.: to build a home :: anzie :.
Sept 15, 2013 20:12:30 GMT -5
Post by k!ah on Sept 15, 2013 20:12:30 GMT -5
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[/size]No light seeped in from the thick curtains that hung from my window, swaying slightly as some of the wind outside slipped under the windows sill. I close my eyes once more, trying to let my mind take me away from the thoughts that wandered freely. I didn’t want to listen to them anymore; I wanted to be in a place where everything came true. Where the skies are streaked with colour, where life always seems to plant a genuine smile on my lips. To a place where the people who are supposed to love you- actually loved you. But those dreams, the ones of happiness, the ones of love… they always seemed to avoid me. I had to think of my own happiness, I had to think of my own rainbows filled skies… But sometimes, sometimes, I just wished that those dreams would come by themselves.
I pulled my blankets tighter around my body- hoping to draw comfort from the familiarity of the rough sheets against my bare legs… But I felt nothing; I was truly alone in this world tonight. Sighing, I shove my blanket off me and slip into the small crapped hallway of my house. My long thin leg instantly have small bump grow on them, but I ignore the icy touch. Hugging my old flannelette shirt closer to my thin body I head towards the front door, my body eager to escape from the small place that I called my home.
My brother used to live here with me, he used to share the house with me… but that not anymore- he lived in the hospital now. Swallowing back the lump that formed in my throat I stepped out into the chilly night air. My shirt fell to my upper thigh, but I didn’t mine, the chill that spread through my whole body let me forget about my brother. Fighting back shivers I close the door behind me and begin to walk down the deserted streets. Usually I would have a smile on my face, a smile that would seem genuine, but would not feel real… but tonight I didn’t, tonight I just walked aimlessly away from my home, away from my worries, away from everything. I needed to have a moment to myself. I needed to have a moment to escape from the place that held my happiness, my life captive. It was all my parents fault. They were the reason I was like this today…. If it weren’t for them- who knew, I might be a better person.
I round the next corner, my bare feet becoming numb. I couldn’t feel them as I place one mindlessly in front of the other. But that didn’t matter, it helped- help me escape from this world and into a new world of my own.
Template credits to the amazing Zoe <3
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