Just For Tonight, Darling // [Aranica]
Jan 14, 2012 0:50:47 GMT -5
Post by Baby Wessex d9b [earthling] on Jan 14, 2012 0:50:47 GMT -5
for what it's worth, I have a slow disease that sucked me dry... I always aim to please
but I nearly died
Mace had been drunk before, many times, even before the black hole had punched its way through his life. It was never exactly the same experience. There were similarities - the dizziness, the liquid cool in his stomach, the hammering headache in the morning, but it seemed to him that drunk - unlike other induced states - varied with the people he was with. At home, he'd been at turns hostile, violent, and hormonal. Well, before the Games, anyhow. Post-Games he'd mostly been a wreck and kept himself sequestered to his Victor home, so that only Whicker bore witness to his grief.
In the Capitol, though, surrounded by people who had survived - and seemed to be functioning fairly well - he was a totally different person intoxicated. He smiled, shit, he laughed. He played to enjoy the company, instead of to win (although there was always a tinge of competitiveness around the other Victors who, after all, had won). It was indulgent, and delightful, and he deserved it. He drunk conservatively but talked liberally, moving around the room of distractions. The one part of Mace that never quite came alive was, of course, his eyes. He mostly kept them on the cue ball, or the ping pong net, or the cups of beer in front of him. He was careful, conscious, of their emptiness.
The night had spun, expanded, continued even though it should have been dawn, day. None of them wanted it to end, he suspected. They would just have to face the morning, to meet the eyes of children who would soon be dead. Even though his thoughts spiraled in that direction, he couldn't feel the burden of it, not tonight. No. Instead he won games of chance, bowed his head when he lost, and even worked out a few hits with Arbor. It was all without point, without goal - he didn't need to win, to lose, to learn to fight. It was just a night out with his friends.
Friends.
It was as intoxicating a thought as the beer itself. He was heady with the stuff, dizzy and enjoying the way the world tilted left and right. He was not drunk, nowhere near the point where the world would slip from his grasp. But he was tipsy, felt the warmth radiating from his belly.
Mace was never one to keep track of time or circumstance. He had no idea whatsoever how he ended up in the hall with Aranica, he had no idea. He did, however, remember that it was his idea that they go and raid the kitchen. He trailed a little behind her in the hallway, boozy and a little confused. Ara was a girl, or at least that's how he remembered her. She had been, at the Games he had bothered to watch. But he hadn't tuned in the last few years because he had been out ranching, and the 58th... well, he saw no one but Larae through that.
And yet here she was, petite but womanly, soft edges and yet alive, in a way he still was not. This was not the little girl who won the games - this was a woman who had come so much further. He could see that, when he looked right at her, and she was definitely easy to look at. How had he missed her becoming a teenager, the curving of her body? Baffling. The blurred edges of his mind groped for any further information he had about Ara, to find something else to talk about.
When they reached the kitchen doors, Mace held one open for her, those hollow eyes a little slow to react. He stared down at her, at the soft fluff of her dark hair, the sharp outline of her eyes, before he checked himself and looked away.
The door closed without a sound, oiled to perfection. Mace was dumbstruck by the expanse of the kitchens, by the number of prep tables and the cutlery, that looked like instruments of torture, or things he might find in the arena. Mace blinked, the sort of long, slow fall that can only be achieved by someone inebriated. "Shit. I have no idea where to even start." He heard an echo of what he said, quite possibly from the length of the room, but more likely because of his current state. And it made him grin, right down at Ara. Without any hesitation he brushed her shoulder and then squeezed it gently, the way he squeezed Whicker's.
"What do you want? I can pretty much only cook beef, you know, since that's what we eat in Ten. Reckon I could come up with a sandwich of some fashion, too." He looked around Ara, trying to make good on his statement. The whole idea of large refrigeration was totally foreign to him, but he was willing to open all the doors, if that's what it took to find what she wanted.
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