Please Read This

[skylarversion2]

okay so, i'm not trying to make this good. i want you guys to read it because i need someone to know how i feel about life in general, sorry if you guys don't understand. you can comment if you want. in fact, PLEASE comment. i want to see that people actually read this and that people know how i feel.

I hate life. it's not fun, the only reason i get up in the morning is because it's hot under the blankets or i'm hugnry. i dont look forward to going to school and awkwardly standing in the foyer while everyone else talks with their group of friends, and i don't like walking through the hallways and somehow seeing my reflection in a mirror or really clean window. i hate it when i'm in class and they call on me to answer a question and i get it wrong, and i really hate it when my face heats up and i make a subconscious habit to clutch at my shorts. i said i hate life but this is mainly about school. i don't know if that means i hate actual life or only school, but i think, at this point, school and life are the same thing

on the weekends, when i'm playing soccer, i have fun. most of the time, at least. of course, there are those times where some of the people on the soccer team mess with my head (i.e. staring at me for a hell of a long time or groping me or something) and i'm just flustered and i never know what to say because they're all cool kids and i don't want them to think i'm weird or something. i'm really self conscious and i don't know why. i never do anything to show that i;m self conscious, when i'm at school and i'm around the people i hang out with (i'm not going to say they're friends because they've never did anything that would make them friends, theyre just like people that i hang out with all the time and i make them laugh [on another note, i never know if they're laughing at how stupid i am or if what i did was actually funny])
i'll do things that expose me and make me look like i'm confident

at lunch i sit with all girls. i'm always afraid that somebody will call me out and mention that i only sit with all girls, and they'll ask if i'm gay and i'll be lost and i won't know what to say. actually, whenever someone asks that, i automatically say no. in fact, i've did this so many times that i have different ways of saying no. i'm so afraid that people don't like me that sometimes i just want to stay at the place that i live and seriously sit in the corner and not move. i think i would piddle around and maybe read some but that's about it. i don't have anything to take my mind off of the stuff i have problems with, and it's taking its toll on me

i'm really paranoid that you guys don't like me. in fact, i know some of you don't. it seems that when i first came on here, i was more liked than i am now, and i'm baffled. maybe it's because someone pissed me off once or twice and i deleted my account and now i don't use proper grammar and my writing sucks and i'm not original, or maybe that i have a lot of different viewpoints taht conflict with a lot of you all's, but either way, i don't feel like i fit in. i'm not leaving because there's a few people that i really like on here, even if they don't like me. besides, it's really addicting and i've been here for coming up on 2 years and i don't want to end that

i don't like it when i'm sitting in class and we're working in groups and i'll turn around to ask my friend something and someone in her group tells me to shut up and that it doesn't matter and that it isn't a big deal. and so i turn around because i'm too wimpy to defend myself and i can hear them talking about me and asking if i'm gay. and i don't hear my friend's response but i know she said yes because afterwards she says something like "why are you so freaked out, everyone knows." and then out of the corner of my eye i can see the douchebag (not my friend) cringing and wiggling and feeling uncomfortable. he says something like "that's gross" or something like that. when that kind of stuff happens i act like i don't hear it, i'll look at whatever we're working on and read something on it and try to hide my face because i know it's bright red and i know my ears are the color of blood

i hate life because sometimes there's no way to love it. i hate life and i hate myself and i hate everyone and everything but i don't want to die, i feel so small because a lot of the time i just think of the universe and how lonely everyone human on this earth is. sometimes i wonder about religion and i never know what to think of because i believe in so much stuff. and i am so easily convinced that if someone asked me what my religion was, i wouldn't know what to say, and i'd get so frustrated at myself and at everyone that has told me what their beliefs are that i would want to scream. i want to scream.

i've ran out of tears. i want to cry but it's impossible to me. it's been so long since i've cried. i seriously can feel the saddest i've ever felt and nothing will come out. i could carry a straight face and no one would ever know anything was wrong at all. is there something wrong with me? i don't know if i've ran out of tears or if i'm just insensitive to myself and to everyone else. i don't care about people dying. i could be the closest to someone that i ever was but if they died i'd be fine. it'd be sad but that's all. there's always another person i can be infatuated with, that i can love. even if my mom died, i don't think i would cry. i would feel evil because at her funeral people would tell me how sorry they were and i wouldn't know what to say. why do i never know what to say?

i hate life, life is useless. i hate it
but i don't want to die

[plantix]

..... I'm kind of in the same situation as you. I know that it seems pointless for me to say this, but seriously, you are probably worth having life. I know that these are just words you're reading off the screen, and that we don't know each other very well, but still, life should be worth living.

Sorry if this comment is really crappy and stuff, but I just wanna let you know that someone is out there for you.

[The Hypocrisy of Truth]

Skylar<3

First of all I love you! You're beautiful. I don't care what anyone else says, but you are just adorable.

Second, I know how you feel. Exactly, for very different circumstances but right now I'm emotionally in that same spot. And you're braver than most. I'm so afraid that if I tell all these people everything I've been through I'll look like I'm trying to get attention. I've always been self-conscious too, and it's hard for me to believe that anyone loves me. I have Mast and Aphie to think for trying to help me out of the hole of dug myself into emotionally. And I was just telling both of them the other day about how it's hard for me to feel anything at all whether it's happiness, love, or pain. I just can't.

I've had a few people I've been able to talk to my life about. I gave a brief example to Cam but talked a bit more in depth about it to Kay and Rosetta. I've thought about doing things to myself in such a bout of self-depression, but I'm lucky enough to have people who scream at me for daring to think such a thing.

I don't know if you've reached that point or not, but I know what it's like to feel like if I don't have some physical anchor, someone to wrap their arms around me and hold me together, I might fall apart. And I've fallen apart before. Everyone who I've told everything too (note: not Cam, Kay, or Rosetta) But people who know everything always say that I've gone through more than anyone my age should go through, more than what an adult should go through. I won't hesitate to agree, but the thing that keeps me going is that no matter how bad I'm hurting, or you're hurting, or Aphie (who i have to thank for this line), someone still has it worse.

I know that can't be much help, but it's something. I love you. I've seen seen the way some people on here react to you, and they love you too. You're a human being. Whether you're straight, Gay, or some form of futuristic psycho robot thing with red glow-y eyes, we'd still love you. Hell, I've dated another girl before (my sweet, Aphie) and I couldn't tell anyone but those on this site about it.

Also as far as religion is concerned, I'm a Christian, and here if you have any questions. I promise I won't try to shove a cross down your throat or anything *glares at Pastor Simmons*

I know some of that was completely pointless, but if you take anything away from this, take away that 1) you are more beautiful than you know. 2) I love you and clearly other people do too. And 3) you have nothing to be ashamed of. Ever. Hold your head high. Hell, boast in the face that you're gay and you know who you wanna be. What are they gonna do, sling around a few words? I'll come down and sling around my fist at their face.

You deserve respect. One day, even if it's not today, you'll get it.

[aya]

Everyone's been there, just so you know. Maybe not your exact position, but damn close. You're a freshman, right? So you've got all the insecure freshmany things about you for right now. I didn't enjoy my freshman year either. Didn't like school or doing work, didn't like most of my classmates. I promise it gets better — it got better for me pretty quickly, at least, once I found my group of friends.

That's the first step, I think. I love my group of friends. I love that I off-handedly referred to them as the Island of Misfit Toys and the name stuck because of how fitting it was. Maybe a lot of people hate most of us. But they're dicks, and we have a good time and stick up for one another. Find your island and things will get better.

That was about halfway through sophomore year for me, and I'm not going to make any promises that it'll happen sooner or later or right then. But by the time you're a senior, as long as you're not completely intolerable — and you actually aren't; for the most part, you're one of my favorites around here, though we don't talk much — you'll find your people. And when you get to be my age you'll be having fun with school and whatnot, or at least it won't be so bad. It is a truth universally acknowledged that senior year is much more fun than the others. And it might seem like it's so far off in the distance, but I promise you you'll get there in no time.

There's better things out there if you're patient enough to wait for them. Try to be patient, Sky^^

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[gamemaker kelsier]

First of all, Sky, my dear, I don't know where you get the idea that you aren't liked/loved on this site. I may be newer than some, but you have to know that I think you are a wonderful writer, and an excellent person. I loved losing top model to you, and you accepted me right away, making me feel very comfortable. It makes me sad that you aren't so comfortable, because you have to know that you are someone who is important to everyone on this site. You have so many excellent qualities too. And I don't even know where you got the idea that you are not a good writer. Maybe it's because you aren't good, you're excellent. Corny, I know. You're completely ridiculous if you think we will ever stop liking you for who you are. And if we ever did, it's because we are lal a bunch of idiots. You are an amazing personality Skylar, and truthfully, when I was only lurking for my first three days, I found myself reading a lot of your posts. So shut-up, you're amazing, and I won't take no for an answer.

Second of all, get a hold of yourself Sky. You seem to have this idea that you're not an interesting person at all, and that no one anywhere likes you. YOU'RE BEING STUPID, I WANT TO SHAKE YOU AWAKE. The first person who has to love you is yourself buddy. There's nothing else too it. Okay yeah, that sounds super duper corny as well maybe, but it's the goddamned truth. If you treat yourself like shit, everyone else will. You can't just expect people to enjoy hanging out with a mopey boy like yourself, but at the same time the first thing you have to do is be honest with people. You can't hide behind a smile, I learned that the hard way. If you could only see yourself the way other people see you, you'd probably see something incredible. I can't get over some of you guys, not only Sky, but a lot of people on this site have the allusion that they aren't good enough. If you could only see what I see, how incredible each of you are.

I don't see how you can't see that when you look in the mirror each day, how amazing you are. It's just completely incredible to me how everyone is so uniquely their own. There will never be anyone else like you, and if people cannot recognize this, do not see how special you are, or even themselves, they are probably blind. Look at you! It's just spectacular how beautifully crafted you are as a human being, your personality and physical parts all making up an individual whole. the problem with teenagers especially is that they are a very narrow minded bunch. Most of them don't realize what's going on around them because they are so self involved. But omg Skylar, even just reading anything you write I can see how full of depth you are, and how much you contribute. You are just spectacular, and I'll tell you every single time you enter the c-box if you need me to.

And living. Omg, if you never do anything else in your life other than just living, it'll still be a worthwhile;e life Sky. You just got to lie back and take some joy in the small things. You got to remember that soon you'll be free of wherever you are. Contrary to popular belief, there is a whole lot of world out there, just waiting for you to go find it. I know it may seem difficult now, but omg Sky, you don't even know how amazing your life is going to be. You just need to love yourself a little more, and think about others a little less, you'll do fine kid <3.

I want to write you something back. It's something I've never admitted to anyone at school, or anywhere, but I want to share it now just because you were brave enough to share something so personal. You make me want to be brave for you. My friend read my tarot cards the other day, and she did an emotional struggle reading. She said I was really good at helping other people with their troubles, but I never shared because I didn't want to burden others. She said I was guarding something, and the stress of hiding it was making me sick. My heart is literally racing away a mile a minute right now as i type this, and my fingers are issing keys ot of fear. I keep having to go back and delete words just so you can understand me. I'm so scared to even admit this, let alone write it out, but I'm tired of pasting on a smile when things aren't okay for me. You shared, so here I go.

I don't know when this started for me, probably since last october if I had to decide. But as some of you know, I've never been on a date, held hands, kissed, or even been told I was beautiful by a guy. It feels as if I'm a stone in a stream as my friends mve around me with their changing boyfriends. My best friend told me the exact night she lost her virginity, my sister tells me how she's crushing on a guy. I can't feel it though. I don't understand when people tell me that they like a guy. Sure, I like him too, but my heart doesn't skip a beat, my cheeks don't flush when he talks to me. Sometimes i make up a crush, trying to fit in, to tell myself that nothings wrong, but I don't know, I really don't, it scares me. I just wish I could know, firmly, like you do Sky.

I've been accused three times now f being a lesbian. Once by anonymous on tumblr, second by my younger sister, and thirdly by a friend. Of course, every single time I laugh it off and say no, but then the question torments me later. I don't want anyone to look at me differently if I admit that I've questioned it myself. I'm so scared that my friends will be weirded out or something, and when we have sleepovers, they'll want me to sleep somewhere else. I'm so afraid that people will treat me differently, get creeped out the way i did at a school dance when I was in grade nine by this girl. I'm even more afraid that people will stare at me as i walk down the halls, or even stop wanting to hug me when they greet me. I'm scared that I'll be stereotyped, like I most likely will be.

But every time I think about my first kiss, it's never with a boy, always a girl. When I lie in bed at night, I don't imagine myself cradled in a guy's arms, I imagine a girl's. And to tell you the truth, the idea of a penis just creeps and grosses me the fuck out. I mean, what the hell? Why do girls want penis inside them? But the honest truth is, that even I don't know exactly how I feel. Maybe I'm totally straight, I just have to figure out the joy of that first love or something. The thing is, I don't care if I am straight or a lesbian, I just want to figure myself out. Because I'm not going to be afraid to be who I am, because fuck it, no one has ever been me, there is no right way to be Sara Marie Holmes. And that goes for you too Skylar. Don't ever feel like you're not being yourself right, don't let people say you are doing yourself wrong, because how the fuck could they even know? It's ridiculous that you let what other people say bother you too much, you are your own master.

So fuck if I know what I want, who i want, or even if I'll end up liking girl parts or guy parts best. All I'm saying is, is that no matter which one i like, I'm never going to let anyone tell me that who I am is wrong. If I end up being a lesbian, fucking cool man. Ima be who I am, because being someone else is too difficult.

[Prince Inigo]

When I went into freshman year, I was still recovering from family issues.

I won't say that they're the worst things to have ever spawned on the earth, but it left me negative of the world. Freshman was so forgettable. My friends were going into the school that was closest to me as well, yet I got sent to a high school a little further away due to zoning; I was left embitter because of fear and feeling unhelpful to others; I felt surrounded by people yet feeling 'alone'. I guess you could say 'insecure', 'afraid', 'spiteful'.

I never found people I could really call 'friends' at the school. The past further secluded me from people; I started to not care what others thought of me - they were just 'players' in my life. Why should I give a flaming shit who they were? None of them had personal bearing on me. "They can all be nasty. Why can't I be the same? Why should I even care?" There were even times I called life a 'game' in my head; it made it so much easier to handle any negative comments I got from people, take in peoples' 'dirtiness', and, overall, the hatred I felt towards the members of my family that I told myself could "go away" because they shouldn't have deserved any form of forgiveness.

Currently, I'm pointing a finger at the past me and laughing my ass off. "What a pitiful person."

L
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Sure, it pains me at times to remember; but, it doesn't matter. I'm laughing. Laughing from the bottom of my heart, despite knowing that I was in so much pain back then.

I guess it's because now I understand enough of the world around me that I've deemed many of the things I used to lament about to be 'childish'. At the same time, though, I'm not totally debunking what I used to feel.

I learned to grow from that mentality.

Sophomore year, I had 'stitched' up the pain on on the outside, hoping that time would heal the inside injury. I didn't apply any antibiotics or antiseptics; it was apparent that the wounds reopened when they got infected and I spewed unfair comments towards certain family members to my friends. I prayed on a hope that I would be 'fixed' without having to do anything.

Because deep down, I didn't want to work on it. I didn't want to forgive them. I didn't want to be 'happy' with them.

It must have been junior year that really began the process of 'fixing' myself - though even saying that, the results never showed until years later. It was that year, 2008, I met my best online friend.

They were how I was able to really handle school, along with my real-life friends. I owe so much to this person. I got into many arguments with them, true; I got hurt by them, yes. With any extremely good and beneficial friendship, it's bound to happen - especially when said person took some scissors, forcibly reopened my wounds, and made me cry when they scrubbed the rubbing alcohol over the cuts.

I can't hate life anymore when this person really helped me. I can't hate life anymore when this person really made me stick my feet in other people's shoes instead of claiming I did. I can't hate life anymore when this person has stated over and over in our conversations that they were proud of me for changing for the better.

That I can truly say that this love for each other has left me meagerly optimistic.

Teenage hormones. Why would I ever go back to that? Why would I ever go back to being so insecure about my image when I already have a fear or two I still need to leap over? Why would I still want to hate life when I am now determined to see the people I love smile and be honestly happy? Why would I want to hate the present when the future can hold so much?

(Okay, people can be assholes. That, I probably will keep till the day I die.)

Why should I feel so down when I can point a finger at the past self and laugh so hard that I might as well drown myself in laughter? Give myself a good giggle while the weak self just tries to put on the 'full-of-spite' look at me.

Then when I'm done bawling and the younger me is done pretending to not care, I can hand over the scissors and rubbing alcohol, smiling. (Past self would probably smack the stuff out of my hands. I'll still be laughing. If not me, it's just going to be my friend. Pshhhh.)

Life gets better. Trust me.

[L△LIA]

I like you. I wouldn't bother saying that if I didn't; I would just pretend I'd never seen this and not say anything, because I'm mean/honest like that. The only thing that ever seems to bother me about you is your lack of self-confidence because I'm a hypocrite like that XD you're so adorable and talented that I have a hard time accepting the idea that you might not fully believe that about yourself. That's why I tend to give you a hard time when you talk badly about your writing, because you're one of my favorite writers around here and I'm just like... PFT, THAT IS SO FALSE AND YOU KNOW IT OR AT LEAST I'M CHOOSING TO ASSUME THAT YOU DO AND AM GOING TO IGNORE CONTEMPLATION OF YOUR ACTUAL SENSE OF SELF-WORTH IN FAVOR OF MY PERSONAL OPINION OF YOUR AWESOMENESS.

I'd write some I've-totally-been-there-I-promise-life-gets-better stories, but I'm supposed to be doing moving stuff right now. IT DOES GET BETTER THOUGH. Especially college. But you'd be amazed at how much a little self-confidence can improve your life right now, I promise that too. <3

[ali]

Skylar, I know I don't talk to you alot- but I'm going to make you smile if you like it or not. I'm a smiley monster- y'all better get used to that. I make people smile cause theres always something to smile about in life. I know in human nature we sometimes don't smile- but that doesn't mean there isn't anything happy to smile at.

Okay lets get down to business. One, you're a lovely person Skylar. I know I don't talk to you alot- or at all- but you seem very very nice if I see you talking on Cbox or I get the privalage to talk to you. I like how you come on and say how you're looking foreward to Soccer practice- I think its good that you look foreward to that. I don't like sports myself (except air rifle shooting, archery and lacrosse) but it makes me smile to think taht if you continue at soccer, you could be in the World Cup in 2018 (In that weird country whos's name sounds like Gutair). If these guys stair at you during practice give them the finger. (thats what i would do)

All these 'friends' of yours seem like complete and utter arses (so do most of the people in your school..bunch of frickng homophobes). I think you should tell a teacher that they are bullying you (and dont give me that "their not" rubbish cause trust me Skylar, they are). if the teacher/s do nothing bout it, go to SS (if you can do that over there) or the Police- cause bullying is illegal (well over here it is). And so what if you like the same sex? You should be proud to be gay! I know 2 people who are Gay and they're both from SA which is a strict place for people who are different. They're the coolest people i know. I can't give you anything else on the gay part because I don't know myself what sexuality I am. I think I like guys but I might not be into guys if you get what I'm saying?

ANYWAY- for the last sentance, well....I'm not christian, Catholic or religous in anyway but- Life is important Skylar......everyones is.......I believe that we each have a soul mate (may it be girl/boy) who are waiting to find us. I've had internet friends who have died.....very traumatic..so...yeah don't go kill yourself ..everyone's special .......

[Sam]

Skylar, even though I don't really know you to well, I need to say that I know MANY people who love you here. I feel like you a lot Skylar. And I have to say, I know a bit of how you feel but don't kill yourself, please. You have sop much life ahead of you and you'd be wasting it by not taking advantage of it. I know things are difficult for you Sky, but just wait a few years and it will get better. Because when you're out of school then all those douchebag people wob't have mattered. They'll hurt you and annoy you and make life HELL for you, but when you're rid of them Sky, they won't matter.

My suggestion would be to just stick it out until you're in a position to just leave. Study hard and get in college for a good job. And as soon as you can, leave your old life behind and begin anew. forget past douchebags and past situations. Just go somewhere new. Or you could just try and start anew now. Just DON'T give up now because if you wait things will get MUCH better. I really hope things get better for you because I know someday you'll gain the life you want. But if you end it now there's no hope at all. So please, don't do that.

[shrimp]

Skylar, you are amazing.

No, more than that. Just look for all of the awesome words that sound awesome and then combine it into one superfabulous word because that's the definition of you. I know that it might not always feel that way, and I know that a lot of the times it's difficult to see past the mistakes and all of the negative aspects that you see in yourself, and you're most definitely not alone. I'm pretty sure that every single person on this site, in your town - hell, the whole freaking world has felt like that during their life. I'm sure Obama has, and Lady Gaga has, and every single person that you like and love has felt like that at some point in their life.

I've felt self-conscious and paranoid about people finding out I was gay and many times I've just looked in the mirror and have hated every single part of me, from the outside to the insides. I've called myself weak, stupid, spineless, lazy, insecure, awkward, an ass, someone who doesn't deserve to live - all of it. And at the time, I felt that I deserved to be called those names. It got worse when two guys started to terrorize me for no reason in ninth grade, whispering about me when I was sitting between them, making fun of me in a low voice so the teacher wouldn't be able to hear, making obscene assumptions with malicious smirks on their faces.

My friends throughout my entire school career have been a whopping majority of girls. I'm one of the only males in my entire extended family. I've joined clubs that ignorant people would conceive to be ones that a homosexual would join. Self conscious is my middle name. I always am thinking of what I'm going to appear like to others, how to not sound "too gay" or to not creep someone out by being overly friendly to them, or wondering if I should not raise my hand so the chance of being picked on becomes less likely to occur. I blush every time someone says the word "gay", or "homosexual". I automatically say that I'm straight, and it leaves me feeling like I'm not truly me. I want to join GSA but won't because it's rumored to be a club that only gay people join, even though I know for a fact that it's not true. The clubs that I have picked make me feel like an outsider because they all have their own friends and cliques and I'm just there trying to make sense of it all. But slowly, I'm coming out of my shell, I'm making leaps towards the life that I want to lead, and even if it doesn't occur exactly the way I want it to, I'll be happy enough.

I know that I haven't experienced what you've been going through at school, but let me just tell you that I'm pretty sure that my experiences have similar results. And it sucks, you know that. It makes you feel empty inside, but the good thing is that it will get better. And I know that so many people have said this in this thread, but that's because it's true. Things will get better. Sooner or later, you'll be able to look at yourself and slowly like one aspect, or maybe two or three, and that'll grow over time. Or maybe you'll find new friends that don't like to torment you in the way that you feel they are. Perhaps you'll be able to smile more, laugh more, maybe even cry more. Because once you get there, everything will eventually align itself and perhaps you'll find yourself not even giving as much of a shit as you have about what people think of you than before.

We're all going through similar phases, or have gone through similar phases. The important thing to know is that we know what you're going through, and we're here for you. We all do love you, regardless of what you may think. We respect you, we love your writing, we love your personality and we just love you - all of it, regardless of any negatives you may think that you have, because all of the flaws and all of the positives make you who you are, and that's the greatest thing in the entire world.

By the way you're hot, so don't feel too many qualms about seeing yourself in a mirror and strutting your stuff, mkay? :3

[Serenity]

I have a friend who went through something like that. I felt worthless and pathetic, not helping them much. I'm not sure who that douche in your story thinks he is but, he better recognize. Your beautiful and kind and you have a lot more in life coming for you. Really amazing things are in store. I'm sorry for the small entry. It's not nearly as good as Iwish it to be. You are my hero<3 I think your amazing. People don't hate you. Their just too blind to see how talented you are. Blinded with jealousy. The people on this site are always here for you so, don't feel like you have to hide your emotions. Like others have said, a little self confidence goes a long way. If you get a question wrong in class, don't be embaressed! You tried and thats what counts. Keep your head up

[Deleted]

Skylar, I know we haven't talked a whole lot, but I've always had a total amount of respect for you. You're amazing, and don't forget it! Thing is, I know it's really hard. I know I can't say I know exactly what it feels like, but I can say, we've all been through something similar. It's hard feeling like you don't fit in, but the best thing to do, is well...not fit in. (: I've actually found that the more you branch off as an individual, and the more you stop caring about what everyone else thinks of you, the more people tend to like you. Then again, I'm just a little freshman still trying to navigate the deep seas of highschool, so don't listen to me!

But just be yourself! That's all anyone can ask for! And if people don't respect you for who you are, then too bad for them. Their loss. Because they don't know what they're missing out on. The people who do like you for who you are, are your real friends. They're out there, and you'll find them. You don't have to pretend to be someone else, because it only makes you feel more upset in the end. So be confident, be unique, be yourself! And although I know it's really hard, just try to ignore what everyone else says, because the only person who can dictate who you are and who you want to be, is yourself.

And Skylar, please never say your writing is bad, because seriously, you're so talented, your writing is so beautiful, and it totally makes me jealous. <33 You're an awesome person, and an awesome writer, and remember that, no matter what anyone says!

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[gamemaker kelsier]

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