The Final Goodbye [Kendall]
May 22, 2012 22:10:13 GMT -5
Post by Raseri on May 22, 2012 22:10:13 GMT -5
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By the time we arrive at the Justice Building, I’m spent. My head is aching along with the rest of my body, and I’m so darn tired I could take a nap right on the sidewalk. My throat is raw from screaming so much. Why can’t I just go home? Why can't I lie in my own bed, or eat a nice meal with my mom and dad?
There is no home for me anymore.
It's the cold hard truth. From now on, the closest thing to home will be the train, the capitol, the training center, and in the end, the arena. I'll never return to District Seven, to my own bed, to my favorite oak tree. I'll never hear my parents' voices again, or my buddies', or Paisley's. From now on, I'll be alone.
I'm going to die alone.
I'm led into the justice building by two large and burly peacekeepers, both of which are dressed in bright white uniforms. They practically carry me into a small room with navy blue wallpaper and a bright yellow, beat-up leather couch. Someone really needs to hire an interior decorator. And a housekeeper would do them some good too, I think as the dust in the room makes me sneeze loudly.
What am I doing in here? Are they going to interrogate me or something? I sink into the right end of the couch, grateful for a place to rest. I don't think they brought me here so I could take a nap, though. And then it hits me. This is where I say my final goodbyes.
As I wonder who I'll get to see first, the door opens and shuts with a click. I don't know what to say, but I don't need to. I run into my mother's open arms and hug her tightly, burying my face into the crook of her neck like I did when I was little. I don't care if it's silly, and I don't care that I'm three inches taller than her. What matters is that she's here. With me.
No one can seem to think of the right words, so we both just stand there looking at each other. But her eyes say it all. "Drew," she finally says, sitting down on the couch with me and taking my face in her hands. "I want you to know... that if I had any money, I'd bet it all on you. And even... even if you don't win... your father and I will still be proud of you." I could by her face that she seemed to think she had said the wrong kind of thing. Her eyes brimmed with tears. One of the peacekeepers looked at his watch, and I knew I didn't have much time left. "I love you, baby. Don't ever forget that, okay?"
I lean forward and hug her again. I don't trust my trembling voice enough to tell her anything too long in reply, so all I can croak out over the lump in my throat is, "I love you too, mom." Hot tears threaten at my eyes, but I won't let them fall. I won't let her worry any more. She bursts into tears and sobs hysterically, and I shush her consolingly, telling her it will be all right. I pat her back, knowing that I'm lying, that nothing will be all right.
When the peacekeeper grabs my mother's arm and pulls her towards the door, she lets out a wail, too busy sobbing to choke out anything else. I put my head in my hands and try to calm my raging headache. Why didn't I say something else? I slam my fist on the arm of the plush yellow couch, frustrated. That was the last time I would ever see my mom, and all I said was 'I love you.' God, why am I so stupid?
I'm so wrapped up in my headache and my frustration that it takes about ten seconds for my brain to process the sound of the door opening one last time. I look up and my heart jumps.
Paisley.
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