call my sorrows by name ★ oz&celeste
Feb 20, 2022 5:33:46 GMT -5
Post by Cait on Feb 20, 2022 5:33:46 GMT -5
celeste brere
I’d decided to steer clear of the weapons after a disastrous first day with the head trainers. They’d told me the right weapon would “call to me” or some magical bullshit like that, but everything I’d picked up had been too heavy, or too crass, or made my skin itch in the worst way.
Mama used to tell me I was a fighter, back when the sky would darken before 6pm and I would ask to crawl into her bed to keep the night terrors away. She told me I was so brave, and hold my hand as she walked me back to my own bed and tucked me in, singing softly until the darkness became a friend to take me into the land of the sleeping.
Right now, I feel anything but brave. There’s no trace of a fighting girl in me – hasn’t been for months now, since the moon disappeared and the sun burned too brightly – and I don’t know how to get her back.
I start to make my way towards the plant station, seeking out the faint familiarity, a small bittersweet reminder of home, until something in my peripheral snags my attention and pulls me up short.
The room isn’t crowded, so it’s easy to spot the small kid hanging out in the corner, shuffling his feet from side to side, looking like he doesn’t know what to do with himself. And honestly, same.
He’s familiar, but not quite. I feel a pull towards him and let me feet change their course.
I grab a roll of bandages from the first aid station on my way over to him, wrap it loosely around my arm, and stop in front of him, looking down with soft eyes. I hold my hands out to him, full of unravelled bandages, and smile sheepishly.
“Do you want to try and help me tie these? I can’t get the pressure right.”