.you're [sick] of [feeling] numb. [semper]
Jan 22, 2012 0:37:45 GMT -5
Post by pika on Jan 22, 2012 0:37:45 GMT -5
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[/justify][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote][/size]Elixir was drunk.
That was nothing new. His sobriety is nothing more than a distant memory, only found in the most profound parts of Elixir's mind. More than half of his days were spent drunk, because lately the pain had become unbearable. He wasn't even sure what caused the most pain, or what he should be saddest about. His sadness was balled into one, huge amalgam, and the individual events were no longer distinguishable. Alcohol was just the buffer; it softened the edges and made the pain more bearable, but it never completely eradicated it.
It was barely noon, and Elixir was flat-out wasted. His tolerance for alcohol had gone way up since he first began to indulge in it, and he was easily able to control himself when it was in his system. Still though, his words came out a bit slurred, and his gait was a bit wobbly. Dressed in clean pants and a slightly ruffled button-up shirt, Elixir was ambling his way into town. He had this bar-more or less- that he usually went to, but he wasn't sure if he wanted to enter that dark, dusky place today. It only mirrored how he felt inside, and he wanted a different vibe. He wanted to stay out in the sunshine today, because sunshine was one of the few pure things in life that Elixir rejoiced in. It will almost always be there, warming up the earth and providing food and warmth and life.
The sun licked at his skin as he drunkenly meandered through the streets, half observing the things going on around him. The alcohol blurred his peripheral vision, so his vision was pretty much set straight ahead. But again, he was used to it. Not used to the pain; he would never get completely used to that. You didn't learn to accept pain and move on, you just learned to live with it as an obstacle.