It's Got to End Living in My Head [The Phobias]
Apr 27, 2012 8:29:49 GMT -5
Post by Sarella on Apr 27, 2012 8:29:49 GMT -5
I wake up on the floor, face down, and lift my head. As I lift it, a pounding feeling comes to it like a headache. With a groan I sit up and rub my head. What happened? I can faintly hear voices in the next room, so I stand up and stumble over, and hold onto the wall as I listen. "Don't let her get out today." I hear my dad tell my mom. The front door opens and slams as he goes to work. Maybe they caught me yesterday? I don't remember. Only one, single thought is in my mind. It's a Saturday, and that's when my friends and I always meet up, whether it be just to hang out or to comfort each other. Saturdays are when we help each other figure things out if we need help. I don't like missing them. I peer around the wall, at my mom who is sitting on the couch with an empty glass in her hand. I see her eyes begin to flicker my way and hide. "Apflril?" she gurgles at me like a baby. I shut my eyes tight, then open them and come out. "Yes mom?" I ask. My head is really pounding right now, so I hope she isn't about to yell or anything. I don't even remember what happened yesterday to make me wake up like this. "Just checking." She says, as though I was a robber or something. I breathe a sigh of relief and walk to the couch, then sit down and rest my head. All I have to do is wait for her to fall asleep.
Her eyes are half closed, and I think it's almost time. But I'm so impatient. I slowly get off the couch and creep to the door, but I stub my foot on the table and make a loud BANG. "Hmmm" My mom moans, and I look over at her frantically. No no no no no. I fling open the door and stumble forward, and the door barely closes. I turn the knob and finish closing it, then release it slowly. Success! Sort of. When I get home it won't be such a success, unless I manage to get home before my mom wakes up or my dad gets back. My dad gets back at different times every day. Anyways, I just want to go see my friends. Lucas, Qaiue, and Blaire where all a bit scared of going outside, or the sun for its starriness or... fieriness. That's why we made sure the place we met at was a building, and could be accessed my following shady places in the morning - or allies. Qaiue doesn't like allies much though. He's a bit fearful of everything. As I begin to walk, my head turns in all directions for any mirrors, or that terribly creepy sign with all the swirls. I hope I'm not too late. Of course, no one is ever late, I just hate being the last one to arrive.
After only a few minutes of walking I come to where I know the sign is. I just have to scurry past it without paying attention and run the rest of the way. It's abandoned and falling apart, so no one would think we'd hide there to talk. It's around a mile from the Square though. I usually run there once I reach this point. Now I'm on the same street. Closing my eyes, I stiffen my body and go around it, behind the stores, walking on the soft morning ground dotted with dew. Still pretty early in the morning. I pass a girl who looks about my age, and she comes running up to me. "Could you spare some money?" She asks. I look at her for a few moments, then shake my head, "I'm sorry, I don't have any." I tell her. She nods her head, disappointed, then leaves me. As I keep walking, I feel sorry I couldn't give her anything. She looked so hungry and sleepless. Of course, that's a mirror of myself. In a way. I could eat plenty if my parents weren't such pigs. They eat it all, forgetting about me. And it gets kind of hard to sleep some nights. Others they help me go to sleep. The thought makes me shudder and I look up from the ground. Not many people take the route around the Square, so people who know about how "crazy" my friends and I are look at me suspiciously, expecting trouble. I won't scream for them today. Hopefully.
The end of the path arrives quicker than I thought it would. I stand at the end for a bit, then look ahead. You can't see the building from here. It's short, with only two floors. It isn't very wide either. Nonetheless, it's like a safe base for some of us. I just hated being there at night. In the dark, creaky place. The dark bothered me the most. I start running, my head pounding with every step. Step, pound, step, pound, step "OWCH!" I groan loudly, and stop running. I put my hand to my head and a blinding pain fills my head and eyes. This headache is terrible. Maybe even counting as a migraine? I don't know. I walk the rest of the distance. The sun is coming up, and the dew is slowly disappearing from the ground. It's a good thing the walk to the building is surrounded by thick trees, or some of us would never make it through without screaming at the sun. I'm alright. I'm getting just enough light not to be enclosed in darkness.
I reach the door and look around for any of my friends that might be coming. I can hear a few voices inside, and I open the door. Inside is Deimos, Jaden, Lucas and Beatie. Jaden is standing in the corner with his arms crossed, Lucas and Beatie are sitting at the table, and Deimos is just standing around. "Hey" I say. I pull up a chair and sit next to Beatie quietly. Now all we do is wait for the others. I cross my arms on the table and put my head down. My head hurts so much. I give a shudder when a spike of pain seems to push through my brain. What the heck happened last night? Anyways, it's about time the others came. I keep my ears open for the sound of the door opening. Or maybe a scream. This silence makes me feel so awkward.