Silent Storm [Rene Day One]

[Malachor Erso D2 (Cato)]

Being alone is scary. I've always been an independent person, and now I'm forced to place my trust in others. It's harder than I ever imagined, yet I have to let myself realize that it's out of my control. It's easy to think that this could all blow up in my face, and many times I feel like that's going to happen, but right now I have nothing to worry about unless a bunch of tributes decided to randomly jump me. It's always a possibility, and I wouldn't blame them for it. Why now take the time to take out a career? Don't they realize being a career isn't always worth it though? The odds aren't in our favor, but I want them to be in mine.

Part of me is envious of Mav, though. He volunteered for this, and while I know he regrets it based on our conversations together, I always wanted this moment for myself. I always wanted to fight for the honor by saving the life of someone I never knew, and I won't have that chance. Mav has it, and I feel like he's not taking it seriously, but who am I to judge him?

I stop what I'm doing, and I start taking in my surroundings. Everything is peaceful and calm, but my eyes focus on the clouds in the sky, and it's terrifying. A storm is coming, and I don't know if I'm ready for it. I don't think I'll ever be ready for it. A beautiful arena is about to be stained with blood. It's how it always goes. I know it won't be my blood though unless someone gets the best of me, which is always possible, I suppose. Right now, though, I want to take it all in. If there's anything I've learned leading up to this moment, it's to take each moment one breath at a time and allow myself to live and experience the thrill of it all. Life has a lot to offer, and I just now am learning to let myself enjoy it.

-collects stuff-