drinking from the bottle ♕ Lei
Mar 13, 2013 3:00:01 GMT -5
Post by cass on Mar 13, 2013 3:00:01 GMT -5
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The room filled with laughter. It was the kind of laughter that rang out through the entire room, filling every crack and crevice. It was the best kind, the sweetest one, because it held true joy and meaning. There are many kinds of laughter and many hide the true identity and purpose that they were made for. But this one was the one that made me smile. It was the laughter that had been caused because of me, a joke can be funny, and it just needs to be told the right way. That was what I did, that was why the room was filled with a haughty laughter that echoed in your ears. It made that grin grow bigger, until each perfect white tooth shone in the dull flickering light of the room.
I always smiled; it was who I was known for. It was why I was held with such little respect in my family. I could never be taken seriously. Tonight I felt determined to get something, anything important for them. Maybe those common scowls and the scorn that so often faced me would flicker away into oblivion. There was so much that I wanted, there was so much that I wished I could have, most of it was just to see my own family smile through the dark folds that seemed to engulf them all. But most of all I wanted to be seen as more then what I am, each smile that I draw from the depths of my heart as become not as much as they use to mean. They have become soiled and nothing more than a slight, an act at most. On the inside I’m aching, I’m in need of the same praise and respect that my elder brother and twin hold.
It was one of the few rooms in the pub that was clean, the room I sat in was not very well lit, and it was the kitchen, the place where every one went for their drink and food. The rooms stood above, where people could pay to stay for a night, or two. I had never ventured up there, the sounds that came from there were a whole other area. Everyone heard them if they stayed long enough. It was awfully hard not to, you'd have to be death to not hear it. Most men grinned, understanding glimmering within the depths of their cold, hard gazes. My imagination could easily draw the picture, but I always tried to block the sounds it, forcing it all from my mind.
The men that visited here were dirty, they disgusted me. But I had to come. There was always good information in these places. Information was everything when you were fighting in a war. Those that had the best knowledge of their enemy had more of a chance of winning. In a pub like this there were the people that knew how much it was worth. They knew all the dirtiest and best bits, they knew how to hide it and who to give it to. People like them knew how to listen, and they knew that people like me would pay for good information. I had visited the place many of times, just for a few minutes before slipping back and away like a shadow. You could never get too comfortable with your reliance. They would just as easily slit your throat as they would take your money.
This place was known for its dirtiness and more famously known for the scum and dirt that decided to pay it a visit. Thieves, whores and drug dealers frequented this house. People called it a pub, but those that knew the place and knew the rumours knew what it truly was. You could buy any drink you wanted, you could eat until you were content, but those were not the real trades. The people that visited were known exactly for those reasons; they came for those kinds of entertainments. That was not why I was there. I was not a man who bought a lady, I was not a man who stole or bought drugs. Drugs were pleasant enough; they just ruined your life, stole your memories and destroyed your mind. Whores were disgusting and vile, living by selling their bodies for money and thievery was below a man like me.
I did not need to steal to live. I had money and I was part of one of the most powerful houses in the whole of district three. It was untold of for me to go unnoticed. I had been born and raised to be noticed. I had trained myself, I had learned like any career boy to become what I was. The only difference was I was no true career. I simply wanted something I could not have. Most people raised an eye brow at my appearance; the people that lived her knew an outsider from a simple glance. No layers of clothing or disguise could hide that. It was like a sixth sense to them, and for that reason I never tried to be discreet, I never tried to hide who I was, it always showed. I was proud of who I was.
The room tilted as I looked at it. Less than half an hour ago it had been crystal clear. Less than half an hour ago I had sat on my stool and had found out some very important information. Information that could help my family win this war they had carelessly thrown themselves into. Now I could barely see three feet in front of me and anything that I heard just slipped out through the other side. The bottle of vodka clasped in my left hand was almost empty, it was not the first one I had drank and I was sure it would not be the last one.
I slip from my chair landing on my two legs. They shook with the hard impact. For a second I swayed unsteadily and a hysterical laugh tore itself from my lips at the thought of falling. I had never fallen down before. Hell I had never been drunk before. At first it had tasted like fire, it had burned the whole way down and even when it reached my chest it had made me ache. The man I had come to see had forced the drink into my hand telling me drink; otherwise there would be no information. At first I had been reluctant. I was not a drinker; I had never done it before. After the first few scolding mouthful’s the drink had made me feel more relaxed. Within ten minutes I had found myself standing up and telling everyone jokes. I was good at that. Jokes were the one thing I took seriously. There was always an undercurrent of truth behind mine; they fit the pieces of a puzzle with so many open spaces. They were part of me.
Fumbling once more with the bottle I tip it skywards, pouring the rest of its contents into my mouth. The burning sensation lingered the whole way down. I smile, I always smiled, but this smile was much more relaxed and real than any other one. “Nox, my-my bro! So good to see you here, ay?” The grin widen a careless laugh tangling itself into my slurred words, the bottle swayed in my hand, as I stumbled closer to my brother, offering him the empty bottle of vodka. “Oh, why did you drink it all?!” I make a face at him, it quickly turns into hysterical laughter. “No matter, I’ll get you a new one, Noxy.”
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn
And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
[/color][/center]I like to keep my issues drawn
It's always darkest before the dawn
And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
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