letters to nowhere [flynn]

[d7m fraser birk ♚ frankel]

FLYNN GARNER
YEAR OF THE 89TH

Aurora,

Where did you go? We were meant to meet in the same classroom that we always do on the Monday I came home. Now I don’t think I can even go back to school now. 2 years of my life wasted. No! No, it wasn’t wasted it all. I met you. You were the only new face of normality since my victory. The only person that treat me like a normal kid and not a celebrity. Now those two years will just be memories. Now I must go on for another two years with just memories of you. Two years isn’t long you know but the memories I have will last my lifetime. I promise you.

I have been told to write a journal but who am I talking to in a journal, myself? I can talk to myself in my head. I can talk to myself in my nightmares. I just want to be able to talk to you again. You always listened when I needed you too, especially after Robin. After the frustrations of Teddy and my mom. I hope I listened well for you too, but I know I probably didn’t. You know I am better at talking, it is probably why you got me into that detention for the first time. Imagine if we never got detention with Ms Baxter. You might still be here…

You will find it funny, what they are all saying about you and I. Aurora you were like a best friend to me, you are a best friend and now you are gone. I will never understand why, and I know you would tell me not to blame myself for it but it is hard not to but can you do me one favor, from where ever you are? There will be more coming, every year. Each one will take a part of me with them. Just please welcome them, be just as kind as you were to me with them. I just need assurance that they will all be okay otherwise I cannot continue to watch them fall just like you have. Like Jack. Like Willa. Like Robin.

I know I am going to have to go home and face your parents. I have no idea what I am going to say, hopefully the right thing. Maybe I should speak to the girl you volunteered for. I have been too selfish to think that I am the only one grieving for you. It will help me to help them. It is all I can do now that you are gone.

I do not know what else to say. Until we meet again,

Flynn.

[d7m fraser birk ♚ frankel]

Nanette,

Date: The 93rd Annual Hunger Games

I need help.

It has been six years since I lost you and it feels like it has been the worst six years of my life.

You will be proud of me for pursuing my dreams of being surgeon, I have got a place at a new teaching hospital. My sisters and I have settled well into the victor’s village, I think. I have even fallen for someone.

But.

So much has happened in six years, so much loss and pain. There was Robin and Willa after you. I was told not to get attached but it is hard not to, doctor’s get attached to their patients. It is a part of being human. I really liked Robin and I lost him.

When I went back home after the 87th, I made friends with a girl called Aurora. A new face to the usual Dares Club that have filled my childhood for so many years. But she volunteered for the games and I lost her in the bloodbath with Jack. Just gone so quickly and I couldn’t do anything.

Like I couldn’t do anything for all the people that died in the bombings before my victory tour.

Then there was Lucien and Peter.

And they even took one of my cousins, Quinn! My family. I felt bad for neglecting Kiptyn but there was nothing I could do for either of them.

A plague hit Panem, it started in District Six and I caught it at the Science Fair. I survived but so many did not. It even took one of the victors, Patricia. It feels like Panem looks down at us now, it is like we are to blame. Those games I was so close to bringing Izzy home as some kind of redemption for Six but we lost them with Kiko.

Now they have taken the one I have fallen for, Johnny. Amaterasu is already dead and I don’t know what to do Nanette!

There so many people I care about but the pain of losing them, I cannot deal with it anymore. My sisters are still in the reaping pool. Another plague may come and steal my friends. I can’t keep losing people close to me. Nanette, I need help. Maybe I should stop growing so attached to everyone around me, the world just wants to take them away. I should just push them away to save them.

Flynn.