.:Turning Tables:. (Dreamer) ~Blitz~

[Tom]

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Jay Krearns was no man of romance. There was nothing romantic about him. He didn't bring flowers or buy any jewelry or go out on dates with his boyfriend. The last thing Jay did with his boyfriend was have sex and Jay felt nothing in it. There was a thought that he might have felt something, but it didn't feel right to him. Nothing felt quite right to him anyways. Mason was gone and all Jay had left were cousins, Jev, and Curse. Curse Jinx, the boy who had helped Jay through all of his pain and suffering. The guy who was as sweet as a button. The guy Jay didn't like or love anymore.

Jay had been home all week trying to decide what to do with his life. The main focus was on Curse. Jay didn't want Curse to suffer anymore. Curse needed to be happy and find someone perfect for him. Not Jay. Not the boy who probably has been tearing Curse's heart. Curse needed a guy who would treat him right and cook him breakfast and dinner. Someone to cuddle with and cry on if needed. Curse needed someone who would get his humor. He needed someone that understands Curse, someone that is not Jay Krearns.

Jay was currently on his way to the Jinx's house. This was the day that Curse and Jay would remember for a long time. This would be the day that the two go their separate ways. Jay with his surf shack and Curse with whatever Curse does. Jay didn't even know what Curse did for a job or for fun. It really was time, it is like he never knew who Curse was. Curse was a stranger to him now days because Jay didn't spend time with Curse.

Jay knocked on the door softly. His heart beating faster. Jay had never been the boy to break someone's heart, but now he would be. He would be breaking the first heart. It would be hard getting over his first love, but he would manage. Jay quietly waited for Curse. Curse had answered and Jay just went straight past him inside of the house.

Jay sat down in Curse's room taking in the smell of the room. Remembering his first time in this room. Remembering his feeling of Joy. Remembering the first time he had ever kissed someone. This room held memories and he wanted to add another one to it, to complete the puzzle. Jay took in a deep breath and spoke slowly, "Curse... We need to talk. I know that you are my first love and all, but I think it's time for us to move on. I'm sorry." Jay stood still watching Curse. This day would be a memory that Jay would never forget. A day that will be full of sorrow. Jay just hoped Curse would be alright because Jay knew for a fact that he wouldn't be. Jay Krearns, the boy who broke his first heart.

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Curse was pacing in his hallway, how can he do this. Hell how can anyone do this? His nerves were on high and his family was nowhere to be found. Hell he hasn't seen his family in god knows how long and some of them aren't even 18 yet!! It's not like they can move yet it seems that they have without informing him. Oh well, at least he had Jay or whatever little of Jay that he had. He and Jay have been having issues that always ended up in arguments and they haven't seen each other in way too long. Maybe it was supposed to be this way. He still loved him and Jay will always be Curse's first love but it's time for them to move on. Curse has done all he can for Jay, it was time for him to recover and relax. Maybe for him to go with a girl for a bit. That's why he invited Jay over and that's why his heart was pounding faster than light it felt like when Jay walked straight past him and into Curse's room. "Curse... We need to talk. I know that you are my first love and all, but I think it's time for us to move on. I'm sorry," was the first thing Jay said. And a sigh of relief flew out of Curse, so much pressure released from his chest. "Thank Ripred I'm not the one saying it." he told Jay that beautiful man that he will always love but never be in love with anymore.

[Tom]

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Jay relaxed as soon as Curse sighed at the fact that Jay said it and Curse didn't have to. Jay knew it was for the best. Sure, Jay probably could have saved their relationship, but Jay doesn't have much strength to save anyone at the moment. His life is still hectic, especially with him starting to meet cousins and other family. He forgot that the Krearns were still a big family without his family. Curse and Jay's relationship just would have turned into a toxic one to Curse and Jay. It just wouldn't have been a smart choice. Curse will always have a special place in his heart, even if they aren't dating. Curse was his first love and first time too. Jay would never forget the good memories. Curse was an angel from above sent to help Jay. The day they first met was a terrible day, but somehow it became one of his favorites. One of his best days ever. Jay smiled at Curse and said, "I am so glad we are on the same pace. It's just that this relationship would have turned toxic and neither you or me would have been happy. IT would have been miserable and terrible. You still are my first love and my first time and I won't ever forget those memories, but it just needed to end. You are still very special to me Curse. You helped me get through a hard time. I'll always be here for you if you need me. You know exactly where to find me." Jay gets up and stands in front of Curse. He wraps his arms around Curse for one more time. One more time, just to make sure. Jay was right. The spark was gone.

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Curse just looked at Jay after he admitted that he was glad that they broke up. Should people be glad to break up? Should I feel bad for wanting to break up with him? Hey at least it was mutual. Curse thought to himself as he still looked at his now ex-boyfriend. This was an interesting place to be in for Curse. For all the pain and grieving that will definitely come after this he can't help but remember all the good that they had. They first had sex in this very room. Their first kiss, their first date, the first time they met. They met in such horrible emotional conditions for both of them and now that they're both seem to be on the right track it's time for their paths to diverge. And Curse was alright with that. It was hard to be in this situation but it felt right, for both of them, which eased it as much it could. Even if hurts right now. Jay finally said basically what Curse was thinking all along and hugged him, hopefully not for the last time forever but it will be for a while. That last line really hit home though, "I'll always be here for you if you need me. You know exactly where to find me." Curse hugged Jay back, only saying, "Same here Jay. Same here"