[open?] written in flames
Jun 25, 2010 21:46:00 GMT -5
Post by [Ella] -- gone until 10/25 D= on Jun 25, 2010 21:46:00 GMT -5
[/blockquote][/blockquote]gerrard menderson.
When his parents took him to the doctor, it wasn't because there was anything wrong with him. To Gerrard, an appointment meant another visit with the medical counsler, in which he had no interest. Same questions were asked, with the same answers. At times like these, he wondered why his parents even bothered. He'd thought they had already learned.
And then, of course, there would be one primary questions to the list.
Do you still keep matches on you?
Gerrard would tell the truth. No, he didn't keep matches on him. That wasn't how he made his fire. The flames were the only thing that he understood. With his personality, he couldn't understand anything about himself or, especially, his emotions. But fire was another story.
He had a torch with him right now as he crossed over the uninhabited lands of the District -- even if it was a vivid, sunny afternoon. Still, Gerrard didn't need the fire to see. He took a seat on the hill and stuck the wooden stick between his knees, staring into the flames. And as he did so, he muttered something under his breath.
"It's not matches I have." Gerrard sighed and leaned back, never once letting the torch fall onto the grass. Once again, he was struck by how lively, how passionate the flames were as they danced across the top of the stick. It was a familiar feeling he couldn't describe. Was it happiness? Joy? Gerrard has always had trouble describing almost every single emotion he feels in his body. One thing was for sure though: he wanted to be exactly like the fire, feel exactly like it. But he couldn't. Not with his condition.
Gerrard shifted in his position, eyes locked on the shape in front of him. "I wonder what would happen if I throw the torch at that tree," he mused aloud to no one in particular. And yet, it was a pointless reverie. He'd never give up the fire that easily.