say goodbye to innocence; [ open ]
Jan 25, 2011 0:44:58 GMT -5
Post by анзие (Anz) on Jan 25, 2011 0:44:58 GMT -5
A heart attack is sleeping in your chest,
waiting 'til the timing is best;
So make a move while you're still breathing.
The world was silent this day; the house was quiet, almost eerie in its emptiness. Even the steady singing of the mockingjays had faded. The homey rattles below were gone as well, as were the quiet, agony-filled groans of his mother. Or perhaps it was simply Lachlan himself once again forcing the silence around his mind, causing all sounds to fall on deaf ears.
This is the way he could drift back into happier memories, into better times. Those times had been when she'd been still alive. There had been better versions of this day, all of them filled with joy and love. Though they could spare little, there had been celebrations too.
It was Amarante's birthday - and if she'd lived, she would have been sixteen. Sixteen and even more beautiful than she'd already been.
For a moment, Lachlan allowed himself to picture her: beautiful, laughing, and alive. The swirl of her chestnut hair, the gray eyes that matched his exactly, and the delighted smile on her lips. The sisterly love and concern that shone from her face when she looked upon her darker brother. Does she truly love me, as she said?
If she was still alive, he would be able to ask.
Had she lived, she would have fled. The angry, guilt-ridden though struck Lachlan like a bolt of lightning. He shoved it aside. There would be no such thoughts in his head now. Not on her birthday. There would be nothing to dirty his thoughts of Amarante - nothing.
He swung his feet over the edge of his bed, grabbed his jacket, and fled out his room, out the house, and into the night.
When you were mine, was I for you,
Just one cheap thrill to help you make it;
Dammit I hope you didn't fake it.