fearless thoughts [abel/hook] jb thread
Sept 26, 2021 16:48:58 GMT -5
Post by kap on Sept 26, 2021 16:48:58 GMT -5
H O O K
O ' M A L L E Y
I'm meant to be the strong one. Had Prop gone into the Games after being reaped, it would've been a really tough thing to do, just like it was with Six. With Abel volunteering, however? I don't know, for some reason, my heart didn't care as much as it would have if it were one of my siblings rather than my cousin. I wasn't close with my cousins much at all, really. I mean, I'm not soulless and dead inside: I still care about my cousins, so I still cared when Abel volunteered. I felt a pain in my chest that told me it wasn't okay for him to go into the Hunger Games, either, but for some reason, part of me said it was better than it being Prop.
Prop's my brother. I'm much closer with him than I am with Abel. The thing is, I'm not an emotionless individual, no matter how tough I try to seem for Fly and the others. I still care about Abel, and I won't act like I don't. I won't cry, but I won't just stand by and act like everything's fine, either. So, I decided that I needed to visit him. I needed to go to Abel in the Justice Building after the reaping and say goodbye to him.
I hadn't wronged him in any way, so it wasn't like I had to apologize. I just wanted him to know that at least one of us cared about the fact that he had volunteered to go into the upcoming Hunger Games and was going to go fight to the death with a bunch of other teenagers. I wasn't going to be all mushy gushy about it, either, though. I didn't want to seem like I was overly emotional about any of it, because I wasn't super heartbroken, but I still was at least a little bit. I wasn't immune to the pain of a family member potentially dying.
I'll admit, I'm not as worried about Abel as I was about Six, because Abel just seems... stronger. That in no way is meant to be degrading of Six. They're just built differently from one another. Maybe that's why I didn't get as emotional about my cousin as I did about my brother. It's not an attachment thing, it's a confidence thing. Normally, I would've had a lot of confidence in Prop, too, but right now, his leg is broken, so that means that of he and Abel, Abel probably has the better chance.
When I walk into the room, I look at Abel and nod gently.
"What made you do it?" I ask. It's a simple question. I just want to know why he decided to volunteer for Prop. Was it out of familial love? Was it because he wanted to go into the Games? Was it a desperate cry for attention? Was it to prove he was better than his brother or his cousins? I just wanted to know what exactly crossed his mind when he made that split-second decision.
Was it even a split-second decision, or was he planning on volunteering regardless of who was reaped? I couldn't really get an answer to that unless I asked him the question, right? So, that's why I asked. Curiosity. Perhaps a morbid curiosity, but a curiosity nonetheless.[549 words]
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