Rare Regrets {OPEN}
Sept 5, 2010 23:52:49 GMT -5
Post by ~Kayla~ on Sept 5, 2010 23:52:49 GMT -5
I crossed the river,
Fell into the sea.
Where the non-believers,
Go beyond belief.
Then I scratched the surface,
In the mouth of hell.
Running out of service,
In the blood I fell."
Fell into the sea.
Where the non-believers,
Go beyond belief.
Then I scratched the surface,
In the mouth of hell.
Running out of service,
In the blood I fell."
Being a murderous bitch was so lonely. There was only one person she could truly confide in, one person Dwyn could trust with anything. And right now that person had a girlfriend and was probably being tortured by some vengeful PeaceKeeper with a hatred for everything Lower District. Normally that was an inconvenience that Dwyn was forced to put up with. Now it was miserable.
It was all because of that damn, accursed dream. It wasn't an unpleasant dream, not at all. Those she had almost every night, those she could handle. No. Instead Dwyn had dreamed of having a family, of having a place where she belonged. Her dream was happy. When the sun had streamed through the grimy windows of the orphanage, the 16 year old girl had woken up with feelings of moroseness, sorrow and anger.
Her careless life style had caught up with her and now she was paying for it. She had left the lonely building at a dead run, shoving people viciously out of her way. Direction didn't matter too her, nothing did at that point. Just the feelings inside and the terrible, terrible tears threatening to overflow, threatening to announce Dwyn's vulnerability to the world. She couldn't have that, not ever.
There was only one thing to do. She quickly nabbed a large bottle of some alcoholic drink, ignoring everyone around her and then she bolted for the forest, cursing at the world. She was over the fence and into the forest, her sudden despair threatening to overwhelm her. Her feet carried her deep into the trees, branches and thorns tearing her clothes, leaves catching in her short blonde hair.
And then, when Dwyn was helplessly lost, she stopped and collapsed onto the ground. Her chest was heaving in an attempt to breath and fight off the sobs that threatened to break free at the same time. There was no way in hell that Dwyn would cry, there was no way she would stoop that low. She didn't cry, not when the body of some victim of hers lay at her feet, not after she'd sold her body for two bottles of drink and a cheap dagger, not when Flight had been taken from her, locked up in shackles and led away for god knows how long.
So then, why was she crying now? It didn't make any sense, nothing made any sense and so Dwyn attempted to drink away her sorrows. The bottle was lifted to her lips and the burning liquid was strangely comforting as it slid too easily down her throat. She took another gulp, and then another. And then the bottle was empty, she had only a slight buzz to show for it. In desperate frustration a cry escapes and she chucks the bottle at a nearby tree, the glass shattering with a loud crash.
This world was cruel, harsh and Dwyn had thought it perfect. It was today, after that wonderful dream, that she discovered how truly wrong she was. Being alone wasn't all she cracked it up to be, having someone, maybe even more than one person, was something she'd never had. And now she'd realized how terrible that really was. It was a horrible thing, a sadness stronger than she had ever felt before. It made the tears slide down her cheeks, the sobs escape her. And that accounted for the anger. Weak wasn't a word anyone would use to describe the girl curled up on the forest floor. And this, the crying, even the drinking, was a sign of that. Wasn't it?
Dwyn wasn't sure, she didn't have an answer. She didn't know anything, not right now. And so she curled up against a tree, wishing with all her might that she'd managed to snatch another bottle of drink, something to drown out everything. Something to make her forget, to make her fall asleep, make her go back to that dream. But she didn't and so she was stuck in the forest, awake and in despair. What a terrible, lonely thing.
As wet tears slid down her face and the occasional whine, Dwyn sat staring at nothing. The forest was silent, almost as if the animals were avoiding Dwyn. That was fine with her, just less beings to see her like this. Her position hid the daggers hanging from her belt, hid the only things she felt were truly her prized possessions. They were the things that had stuck with her through thick and thin, protecting from every threat she could've imagined. Except this. Just another flaw, another chink in her quickly decaying armor. "Great"
I just want to see the light.
I don't want to lost my sight,
I just want to see the light.
I need to know what's worth the fight,
I don't want to lost my sight,
I just want to see the light.
I need to know what's worth the fight,