Fax Nocte [Felix]

[Sarella]

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When I walk into the living room I can see they have clearly all passed out, even my dad. Them as in my dad's friends. Must've drunken too much, it happens, a little more often then you'd think. I scoop up the remainder of their card game and put them neatly back in a pile, and set them on the table. Then I push a guy onto the couch, because he was slipping and would tumble down at any moment. I don't want any of them to wake up for three reasons. One - I want to get some sleep, and as long as they are awake I'll never even get close to having my eyes closed. Two - If any of them wake up and I'm the first thing they see, I'm certain to get hurt. Plus, my dad already made me cry today. I don't like repeating things, no matter how often it happens. Finally, three - The door is unlocked. I haven't been outside in months again, but that was normal. Spend a few months inside then go outside. Then, once home, get beaten and fall asleep. Worked for me.

I step over a small pile of bottles and creep to the door. I've learned to know when it was unlocked. The key would be in the door. My dad never left the key in the door. Even if it was locked, I could unlock it if the key was there. He must've not had time to take it out when he fell asleep, that would make sense. The second my hand touches the door a chill goes up my spine. As long as I'm home before anyone wakes up I'll be fine. I think. I turn the handle, and when I crack the door not only does it creek it also makes a whoosh sound. I instinctively flinch, but when no one wakes up I finish opening the door as quickly as I can, then turn and carefully close it behind me. I even manage to get it all the way closed. It must be somewhere around two in the morning, at least. That's alright. I'm used to being up late. Very late in some cases, even until morning.

I rub my arms lightly and start walking. The street is very empty, and I'm not going to be able to socialize at all. If I wanted to, I'd be waiting until at least four or five. So unless someone managed a night job, the most I cn do is walk. Walking is fine with me. I need some peace, indeed. A small sigh escapes my lips and I hold my right hand in my left. I play with my fingers as I near the square. I like the square at night, it's so quiet and peaceful. No one yelling or shoving like in the day. Whenever someone shoves me out of the way I feel like my dad has caught me, even if he's still passed out on the floor of the house. I don't know if he'd gotten up or not. Usually, he's awake when I get home, but he didn't go looking for me.

I look around and sit on a bench. So Lonely. No one here. Sure it's quiet, but it's Lonely. For me, Lonely has become more of a person than a feeling. It's a name for something rather than an emotion. I stare at some bread in the bakery window and try to imagine having it. I can't though. t just seems so much like a fantasy it's impossible. I'm hungry, and I guess any hungry person should be able to imagine having food for even a few seconds, but I can't. I haven't been able to imagine anything lately, not even my mom. She's dissapeared from my memory except her name. I lean forward and put my head in my hands, and my elbows on my knees. Almost as soon as I do that I have to lift them, because my elbows hurt. I rub them a bit then settle with just leaning forward. I can imagine the bread when I close my eyes. Just not with them open. How unimaginative I am!

I turn my eyes away from the bread, because if anyone where to see me out here they'd think I was about to rob something from someone. That'd be the opposite of the truth, but people can think some pretty interesting things. Like how Fynn - one of my dad's closer friends - was once thoroughly convinced I'd been the one to spill his drink so he'd slip. Even though only a few minutes earlier my dad had spilled it himself, and he'd seen it. Apparently standing too close is hazardous to my health. It always is, isn't it? I keep moving my eyes around, already ajusted to the darkness so I can plainly see anything. For the most part. I can see someone walking around. Woah, walking around? At this hour? Well I'm doing it. I'm not walking around though, I'm sitting around. Same thing, right? I watch the person curiously, who was it? Not anybody I would know, for certain. I keep watching the person, waiting to see if they'd do any interesting.

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"Everyone go to sleep! I would be turning the lights off already!" the caretaker said with a hiss. She hates us a lot, I don't know why, ever since I was brought here she was already like that. Her name was Martha a middle aged woman, who was kind to anyone who came to the orphanage, but is a devil different whenever she is with us. Maybe it's because we were kids, that's why she needs to discipline us, or maybe she just hated kids that's why she never had children of her own. She snaps the lights off, it was total darkness. The only light source were from the tiny windows located beside each of our bed. Our bedroom was huge since there were 15 kids sleeping here. I was fortunate enough to be placed at the edge of the room, beside the only huge window panes in our room. It was covered with a silk like cloth that's really soft to the touch and smooth too. I was lying down in bed, it was a small bed but big enough for me to fit in, but not big enough for me to be comfortable in. My body was wrapped in this wool like cloth that they call a blanket, also uncomfortable, it made my skin itchy, which is not good for me considering my skin condition. But it was better than having to sleep in the streets right? As I lay there I try to shut my tired eyes and float away to a land that I really loved, My dreamland.

Twisting and turning, I wasn't able to get a position that satisfied me, a position that was relaxing. Finally I stopped and looked at the moon. It was big and bright, the things I wished my life was, copious because it will be exciting and dazzling because a lot of people would shower me with love. A little sigh escapes my pouted lips. life is very hard, I admit that but it could change for the better, if we have enough positive attitude then we could get through everything life throws at us. Looking at the moon I started to drift in a dream, but my eyes weren't close they were wide open. I was in the same place still lying in my bed. Kicking my sheets away, I move to a sitting position. Standing beside my bed, I saw everyone fast a sleep. Slowly I approach the window, caressing the glass softly, I wrap my hand around the metal handle. It was curved shaped with metal edges, was cold to my touch. Then I jerked it open, bitter night air came rushing in my shirt started to flow with the wind. Slowly I felt my feet float off the ground. I bow my head and saw that I was flying. Then I lean forward a bit, but I flew forward. I was outside the window, flying two stories high.

I'm so happy, I never flew before this was very exciting. The wind flew past me, I was getting tossed this way and that, but I was immensely happy. Looking back at the moon, I will fly going there I said to no one in particular since I was high in the sky. Soaring even higher I saw the entire district, Every building, all the houses, forest stretched for miles around the edges of my district. I look above now The moon was only an arm reach away. Stretching my arms up, I wanna feel it's rocky surface on my fingers, then everything went black. Suddenly I sit up and inhale deeply. Quickly, I look around and saw that everyone was fast asleep, just like my dream. It was all just a dream, the best thing that ever happened to me was just a dream. A figure of my active imagination, tears started to appear in my eyes. I wanted so badly to get away from this nightmare people call life, I wanted to fly away just like in my dream and lie down on the moon, just looking at the people from up above like a god. Still trying to go back to sleep, I sit up again and kick my sheets away. I jump out of bed soundlessly. I wouldn't want anyone to wake up and catch me. Hurriedly I walk going out of the orphanage I need time to think, and breath.

I gently push the doors open, then rush out. Closing it slowly so that it doesn't creek or wake anyone up. I walk out to the streets of district five, wearing nothing but a flannel pajama and a v-neck white shirt. Typically it was cold. Looking down at my feet I saw that I forgot to put on sandals. "Who cares." I said with a little laugh at the end. Continuing to laugh I walk around a tiny bit in the district square. I walk towards the tree and start feeling it brushing it. It was rough against my hand. I love nature very much if only my district was as it was before. Then I walk towards the benches in the square. Looking straight ahead I saw a girl who was looking directly at me. So typically I would stare directly at her because I was thinking she was part of my dream.

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[Sarella]

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I determine it to be a boy, and he laughs a bit. Why was he laughing? Perhaps he'd thought of something comical. That did not happen to me much, but sometimes I would think about something my mom had done before my dad got rid of her. She was always very humrous. When I was very little, I would sit on her lap and she'd tel me a funny story. I loved laughing. Do I still like it? Of course I do, it just doesn't seem like the right thing to do anymore. As though laughing would break some strange silence that doesn't even exist. Something tense, keeping my wrapped in a tight cacoon, barely letting me even breathe. How can one laugh, when they are almost suffocating? I believe it to be impossible, and that's perhaps, a theory on why I don't feel I can laugh. Now there's something to hear. Can't laugh? Sounds just as foreign as laughing it's self.

The boy walks towards a tree and is rubbing against it. He seemed to strangely fascinated with the tree, as though it was something he loved dearly. I love trees, too. There aren't many here, anymore, so I've been told. Apparently there used to be many, everywhere. I would love to see the district like that. Devoured in trees, plants, flowers, and all those other beautiful things. The boy rubs his hand aganst the tree. I close my eyes and imagine rubbing my hand against the tree. It would be rough, right? The bark might peel if it was loose. Of course, it might also be a very tough tree, and instead scrape someone before it lost any of it's bark. If it did come out in myhand, would it be thick or thin? It could be either. It might be sharp, or it could have a smooth side on the inside. In the dark it would look like a very deep brown, but if it were bright day it'd look so bright. Bright and beautful. Trees were always beautiful, no matter what the lighting was.

His body turns in the direction of the benches around the square. Maybe he won't see me. It is dark, isn't it? But people can very quickly grow used to dim lighting. As he strolls closer, I keep watching him closely. My feelings feel mixed at the time. Curiousity, relaxation, tenseness. My body feels almost foreign to me when I'm outside. Right now, I feel like I've got my own body, but if someone were to notice me, I'd become an alien. Well, from experience that's what it would be like. For all I can tell. A bodiless alien. I don't like becoming such a thing. He looks traight ahead, and sees me. I cringe for a moment. Spotted. I've been spotted, and he's staring at me. Why was he staring at me like that? He didn't seem angry, nor like he recognized me, he didn't even look curious. He looked almost nonchalant, as though he was in a dream. Perhaps I'm in a dream, or I could be in waking sleep. Hallucinating this entire place.

Reality check? No need. I'm not that sleep deprived. I can - almost - tell the different beteen reality and dreamland. Of course, how often do I enter dreamland? Not as often as I should, so how would I be able to tell if this was a dream? I just know. I keep looking back at him. Maybe he would just walk away and dizzy walk somewhere else. His expression was so soft though. Like someone staring into space, even though he was obviously looking at me. You know that expression people get when they are thinking about something? He looks like that, but a bit more daydream-like. Was he a crazy? Perhaps he was, and he was just lost. I can't help him much though, I can't really find my way around anymore. I've pretty much forgotten the way to almost everything but the square.

I shift on the bench. This staring was getting a bit on my nerves. I get a bit anxious in situations like this. I stand up awkwardly, barely being able to move under someones eyes. It was hard enough moving across the room in front of my dad's friends, but this stranger? A stranger staring at my movements made me too uncomfortable. I start slowly stumble-walking towards him, a question already on my tongue. What was he doing out here? Was my question. I'd ask it, get my answer, then go hide somewhere for as long as I could before going home. I won't bother with too much socializing today. Anyways, I'm sleepy. Oh yah, sure. I'm so going to get some sleep tonight - or should I say today? The little bits of gravel shift under my feet, but I have a light tred, and they aren't as bad as someone starming home after work. Someone who checks the door to see if they remembered to lock it before leaving, and if they did forget, come inside angry and insane with glaring eyes. No, my feet can barely make them shift to a point a mouse would awaken. Barely.

"W-what are y-you doing a-awake?" I ask. I was too curious to let the question stay inside me. I take the last step, and this time the gravel seems to crunch under me. I'm making too much of listening to my own feet. I feel like i've lengthened a seven second walk into thirty minutes. But still, I've asked a question and now I can wait for an answer. Well, that's typically what people do. Except some people, who just keep talking. I don't talk too much. Well, I don't think so. I don't exactly get a chance to say anything, really.

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