Wager This {Stew}
Dec 31, 2011 12:42:48 GMT -5
Post by aya on Dec 31, 2011 12:42:48 GMT -5
[/color]I feel like I've been living in
A city with no children in it
A garden left for ruin by a millionaire inside
Of a private prison
Arbor Halt—
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It seemed to Arbor that he measured time in Games. He was getting so old. A new year, a new victor, but everything else remained the same. The Capitol remained draconian, he remained something of an alcoholic, tributes remained lambs for the slaughter. He didn't feel any older, but he wasn't anywhere near the scrappy fifteen-year-old blind kid who'd just come out of a frozen wasteland covered in the blood of twenty-three of his peers. He'd spent five years as a mentor, so shouldn't he feel older, wiser? Arbor Halt was aging backwards. Here he was, five years older, jaded, sober (he wished he wasn't) and cynical as ever — but just craving a good time. Weren't the teenagers supposed to be the thrill-seekers and the adults supposed to be the people fighting for change?
But here he stood, just outside the training center, a look of hesitation on his face masking the fact that he was dying to be impulsive. Well, not dying to be — that was an expression he hadn't particularly cared for since even before his own 54th Games, since it wasn't really fair; every year, two dozen kids were shipped off to hell, dying to be in his position, but Arbor Halt was just dying to do something drunk and incredibly stupid.
He hadn't been drinking as much these Games, which was probably a good thing, though it left him disappointed — on the contrary, before the Reaping, he'd expected to reconcile with his drinking buddy from the 58th Hunger Games, one Topaz Ross, as her company made his hobby a great deal more entertaining. The trouble with that, though, was the tributes from District One for these Games; he couldn't expect the other victor to shirk the duties of mentoring her sister just so that the District Twelve boy could have a good time. Besides, if the state of Aranica during the 56th Games was anything to go off of, Arbor knew he couldn't expect the red-haired victor to even bear a resemblance to the friend he'd known from the 58th.
So Arbor had steered clear. It wasn't that he intentionally avoided her, he just went to different bars than they'd been thrown out of together, took his meals in his room for the most part, and held his breath every time the elevator passed District One's floor, praying that it wouldn't stop. Maybe it made him a rotten friend, but just because he'd been through the same situation with Ara and Anani it didn't mean he was an expert on it. On the contrary, he was actually quite horrible; he never knew what to say, so he just kept mum and sat around awkwardly. Plus, he didn't know either of the Ross girls, just drank with one of them sometimes; Topaz was no Aranica and was not his responsibility. She could handle herself just the same without the company of the older victor from the opposite end of the country.
Arbor knew there had been another sibling of a former tribute these Games; the District 5 girl's brother had been the only thing that brought Heron to victory in the 57th Games, and both tributes were popular among crowds. This wasn't a new thing — plenty of relatives of former tributes ended up in the Games now and then. There were the boys from District One, last year and two before that, both of which ended up dead either in the bloodbath or not long after. And weren't the District Ones from a couple years back cousins? Whole families, it seemed, had terrible luck when it came to being reaped.
It made Arbor grateful that he was the youngest Halt, that his brothers and sisters were all much older than he was — if anything, he'd need to be concerned for his nephews, all of whom were approaching reaping age; the oldest would even be eligible for the next Games. He'd hope for his brothers' sons' safety, but his motive was selfish and he knew it. Even if he only saw his family a handful of times out of the year as it was, it would be impossible to go home to Twelve without them; he'd be expected to bring them home, because after all, wasn't he some sort of tactical genius? He'd also been expected to return in a wooden box during his own Games, of course, so he did have a track record for disappointing.
He shook his head, trying to put the competition out of his head — it was, after all, over for the time being; the victor would be officially crowned within a few days, and Arbor would on a train by himself heading back to Twelve, where there wasn't enough alcohol and where the company always made him sad. He may not belong there — he never really had — but it was his home; besides, he didn't belong here much, either. He didn't really fit anywhere while he was sober; home was where the liquor was. Home was a tumbler or a bottle or a tankard; family was whiskey or brandy or gin, and, as had been the case practically every night he was here — and most nights when he wasn't — Arbor saw it fit to have something of a reunion.
Not in the mood for walking about, the victor instead decided to head for the bar nearest to the training center — a familiar place, though he hadn't been since opening ceremonies. He felt a little awkward heading there alone, as he'd been kicked out on several occasions, the most notable of which being the time he'd tried to fire the bartender for giving disapproving looks to him and his equally-hammered drinking buddy, the most recent victor from District One. Somehow he got the feeling he'd run into her here, which was for the better; not thinking as clearly as he did with a drink in his hand, Arbor had the pressing urge to apologize if it seemed like he'd spent the majority of these Games avoiding her.
He'd already worked out a whole long speech about how he hadn't meant to and he was sorry, but the second he opened the door to the establishment and saw the telltale mane of red hair seated at the bar, he forgot the whole thing. Arbor was tempted to head right back out, to find somewhere else to get his fix, but not wanting to be cowardly — and, mostly, afraid that she'd seen him and trying not to damage the situation even further by being rude — he strode across the bar casually, seated himself next to her, and ordered a drink before he greeted her. "Hey," he said. "Haven't seen you in awhile." Arbor paused, considering whether or not it would be better to say anything else. It wasn't exactly his place, and he didn't want to bring up the bad thoughts and feelings that people typically drank to suppress, but he still felt like he should ask — "You okay?"
His whiskey arrived, so he took a sip, actively trying to keep himself from fidgeting on his barstool. The liquor burned his throat as it always did, but the familiar sensation wasn't as calming as it usually was; it felt awkward or out of place — or maybe that was him: uncomfortable in social situations, uncomfortable around strangers. Did he really feel like a stranger here, or was he afraid that over the course of a year, his friend wasn't the same one he'd known?
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