Private Training Sessions
Jun 2, 2012 21:56:03 GMT -5
Post by cass on Jun 2, 2012 21:56:03 GMT -5
-wants to see everyone else's-
All alone
It was always there you see
And even on my own
It was always standing next to me
I can see it coming from the edge of the room
It was always there you see
And even on my own
It was always standing next to me
I can see it coming from the edge of the room
Fear seemed to roll off the district five boy as he stood and walked silently to the door. He was not one to talk. He felt emotions he connected everything around him with emotions, it was who he was. And right now he could see the fear fall from himself; he could feel it roll across the ground and up the stylish walls, trying to escape. But it couldn’t. So it followed the boy as he walked into the training centre, the place he had found nothing but misery in. Haff didn’t know how to use anything. Sure he had tried to learn, but he was a hopeless little boy that knew nothing, but his horses.
His hand grazed over the cool metal of the door. He really didn’t want to do this, he knew he couldn’t do anything, he couldn’t fight, and he wasn’t smart like all the rest. He was stuck, he had no hidden talents no secrets, he was just a boy that couldn’t think clearly, a boy that knew nothing but emotions as a way to communicate and his horses. That was all he knew. The ground echoed softly under his steps as he made his way to the centre of the room. He nodded politely to the gamemakers and he avoided looking at them.
His hand fumbled slightly around the bracelet that encased his wrist. It was wiry and yet so delicate. It was made of the fine hairs from one of the stallions back home…Home… It was what he missed so much, it was what he yearned for, home was why he found himself crying every night. Haff didn’t connect with his family, he didn’t believe he belonged there with the people who raised him, but he belonged with the horses, it was the horses that were driving him to fight because he had to see them. He had to go home and care for the giant beasts, because if he wasn’t there, who would care for them?
Haff didn’t know what he was going to do, but the deep passion he felt was enough to make him head over to the fire-making station where he chose a piece of wood. He so badly wanted to talk to the gamemakers, he wanted to tell them to let him go him, he wanted to yell at them and scream and plead for them to let him go home, to let him see his horses. He missed Anima. The little foal that meant so much to him. The little haflinger, the horse the breed that was named after him, and the little horse that meant more to him than any person. In a way he wanted to make the people who watched him feel responsible for the pain he felt.
Haff felt so much pain in his life, but right now the deep agony in his body was more than he could bear and it was all because he couldn’t see the animals that kept him sane. All because of these people. Has hand grasped the wood tightly as he moved numbly over to the knives. He picked up a short blade, dull and somewhat similar to the ones he used at home. He then walked back over to where the gamemakers where perched like vultures. He wanted to run away, the fear that he felt almost made him. But he stopped himself. Because no matter what they all said Haff wanted to get home, no matter how they all said he was dumb, retarded –even though he was- he was going to try. He was going to do one of the things he did best.
Haff looked down at the piece of wood in his hands, than he sat on the ground. He didn’t look back up at the gamemakers. The blade balanced gently against the wood before biting deeply into it. As he dug the knife deeper he stopped just a few centimetres in and with an expert hand he twisted it sending it flying back out, a flake of wood fell to the floor. Again the blade bit into the wood, and another flake flittered to the floor where it landed beside the first. This continued until the rough shape of an animal showed. He then slowly began to go further, creating the smooth curve of the animals back. Than after the curve of the book the knife run down the side of the block, and he began the hard job of delicately filing out the animals fine legs.
Each movement of the blade came swift and precise, there was no room for error in this kind of task. Slowly the outline of an animal became more evident. The long flowing legs could be seen, and even the ripples of muscles along the young animals body where shown. This animal to the young boy was more than just a carving, he was giving life to the wood, because no matter how many lines you carve, no matter how many times you try only the best could give life to the dead. Haff’s eyes stayed on the carving this felt like home. Haff could spend hours perfecting little carving, just to make sure they looked like what he saw.
The boy felt a yearning to go home and see everything again; a deep sadness was replacing his early morning hope. The hope had all but left home. Haff had stopped feeling any hope now. He missed the feeling though, it had been the only feeling that had given him any reason to keep going with his day. Now he had none. The clock kept ticking away, but the boy wasn’t done yet. Every animal needed definition, they needed to have every part of them to be there to be called an animal. So he started in the face. The knife was pressed lightly onto the wood, and with soft pushes and halts he began to dig out the eyes of the young animal. Then the curve of its fine mouth followed by the nostrils.
He stopped than. He looked at it up and down, searching for incorrect detail. This animal was his life, and in a way he was putting his life into it. Everything about it was him and it was everything he wanted to do. Haff loved this animal so much. But all he felt was fear as he stood up, he was scared, and it rolled through him, racing through his veins, and causing his hands to shake, just a little bit, but they shook. He steps up do the Gamemakers table and looks at them all; he looks at each of their eyes. He didn’t hate these people as individuals; he didn’t know what they did. He hated them as a whole. He looks down at the little figure. Everything he could do was in it. Gently he placed it on the table.
He then raised a hand and pointed to it, he wanted to tell them what it meant. He couldn’t leave without telling them. Then slowly he put his hand on his heart. That horse was in his heart, and he knew that one day he would see it again, just as long as he tried. And he needed to tell the gamemakers that he was going to try. He would try for the horse.
Because to Haff, that was all he had that was worth fighting for.
The carving looks like this ^^
Creeping in the streetlight
Holding my hand in the pale gloom
Can you see it coming now?
AAaaAAhhh...
I think I'm breaking down again...
Holding my hand in the pale gloom
Can you see it coming now?
AAaaAAhhh...
I think I'm breaking down again...