As Tears Go By, Clove Makes A Decision
Sept 25, 2010 20:10:57 GMT -5
Post by clovegoodshot on Sept 25, 2010 20:10:57 GMT -5
As I lay on my bed and my thoughts drift in and out of my brain, a small part of my head whispers three letters- r-p-g. A groan escapes my lips as I fling my legs from under me and hoist myself up to the laptop that taunts me in the corner.
Okay laptop, lets get this over with.
My computer loads the screen that is more common to me than any other. Orange background, the words Hunger Games on the front. I love it here. A place to slip from the real world from college stress, and sickness. I think of how I have already missed my chance at a high class college in (NY, NY) and my fingers slip off the screen.
The five threads that I am in all buzz for me, my inbox has seven unread messages that are all about me posting. I know from this moment that I can do it no longer. No longer. I shake that thought, and go to post in my thread with Damen. I wish I could meet these people in real life. As I click the "reply" button, my fingers slap me in the face and scream, "NO MORE!" at me.
My computer grows eyes, and quickly it screams, "I AM TIRED OF THIS SHIT!", and seconds later my community college books scream, "STUDY ME, PLEASE READ ME, YOU HAVE A TEST ON MONDAY!". My mind flies and I throw my book at the wall. Ugh!
I lock my eyes on the computer. It made me drop grades, and so much worse. I cry as I know what I must do. I click three buttons on my computer, and in seconds, my fingers are typing a goodbye thread on the RPG.
I can't do this. I must stay on the site, I LOVE it. My heart sighs as I hit a button that I have hit so many times before. Post message. My eyes roll down and read my goodbye post only but once as I click exit, and the site that I have spent hours, days, sweat and tears on, dissapears out of my site. Forever.
I close my laptop and glare at my college books. I walk over to them and begin to read. Columbus. Metric Theory. Death Cycle. Diseases. I learn so much on the first page that tells of where things are in the book. I look at my laptop one more time, and then my eyes flash back to my college book.
Old habits, new beginnings.
-End Of CloveGoodShot, The Girl That You Will Never Forget-
I am so busy. I hate it but I must go. I have got to work and get my life together. I apologize to anyone that I am in a thread with. I love you all on this site. You are all wonderful people. I will miss you all so much.
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To the staff,
Aya- Try not to kill anyone with your super awesome powers.
Lulu- I will miss you so much. Hugs!
Luna- Stay cool, your an awesome person!
Matt- *hugs you*. You know that I will miss you Matt!
Saph- Even on my worst days, you were always so nice to me. Thank you so much.
Wolfie- Awww. This is where I cry. *Goodbye Wolfie*
Thundy- *HAS A CROWBAR*- watch this girl everyone, keep her behaved.
Tori- I will think of you when I read these books. You were the person that inspired me to read them when I first ran into this amazing site!
Cinder- You are a Goddess of RP, and an amazing friend. <3 ya Cinder.
Phunke- Oh gracious. Good luck with Cameron. I will miss you.
Ree- You are the coolest! I hope to talk to you in the future sometime!
CC- I know that you will be Admin someday when Lulu becomes an old lady, no offense to the other staff, you are all amazing. Good luck CC!
Photobooth- I know that we never talked a whole lot, but I bet you are an awesome person! Goodbye!
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I will miss you ALL so much! I hope that maybe someday soon I will have a large control on my life and will rejoin the site, but that may never happen. I hope it does because I love everyone here! I miss you already! I hope this site lasts forever! It deserves to! Please, if this is the last thing I ever type on this site, please don't forget me!
Clove *cries and smiles*
Goodbye!
NEVERMIND I AM STAYING, BUT YEA, CC WILL BE ADMIN ONE DAY! THOUGH OUR ADMIN NOW IS AMAZING!
