no more bark or bite [Eagle]
Aug 24, 2012 8:37:15 GMT -5
Post by semper on Aug 24, 2012 8:37:15 GMT -5
bear Keeni
Things have just been so crazy lately. Okay, so, I met this girl I did my usual try-to-kill-her-then-have-sex-with-her thing. And normally, right after that I would either kill them or leave them, but for some reason I just couldn't do either. I found myself staying because I wanted to. I didn't hurt her anymore, which is uncharacteristic of me. Hell, I hurt my own siblings on occasion, but I don't hurt Vicky. Not after I found out she was pregnant.
And now I'm not as grizzly as I used to be. I've lost my claws (no, I haven't actually lost them, they're just dulled down), my teeth aren't as sharp, and my fur is a lot less course. I've been unwillingly toned down and I'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing. Vicky says it's good, but I'm finding it very hard to adjust to. I know my anger issues are still there, just... dormant.
Walking along an old gravel road, I kick a few of the stones out of my way. Is it wrong that I want my anger back? I want to be a bitch to everyone again? But not to her. I want to keep my old ways but just not perform them around her. I can still be myself, right? I'll just respect her in ways I don't even respect my sisters. Well, they aren't carrying my kid so it doesn't matter, I can be as snarky as I want to them. And strangers - I can be rude and obnoxious to strangers, so that's what I intend to do. Trudging along the stone road, I raise my gaze and search for someone - anyone - that I can intentionally piss off.
((Gahk, I'm really bad at starter posts Dx ))