July, Walking *{Lightbringer+kittyoemily}*

[kittyoemily]

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Daniel Sizzing

Her head leans against my shoulder and I felt closer to her than I have with anyone for a long time. I liked joking, and I am good at it too. I also like opening up though also. My smile is not all smile. I may have found someone who sees me deeper than just a comedic relief in an awkward conversation. Someone who values me. She valued me as a companion. As a person to snuggle up with. She might even value me as her boy friend. We have only known each other for a day, and I will add a second day if you can count running into her and almost sleeping into a long sleep with the concussion, even then it was so fast.


"Well. This is as far as I've ever been with a boy," I looked downward and whispered. " This is the only movement I have made with a girl." I was referring to getting off of that friendship base with a girl. I have never ever really even found a friend who is a girl, led a lone one who might become more than that. I hear the nervousness in her voice as she speaks again. "I guess now we're both on new ground." I know I should feel flattered, and I am, just maybe it is my concussion speaking, but I feel like we may have taken this a bit too far too fast. Does she actually want this? Is she being sincere. A part of me thinks not. A part me can tell that she is regretting getting so close too. Should I leave? These thoughts became even more complicated when she kisses me again. This time with less passion than before. It was almost as if she thought she had to. Is she regretting something? Did I do something wrong, and many other thoughts play through my head.

I know what I was going to have to ask. It pained me to have to. That and what I also have to do. Before I do I take my lips and press the closely to her ear kissing it gently. I take in her smell for maybe one of my last times. I take in the heat I felt from her skin pulsating through my own two lips. Pulling away I drop the towel that was wrapped around us and took a step back leaving her with the one wrapped around her. I stared at her and then for just a second stared at my soaked shoe then looked at her again. " You don't regret meeting me.... do you? " I took a breath." You don't regret going this far do you? Tell me the truth?" Some how I felt my heart break for a moment at the thought of her regretting this. This,what we had between us. I know what I thought about not caring if she liked me back and how I will always like her and be okay with that. No it was some sick joke that I played on myself. I actually did care. A half a heart cares to have the other half in order to function. Love is the same way. It must go between both. Suddenly a small tear makes its way to out of my eyes. The thought of loosing her or just plain of knowing she was never mine hurt me than anything I have experienced so far. I was an acorn that was being cracked open then smashed into a million of pieces.


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occ: not all relationships are perfect? XD umm take it what comes naturally. lol umm make it good? No matter what you think I want or expect do what you have been doing so far it has been working and making this thread "juicy " lol

[Loki]

I pause and clutch at my towel as I contemplate Daniel's very serious questions. I pause. I think. And the I say, "No, I don't regret meeting you! I'm so happy we've met and this... whatever this is, happened to us. I don't regret either how far we've gone already, and tell him so, just adding, "I am just scared of going ...you know, too far. The stuff that can get you in trouble."

I nod matter-of-factly and then I take his hands. I like how far we've gone now, though. I like it a lot, and I hope he can read that in my smile and sparkling eyes. I lean in a little again, and hope for another kiss. I know that most dangerous part is losing my heart, but piece by piece, I am. Losing my heart to him.

[kittyoemily]

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Daniel Sizzing

The wait seems like forever, and for a moment I thought she may just not reply and imply that I should just leave. I was about to turn around in fact I had my left foot up ready to turn and exit. The heart almost felt like it broke in two all before she spoke. And when she spoke it was like jumping into an lake during the winter. It was bitter cold, surprising but most of all relieving. Like the ice was finally broken and you did not have to wonder when and if it will happen. She explained how she did not regret anything. I felt a bit better but wondered what was wrong. Am I too young for her? Did she tell the peacekeepers I was here after yesterdays incident. Was this her plan the whole time? Am I a pawn to get more food. Just food. That would explain her not regretting this, all for a quick meal. I have begun to feel suspicious but I stood there. I stood there to know the real reason. Luckily there was one that I was not thinking of. She told me she was just afraid of it going too fast. I am relieved but hurt a bit still. Was I being too pushy? Did I read her signs wrong. Ugh why am I like that.

She is near me now. I get lost in her eyes and her smile. I never wanted to go too fast with her, and in fact I did not want to do it now. I was apprehensive, and maybe I should have listened more to my conscience but some how my wild side wanted to jump head first. head first into love. I was not ready to go slower, I wanted to for her, but me no I wanted to be selfish. I wanted her to be mine even before she was mine. I know I am a jerk but still. So when she held my hands and I was able to stare right into her eyes, I decided to go in for that kiss. She acts like she wants it, but I know this is too fast still. I know I should warn her that we just met and kissing is too fast. It would ruin this relationship before it even happened. I ignored my conscience. I wanted to do this. Maybe she will realize this is not too fast. Suddenly I am walking on water. The warmth of her lips against mine. My heart beating faster than light itself. The only thing faster than my heart beat was probably the speed at which we progressed this relationship. Sparks are going off in my head as I kiss. Kiss the first girl that I have ever kissed and hopefully my last girl. Because I want her to be mine.


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[Loki]

As Daniel kisses me again, its even better than the previous kisses, I press my hands against his chest, and it feels like I am kissing for the first time, almost, as if the other boys I'd kissed just instantly face away. Far down this silvery dream, I can see Daniel and I growing up together, and getting married, everything. As I kiss him, though, I don't say anything of my crazy romantic thoughts.I just let him kiss me, and enjoy the sweetness of it. I whisper his name, just once, against his lips. Just to hear it: Daniel.

[kittyoemily]

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Daniel Sizzing

We kiss like two magnets pulled together by fate. They can let go of each other but they don't want to. They are closed almost like glue, only one of them or both can brake them apart. We would only brake for a breath of air, but we continue to be stuck together as we kiss. She says my name and it is like a dream the way she says it. She says it so nicely. I want to replay it over and over again in my mind. I want to replay all of this again in my mind.

I had a wild idea, one that I know is more like the Daniel before I met July, but perhaps that is a good idea. Perhaps it will keep this relationship fresh and cool. I mean it can also tear the whole thing apart. But really two parts of me in this relationship the possibilities were endless." July." I whispered in between our kiss and breathing for air. " I am taking you for a ride." And before I knew it I was lifting her up into my arms. I must admit I felt like I was going to fall over at first but love took over this passion for love. " I hope you did not waste your time getting dry." I laughed at this as I rushed out of the house in the pouring rain. Well as fast as I could carrying someone in my arms who was my size. I took her a few feet until we were in the path. Then I sat her down on her feet. " We can go unnoticed for hours." I said as I put mud on my face and my body. I knew it was kind of a joke, because frankly people could still notice us no matter the amount of mud, but perhaps she will be wild a bit knowing she does not look like herself per say. It would be like her own personal mask. " Hell we can live out there in the forest." I grinned as I grabbed another handful of mud and as rain came pouring down. Really I was thinking about running away with her, but I did not want to say it or imply it just yet. She may not even be willing to get her hands dirty which is why I have not bothered forcing mud on her.

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[Loki]

When Daniel breaks the kiss and swoops me up in his arms I start laughing, and though the last thing I would have expected was to be carried out into the rain, it's not as though I really mind or anything; I like the rain. When he started painting himself with mud, I probably looked as startled as I felt. After all, I hadn't played in the mud for years, but watching him do it and have apparently a lot of silly fun doing it makes me want to join in, so I scoop up a big handful of wet mud and make a sort of ball with it, run back a few feet, and throw it at him, and I'm giggling like a loon and calling out 'Mud fight!" I know it was just on the spur of the moment, but what fun! I don't recall having much real fun with other boys I've 'dated', so it's a delight to feel so young and free around Daniel. I still have a couple hours before I have to be at work, and I intend to enjoy them to the fullest with my wonderful new boyfriend!

[kittyoemily]

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Daniel Sizzing

She clearly did not hear me out in the rain. She did not hear my seriousness in my voice. It is all understandable who can take anyone covered in mud seriously. I laugh as I am waked in the face with a glob of mud. I quickly bounce back and throw a huge pile of mud at her face as well. I laugh and enjoy myself. " Well we will fit in with the trees today." laughing I thought about my joke. My smile turned into a surprised face." We might be mistaken for trees." I grinned as I threw another handful of mud at her hair.

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[Loki]

I laugh as we throw mud at each other and get filthy, something I haven't done since I was a small child, but, now it seems just as fun as it did then, probably because of the company I am keeping. I lunge in and give Daniel a muddy kiss while I drop more mud on top of his head. Just having ridiculous silly fun for no reason is a much a treat as skipping school in the first place, though we will have to clean up before work. At least, I don't want to deal with the comments from the other workers if I showed up looking like a Bog Monster. I let him throw mud at me and scoop up some more, and mold it a bit til I can trace a heart in it.."Here, your very own mud pie.." I offer it to him, smiling...