Tonight, We Are Young // [Victors]
Jan 14, 2012 0:01:21 GMT -5
Post by Baby Wessex d9b [earthling] on Jan 14, 2012 0:01:21 GMT -5
for what it's worth, I have a slow disease that sucked me dry... I always aim to please
but I nearly died
The Opening Ceremonies felt like a joke. A cruel joke – just the sort the Capitol liked to play. It had been one thing to put the lives of two teenagers into his palms. It was quite another to see their faces on banners, to see his own flash on the jumbotron. It was a celebration of death, he finally realized. Twenty-four to one were not good odds, and it was even worse if you happened to be the one.
The long, slow fall from the Reaping to the Capitol had brought back the tremors. He’d finally found the right combination to keep them away. It involved quite a lot of food (which staved off the craving for morphling), fire burning constantly in his house, and time spent in his expansive backyard with an old stud he’d bought a few months after returning to Ten. Whicker was absolutely useless in every way imaginable, except that he brought Mace peace. His eyes, big and reflective, had a softness and understanding he found nowhere else.
He missed Whicker from the moment he stepped onto the train. He thought about the horse constantly, solely. He thought not at all about the boy and girl in the cars down from him, about the Capitol where he had met his brothers. It was one of the last places he ever wanted to go (second only to anywhere cold), and yet he went, without any outward protestation. He was numb through the ceremonies, those hollow eyes gazing out over the crowd. It was easy to be absent, because no one really cared about him anymore. All the talk was about the new tributes, the new victims.
The party after was a different story. Reporters and Capitolites alike wanted their fifteen seconds with each of the Victors. If he looked bored, well, at least he was starting to affect the Capitol mantra. Mace managed to keep his fists at his sides, but that was as far as he would go. He said not more than five words to anyone, and when the trembling began to move up his arms, he elbowed his way through the crowd until he found them, the one group of people who would not ask him for his predictions, or how he was doing – both equally infuriating questions. No, they would never subject each other to that sort of torture.
He couldn’t remember any of them asking him anything at all, or who had suggested that they leave, but they did. Through the ornate hallways and corridors they walked, Mace suckling at his beer, having squirreled away several other bottles into his pockets. He followed, because leading was too much work, and he didn’t care where he went, as long as it was away from the crowds. Another right, left, and while the others walked past an open door, Mace came to a standstill.
The room was perhaps shabbier than most in the house, but it was clearly often used – and loved. Tables arrayed from the center, some wooden for cards, other with their bellies open for billiards. And one, near the pack, that had a net slung across the center. This room, this oasis, was exactly what they needed: a distraction.
Mace took the lip of the bottle out of his mouth long enough to call out, “Arbor!” before he stepped through the double doors. What to do, where to start – these were questions someone else in the group of Victors could handle. He’d gotten them this far, and that was really Mace’s modus operandi now. Just get far enough to find something else worth living for, even if it’s just for a few hours, a few days. He wasn’t even sure how to play all of the games set up in the room, but he felt absolutely positive that with enough beer, they would all be absolutely hilarious.
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