So It's Fairly Simple {Nervoux}
Jun 14, 2011 18:27:03 GMT -5
Post by Morgana on Jun 14, 2011 18:27:03 GMT -5
Memory Lane
I don't believe in anything but myself,
I don't believe in anything but myself.
People think I'm too old for school. They don't say it, but I know they think it. I can see it in their eyes as they walk by. That girl? In school? But she must be eighteen by now! I know it isn't normal. I know it usual. But I have my reasons. It's not as if my family needs me to work, anyways. We have enough money. Mother doesn't see anything wrong with it. So I go. I study hard, I get good grades. I have to. If I don't, I'll never get out of here.
It's more important now than ever to study hard. I'm seventeen now. Pretty soon I'll be applying for the college in District Six. And if I can't prove to them that I'm worth it, I won't be allowed to go. I have to get out of this place. I have to start fresh. Of course, even in District Six, there's no guarantee I'll be able to start over. People there, once hearing my last name, will no doubt connect me to my half-sister, Enigma Lane. The sister I never knew.
I wish my mother had told me sooner that I had a sister. I would have liked to get to know her. Well, I suppose I had two sisters. Enigma had a twin, Lainey, but she died six years ago. I don't even know what she looked like. She doesn't matter to me. It's Enigma that I regret not knowing.
My walk to school is long, as always. I take the back roads, to avoid people. I don't really like crowds, especially when there are multiple people staring at me, wondering why I'm carrying school books. It's just easier. When I get to school, I take my usual seat near the back of the room. While I wait for everyone else to arrive, I start reading War and Peace, a book I recently acquired. I'm surprised it wasn't destroyed by the Capitol long ago, just for the title of the thing. But I guess it survived somehow. Just in case, I keep the cover page hidden from view. Wouldn't want to get in trouble for reading something I'm not supposed to.
I left a bit earlier than usual today, so I have a while to wait before class starts. People file in the door, slowly at first, then in bunches. All of the students are crammed into one room, since there aren't really that many of us. Anyone aged five and up sits in this room from nine to three every day. That is, everyone that hasn't stopped coming so they can work instead, and support their family. Mostly, it's the younger kids, and the few older teenagers like me that don't have to work.
Eventually, the teacher walks to the front of the room, signaling the start of class. I put my book away and pull out a notebook. she writes down various math assignments, one for every age group. I pull out my math book and flip to the correct page, then get down to work. I know I have to finish quickly, because Mrs. Ogren expects me to help with the younger kids. I don't really like to, but I guess it means she'll put in a good word for me at the college. Which is something I really need.But then you opened up a door, you opened up a door,
Now I start to believe in something else.