As I Slowly Lose Myself
Feb 21, 2012 4:01:18 GMT -5
Post by kiah on Feb 21, 2012 4:01:18 GMT -5
It was weird how Elmo felt more and more relaxed the further they got from the forest. She had been all worked up about it. When she knew- she knew she would be back there tomorrow. It was her routine. Her life. She felt no need to live if she couldn’t feel the pain that would… would do so much to her. a good way and not. It was all so confusing. Frustrating. She wanted to turn her life around… but somewhere deep down she knew she wouldn’t be able to resist. The forest had a hold on her, one that she wouldn’t be able to escape, with a simple click of her fingers, the hold went deeper than that, it was more, more that she couldn’t release that easily. Not without losing apart of herself. A part of her heart.
Elmo felt her eyes stray to the boy beside her. he was nervous. Even she could tell. But it confused her. this boy was meant to be a catch! According to what she hears from the people around her. but out here. Now. He seemed not to be able to summon that relaxed pose. Out here on his own… he seemed more nervous, that he might say something wrong, that he would he worried about it. Elmo didn’t know how to feel, she was no good at reading people, and the boy wasn’t really making it very easy for her. but why would he?
He had big paces and Elmo was having trouble keeping up with him, but the further she got away from the forest… the more she felt free, she knew she was bound to it. but a break would be good, she could feel it. so intend of slowing down to catch g-her breathe, Elmo ploughed head, trying to keep up with the boy. She was determined to get away from there, she didn’t know where she was going to go… but anywhere was better than here. So trying to get her breathing to calm down she hurried on beside the boy.
Then it happened. it came out of nowhere! And before she knew it she had a mouthful of dirt! It wasn’t peasant. The could feel the air fly past her ears as her face mad contact with the muddy wet floor. Slowly she looked over her shoulder to see the stick that had stepped into her path. It was a bit one, the size of a miniature log. How had she missed it? it stuck out on the mush like black on white! But yet here she was gobbling down some yummy mud! Now she could feel her cheeks burn the deep shade of red, as she looked down to the ground. she couldn’t bring herself to look up at the boy. She was embarrassed. I mean who wouldn’t be? the log was the size of like two melons… and she had walked straight into it. Wait no. she corrected herself. It had walked into her path.
Slowly she looked up at the boy, a smile playing on her lips. She didn’t want to seem like a woss. Today she was going to turn her life around. It started now.