><><Hometown Glory><>< [Chaos]
May 21, 2011 14:51:49 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on May 21, 2011 14:51:49 GMT -5
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~*~
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
~*~
Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness
~*~
While you've been known to have those almost moments that trigger bright flashes of blurry memory, never before have you felt this close to a breakthrough. The rain is cool and pleasant against your skin, adding to the scent of damp earth that makes you think of something you can't quite put your finger on. You can't really remember how long you've been walking, but you're certain that this District is absolutely gigantic compared to the others you've seen in your year of remembered life.
You're not really comfortable here, surrounded by walls and fences (although the large metal barrier is out of sight its oppressive shadow seems to weigh on you heavily) after spending what you view as your entire life in pure, unbridled freedom. Still, each step you take down the well-worn path seems to bring you a little closer to filling the empty space where your history should be, so you swallow the quiet claustrophobia and cast your eyes upward into the branches above. Something about the careful layout of trees with identical blossoms sends the word orchard swirling through your fractured mind, and in a brilliant moment dormant snippets of memory blaze to life and you can see a smaller version of yourself leaping between fruit-laden branches and laughing as voices from below cheer you on. The faces and names are no longer there but the feeling of unbreakable, solid friendship remains, and it makes you smile slightly as you trace spindly fingers along rough bark.
You always feel lost, but the loneliness you feel at this moment is almost entirely debilitating as you replay Zane's instructions over and over in your head until it becomes a blurred mantra. Keep a low profile. Stay away from the Justice Building, and avoid Peacekeepers. Look for people who recognize you, but don't be obvious about asking questions until you're sure you're safe. If things go downhill, run. Get over the fence and find me. I'll be around.
They were quick words half-whispered in the beginning of sunrise as your fingers laced together through the rusty metal lattice, accompanied by a heaviness in two sets of eyes that denoted words that neither of you were able to bring yourself to say. So you had turned your face to the slowly spreading glow on the horizon, padding off across what felt like endless wheat fields before you finally came upon this strangely familiar grove of trees with sweet-smelling blossoms and memories hidden within the branches. As hopeful as being somewhere that has to be your home makes you feel, you can't help but experience this innate sense of aimlessness and slight fear and what do I do now?
Your lips purse in speculation of your own question, the fingers of your left hand tracing the raised mess of scar tissue that is your right arm absently. In the distance you can see an end to the well-planned forest, giving way to open fields and several houses that give you that vague nostalgia that you've been experiencing with varying degrees of intensity. Leaving behind faded smiles and distant laughter you emerge from the wooded path, icyblue eyes shooting around nervously (you've always been able to tell when you're being watched, and you almost feel like if anyone sees you this spell will be broken and your mind will be empty again) as you thinkthinkthink and try to make sense of where you are. Your head is in tumult, you've been here and for some reason this path makes you think of leaping and twirling and moving so you follow the trail of instinct down the nearest side street until you've curved back into the trees slowly making your way to a little building with wide windows that is so familiar that you almost feel like something has physically hit you.
Callused, roughened feet carry you quickly across the clearing, hands pressing against the wooden structure as if you'll be able to physically draw the memories out of support beams and wide glass panes. But the solid fuselage gives you nothing more than the increased fervor of caged recollections straining at their bonds, so you carefully shuffle to the door, feeling the solid panel give way under your hands and opening into a large, empty room. You're immediately met with a mixed aroma of sweat and powder and perfume that makes long-dead synapses spark to life and pull you further in, drawing you across smooth hardwood floors and into the center of the room. You stare into the mirrors lining the walls but it's not just yourself that you see, but rather a whole room full of phantom memory-girls twirling and leaping and dancing and with that final thought it finally clicks - dance studio.
You grin widely and go through a few fluid movements, watching yourself intently in the mirror - all worn clothing and tired eyes and sun-bleached hair that nearly brushes your shoulders. Another puzzle piece has been found, leaving you feeling pleasantly full even though you still have miles to go on this journey of figuring out who you are, because now you have the knowledge that I love to dance and that's because I used to dance in this place on this floor in this mirror and it adds meaning to feelings that you were previously unable to explain. Something stirs in the narrow hallway and it is enough to sufficiently spook you, causing you to turn on your heel and flee through the open door, flying back up the path and down nameless streets until you slump against a fence to catch your breath.
It takes you a while to notice the huge expanse of open space and the scores of stones dotting the rain-soaked grass, and even longer to notice the lone form crouched next to a weather-beaten monument. Zane told you to be careful but something about her calls to you (maybe it's because she's like you, alone in the rain with no sense of direction), all lean form and and sunny blonde hair a few shades lighter than your own. You shuffle quietly up behind her and place a hand against the lithe musculature of her shoulder, slate-colored orbs wide with wonder at the sight of another human, not to mention one who looks so achingly familiar. "Are you okay? You look sad."