was feeling Love. For the first time in months, I felt a real surge of love. It wasn't just an empty word, it was powerful, meaningful. Everything was becoming so clear, all of a sudden. But why? Why in the world was I suddenly open to all this. It was stupid. It only led to heartbreak. I couldn't do that to myself again. I couldn't do it to Li-Li. I tried to break the kiss, I really did, but it was too amazing, too electric to stop. It was everything I'd ever wanted.

A sudden memory flashed through my mind. We were all sitting on the beach, telling stories. Li-Li was so close to me, but she was far away... untouchable, taken. She was so close to me now, she admitted she loved me, how could I say no to her. Then, another memory flashed across my mind.

[/size]

"M-my boy..."I grasped at my mother's hand, desperate to help her. The was a look of shear pain twisting her usually elegant features, this wasn't my mother, it couldn't be. "M-ma, please!" Tears streamed down my face as I looked at my mother. Blood stained the floor. A baby cried in the distance. The baby that had killed my mother. My mother looked at me sadly, she was already half-way gone. There was no one that could save her, not even the best doctors in the world. She drew a final, painful breath and then her hand went limp in mine. Her eyes were glazed over, the look of pain and dispair permanently frozen on her face. I couldn't stand it. I closed her eyes, set her hand down gently and walked away. Not a tear rolled down my cheek anymore, my eyes were blank, cold. There was no point grieving. It was too late, my mother was ripped from me. And I was hellbent on revenge

I was snapped back into reality when I felt tears threatening to come. No, I hadn't cried since that night. And I sure as hell wasn't going to now.

I tried to break the kiss again. I simpy couldn't. I was growing weak, and well, I didn't care. Not now anyway.[/center]

[Ally is tentatively back]

I kiss him back immediately. I feel like a little kid again... our first kiss.

"Go on, Jason. Try to kiss her!" One boy jeers. I blush scarlet, and so does the boy in front of me.

Jason Troy.

We both got dared into this predicament. I don't even know exactly how it happened... it just did.

He apparently is better coping with embarrassment than I am. Because while I was thinking, Jason planted a kiss on my lips.

I smile against the lips that are still the same as back then. Slightly sugary and very soft. I pull away only reluctantly.

"Jasey..." I smile, but it feels sad on my face. Because I just thought of something.

"Jasey. Promise you won't leave me. Please. Too many people have left, and it's just too much. I can't..." I'm interrupted by his lips again.

He doesn't need to say it, his eyes have already promised.

And so, just as our story began, likewise would the next chapter. After all the heartbreak and pain... Our fates were sealed with a kiss.

{OOC: sorry for powerplaying, i think we can call this done.}

[wyldwing]

[ooc- Thats fine he would've done it anyway, and yep, it's done ]