Memories [[Chaos]]

[chaseee]

I looked out the window, and thought to myself, there is no way in hell I am going out in this weather. Rain was pouring as if someone was standing on the clouds dumping buckets onto Earth from above. You could barely see two feet in front of your face due to the thick fog, and added on to that it was cold. Not unusual summer weather. I still didn't like it.

I hated being cut off from the woods. There was nothing I enjoyed more than going out on a Sunday afternoon and shooting a few rabbits to bring home for supper. And there was always those times when my feet carried me to the spot my father was killed.
It wasn't as if I wanted to go there. It was if I needed too. It was the only way to prove what happened back there wasn't just some mixed up nightmare.

Well, for now, I was stuck at home. There was no way to change that. So I decided to spend some time with my living parent. I listened hard, trying to detect her whereabouts. She was in the kitchen. Figured. She had always been busying herself cooking or cleaning. Ever since dad died.

I got out of the small chair I was sitting on, and strolled into the small room. There she was, standing at the oven cooking whatever. It had to be past two, so it was either a late lunch or an early dinner.

"Hey mom..." She turned around, and I felt as if I swallowed a rock. It was obvious she had been crying. Her eyes were puffy and bloodshot, and there was a rather large snot clot hanging from her nose. "I... uh.... just wanted to let you know I was going out." I couldn't stand seeing her like this, and I knew she didn't want me to. I turned and walked out the door...

...And was immediately soaked through. Oh well. Better than sitting there watching mother cry. I forgot my bow and sheath of arrows in the weapon cupboard, although I still had dad's dagger sheathed at my belt. I reached up and stroked the amulet he had been so fond of. I remember, after the battle with that one girl, Flight, how I had snuck back into the woods and retreived the precious necklace. How I had put it on my neck and refused to take it off. Anything of my fathers was cherished.

And then I stopped walking. Because just up ahead, I saw... her.


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[chaseee]

My blood runs cold and I feel a small shiver as bright images flash through my mind. My father mauled. Flight stealing the amulet. Me chasing her here. Me stabbing her in the eye.
The last one makes me cringe against myself. Not a pretty picture. I glance up at the eye I had damaged beyond repair. It looked... dead. There was no other way to describe it. There was no life in those gray pupils. Nothing for the bleak iris to focus on.
I did that.

"What crime? I did not kill you. It's not against the law to destroy someone's sight. No more than it is to lay in bed at night." Ok, well maybe that was an understatement. I'm sure the Peacekeepers would do something if they found out I had been cutting eyes open. Surely not a public execution, or a life as an Avox. Maybe more of a beating, or community service.

I glance around the area again. There were the bushes I had to crawl through to get to the amulet. There was the opening from the seemingly never-ending line of trees where I had burst into the clearing, swearing the girl's death. And it would have come too, if I had wanted it to. If I had only pushed the blade in a little deeper, she would not be standing here, talking to me so casually.
And I did not regret my decision.

I did not think I would have been able to live with myself if I had taken a life. On purpose. Oh well, why live in the past.

"So why are you out here? You certainly won't get any good game here in this weather."

[chaseee]

I cringe at her words. However gentle they were, there was still that familiar stab of pain that followed. No matter how much I wanted to be angry at Flight... I couldn't. She had lost a lot here in this clearing, as well as me.

"You have no idea," I whisper. I walk over to a large boulder, and take a seat. "It's not as if I wanted to come. I had to, you know. Like you said. I need closure." I think of this for a moment. Flight did not kill my father. But she had started the fire that had resulted in our fight to the death to blindness? And I wasn't sure I could forgive her for what she had turned me into. A monster.

Even now, I have dreams of what it would have felt like to push the hilt of that knife a little harder. To watch her body fall. For me to ungraciously step over the cold corpse, with a small smile on my face.

I was a monster.

I glance up at her eye again, and shiver. I caused that. Her blindness was my fault. Not some raging madman. But me. I hold her gaze, willing her to say something. Anything.
Eventually, the silence becomes unbearable. I have to talk.

"So why are you out here? It seems like it would be a little hard returning to the place I lost a fight." I don't mean for it to sound cruel, but it does. I worry she'll lash out, mad for revenge. For now she looked calm enough. But any minute now she could take out one of those swords she was so find of and drive it through my heart. And that would not be good.

[chaseee]

I only stare at her, wide-eyed. How could she possibly understand?... But of course. She was going through the exact same thing.

I also realized something else. Something I had been feeling since the fight. Since the congratulatory kiss that followed. Feelings that I had never felt before had risen in me. Feelings that would not fade in during a night's sleep... or not?

I looked into her eyes, and saw what must be hidden inside my own. Insanity. And there was nothing I could do to stop it. Something had changed that night. Something that could never be fixed. But somehow... I felt okay with that. Because there was at least one more person that felt the same way.

I slowly rolled onto the balls of my feet, my eyes never leaving hers. I started walking, ever so slowly. One foot in front of the other. Slower. Slower.

Faster.

And then suddenly I was there. My lips were on hers, and everything seemed right with the world. The universe suddenly righted itself. Everything was back to the way it was before the fight. No, it wasn't. It was better.

I waited for her to pull back. To tell me there was no way in hell that was ever happening again. That the other two times had been an accident. That her feelings were not to be tampered with.

But for now, I just stood there, enjoying this moment of total happiness.

[[Sorry if some parts don't make since. I was a wee bit distracted while typing up this post. Very emotional for Alyss ya know xD]]

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