After the Storm// {BAMF's}

[kiah]

CHOLE CORBY

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

Jerrome’s face, clashed in and out of her thoughts, clouding her mind. Waves of sympathy, grief, despair and fear washed through her all at once. She kept seeing Saskia defeated body, crumpled on the floor. The distant look in Jerromes eyes. Everything about that morning flashed past her memory. Causing her despair. She felt as if a hurricane of emotion had ran over, and that it kept coming back. Those last fatal looks at her family, haunting her. Taunting her. she had never remembered feeling this way about people. The people that she loved. Her eyes stung, but no tears came. She was out of tears, run dry. Dry sobs racked her body instead. Whenever she closed her eyes they were there. Even when they were open… her families faces were always there. Not the happy ones she wanted to remember… but the ones of them losing themselves. The ones of when they had lost her. When they had lost someone of their family.

[/color]And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side[/color]

Chole hadn’t slept since the morning of the reaping, and it was all starting to take its toll on her. There were dark bags under her eyes, it looked as though she had been in a punch up, and like she had gotten out of it on the wore end. Her mouth was permanently turned down. After all what was there to smile about? She was being sent to her death. Sent to die- Murdered. At the thought of the word she felt an unusual flare of anger. This was defiantly not the way she had planned to die. At the hands of another child. A child who probably wanted to get out of there as much as her.

Now she stood in the area that they were training themselves to be murderers. A distant emotionless smiled flattered to her lips. At least one of my dreams would come true she thought bitterly to herself.you’ve always wanted to be a ninja… here’s your chance she let the smile drop. Losing interest in the topic.

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When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now[/right]

Chole let her gaze wander over the area, choosing carefully where she wanted to go. Her eyes stopped at a boy. He looked strong, like a threat… but… Chole could feel something about the boy that wasn’t right, he didn’t feel like a threat. She looked at him, he looked like an ordinary bot… but there was just something… something…-odd! about him. Chole looked away searching the area once again, she took her time, taking in the other tributes, but to her surprise her eyes lead her back to the boy. He just sat there quietly, fumbling around with something around his wrist. Chole diverted her gaze as the boy looked up at her, sensing that someone was watching him.

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When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

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[laphae8ash]

I never choose to be poor for what is become of me,
Nor did I choose this Faith,
I never thought life would be so hard to be,
I guess it is just my Faith,
If these walls down go up for me
There will be pretty sure I can lost this surrender
If these walls go up for me,
There will be tell you lost in so many ways,

I am looking for safety,
What is it all about,
For somebody to tell me,
Take away this vow,

Life is a play and we all play a part,
But it often gets hard for the heart

I could feel the eyes on me as I stepped into the room. The convex protrusion of my stomach was now gone, in its place a squishy and uneven expanse of skin and torn muscle. The salve that the capitol was putting on it several times a day was helping to firm and heal the scar quick enough, but when I looked down and saw my children gone there was no cure for that type of heart break.

At least they survived, at least they're are alive and well in the Capitol hospital, soon they will be strong enough to be sent back to my husband in District 10, but for now they were here near me. Subconsciously my hand traveled over my abdomen and I looked around. I'm sure the Careers have pegged me as an easy target, and the lower districts have stayed away from me like I'm a disease...no one wants to have to deal with someone as scared and broken as me.

Glancing around the room I notice a boy, he was at the stables earlier, a place where I keep wanting to sneak off too, but with the watchful eyes of Mace and Olive there's not much I have been able to get away with. Sucking up my fear and knowing I need to make some sort of "friends" here I walk over to him and look down at my feet, trying to be polite I whisper, "I saw you with the horses, you're really good with them...I love horses, they're so much easier to deal with than people." Looking up to try to catch his eye I hope he won't just walk away leaving me to look like a fool.

Hard for the heart

Who ever thought I ever questioned mortality,
It is given time and space,
And who ever says we belong to society,
The only human race,
If these wall will comfort me,
There will, pretty sure I am lost for so many ways
If these walls come talk to me,
There would I be for lost so many ways

I am looking for safety,
What is it all about,
Will somebody tell me
Take away this vow,
Life is a play and we all play a part,
But is often gets hard for the heart.