Random meeting and blood~Nick~
Nov 12, 2012 15:49:59 GMT -5
Post by Jack Lexington on Nov 12, 2012 15:49:59 GMT -5
Her smile encourages me to breath a little easier. Her words do as well. "The doctor said that you should make a full recovery. It's going to hurt for a while, but there is medicine for that." Nitya tells me but forgets to explain what on earth was bleeding like I had been butchered. "What was wrong?" I wonder, not that it mattered now. "I guess it doesn't matter now that they fixed it." I'm still oblivious to the meaning and impact the loss of an organ could have. And I don't care, especially when Nitya points out again that my true identity has been discovered and I'm about to be reported to the peace keepers. Even her physical closeness and warmth cannot calm my shaking. Her words however provide some comfort as she assures me that she doesn't intend to fullfill her civil duties and turn me in. Instead she tells me that I mean too much to her. I mean TOO MUCH. The words echo in my head like something I've never heard before. And that's probably the secret key why I feel connected to her. I mean something to her. Who has ever told me that before? Maybe my foster parents but I never thought they were being sincere because I was too much trouble. I had a bad conscience. How could they care?
Nitya, on the other hand is credible because I feel that I have done my best to deserve at least being liked. Do I deserve her putting herself in danger for me? Not really.
"You shouldn't do that. You'll get punished if you knowingly hide a criminal."
It's hard to call myself that because I don't feel like I've really committed a crime, aside from charming girls so they'd let me stay in their beds and eat their food. But i have crossed over district borders which is a criminal offense.
Nitya continues and refers to us as 'we'...as in not you and me but we-together and that's exactly how I feel. Belonging, togetherness.
"Thank you." I mutter lowly. "I'm not sure I deserve that but thank you." I turn my head a little more so my lips touch the soft, pale skin of her cheek.
"I shouldn't drag you into this.."
Who is saying this? is it really me? This is very unlike me. Usually I look out for myself and nobody else. Only this way I've gotten this far. Unfortunately now I'm lost without her help.
I shift a little to get a better look at her face but even that tiny movement is excrutiating and makes me wince.
"Without you I'll go to prison. I need you to get me out of here before the peace keepers come here. But before you decide I'll tell you who I am." I surprise myself with this statement. It must be the shitload of painkillers and anesthetics in my system that are making me let my guard down. I have to pause and collect myself for a moment, work up some strength before I explain in a whisper. "My name is Nick Travis. I was born in district 6, where I ran away from my foster parents at the age of 14. I've been crossing from one district into another ever since. I stole a few things here and there just to survive and I slept with a lot of girls to stay under their parents roofs and eat their food. From time to time I gamble to make money and.." I gasp because I run out of breath and drawing deep breaths causes my side to expand.
"Ah...shit. I still owe people money...it wasn't until maybe a year before I met you that I've been leading a straight, honest life."
I can't even look at her any more now that she knows what a scumbag I really am. All the hearts I've broken and the people I used. It's shameful and I know it.
"I'm sorry. I'm not proud of my past."
Nitya, on the other hand is credible because I feel that I have done my best to deserve at least being liked. Do I deserve her putting herself in danger for me? Not really.
"You shouldn't do that. You'll get punished if you knowingly hide a criminal."
It's hard to call myself that because I don't feel like I've really committed a crime, aside from charming girls so they'd let me stay in their beds and eat their food. But i have crossed over district borders which is a criminal offense.
Nitya continues and refers to us as 'we'...as in not you and me but we-together and that's exactly how I feel. Belonging, togetherness.
"Thank you." I mutter lowly. "I'm not sure I deserve that but thank you." I turn my head a little more so my lips touch the soft, pale skin of her cheek.
"I shouldn't drag you into this.."
Who is saying this? is it really me? This is very unlike me. Usually I look out for myself and nobody else. Only this way I've gotten this far. Unfortunately now I'm lost without her help.
I shift a little to get a better look at her face but even that tiny movement is excrutiating and makes me wince.
"Without you I'll go to prison. I need you to get me out of here before the peace keepers come here. But before you decide I'll tell you who I am." I surprise myself with this statement. It must be the shitload of painkillers and anesthetics in my system that are making me let my guard down. I have to pause and collect myself for a moment, work up some strength before I explain in a whisper. "My name is Nick Travis. I was born in district 6, where I ran away from my foster parents at the age of 14. I've been crossing from one district into another ever since. I stole a few things here and there just to survive and I slept with a lot of girls to stay under their parents roofs and eat their food. From time to time I gamble to make money and.." I gasp because I run out of breath and drawing deep breaths causes my side to expand.
"Ah...shit. I still owe people money...it wasn't until maybe a year before I met you that I've been leading a straight, honest life."
I can't even look at her any more now that she knows what a scumbag I really am. All the hearts I've broken and the people I used. It's shameful and I know it.
"I'm sorry. I'm not proud of my past."