hopefully, you get this message . ulysses (day 6)

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U L Y S S E S.

"I'm a talker, you know? It's just… sorta of what I do. Talk, say what's on my mind, and crack a few five-star dad jokes in there. That's why I followed along with all of the chit-chat from Lillybird earlier. I'm lonely. Not afraid to admit it. That's why I'm talking to you guys right now."

"Alone and lonely are two similar but extremely different things. Yesterday, running out of the thorns, I was both alone and lonely. I thought maybe Jayson or Torian would find me and we could pick up where things left off. But nope, I haven't seen them. Not in the flesh, anyway. Torian's out there somewhere, hopefully not as beaten up as I am. Jayson… fuck man, he's dead, isn't he? I would've seen him in those holograms by now. Not getting to say goodbye to him, that hurts. You hear that, Jayson? Yeah, motherfucker, I'm talking to you! Wherever you are, anyway. See you soon. Or in a really long time. Depends on the situation I guess."

"But yeah, if he can't hear me, one of you will. There's someone with their face glued to a screen watching my every move and listening to every syllable. That's heartwarming, having people who care about you when it feels like they're a planet away. Talking with no response is still talking, and you're still listening. I might be alone right now, but I'm sure not lonely. You know what I mean? If you know, you know, and if you don't know what you don't know, you don't know it. Right? Is that how that… saying goes… I don't actually know. What I do know is the saying has a whole lot of knows in it. There's a lot of uncertainty right now, so I actually don't know… you know what, I'm talking myself in circles. People all over the place who are invested in you as a person, even if you've never met face to face. If you get it, you get it."

"Whew. That was a mouthful. Okay. Topic change. Whichever one of you Gamemakers made Caspian's face grow with fungus, Torian's head grow antlers, and make me piss a rainbow… impressive! And Jayson's tattoos… how'd you even manage that? Like, did you make his skin rotate or something? All of it was scary as fuck in the beginning, but now it's cool as fuck. Maybe next time instead of giving a dude such as myself rainbow urine, we could make do like… a dragon tail or wings. That would be badass. Yeah. Ulysses the Silver Dragon… nice."

"Okay, I'll be completely honest my entire face hurts and I don't think the talking is helping a whole lot. So I'm going to tend to that and shut the hell up for a little while. Sound good? Good. Nice. Maybe I'll take a nap while I'm at it… we'll see. Anyway, peace!"

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