After midnight // Gala(Cameo)
Apr 14, 2014 20:58:21 GMT -5
Post by * on Apr 14, 2014 20:58:21 GMT -5
My eyes stare deep into the darkness of this empty room. The other bed beside me is void of any life. The sheets are perfectly straight and so tight that if you dropped a coin on it, it would merely bounce. I can see the outline of the bed as if there was light in here. Everything in this room is outlined in my mind. I've been staring at it for far too long since I was brought in. Xrays and evaluations overwhelmed me the moment I got to the hospital. I'm so deathly worried about Gala. The silence sound of someone sleeping reaches my ears. I've not slept. Even with the medicine, I can't seem to allow myself that privaledge. In the darkness, I see his face. In the light, I hear his voice. Within these sheets, I can feel his hands on my body again. I can't get him out of my head. At all.
Will this feeling ever go away?
I sit up quickly, and bring my head to rest in my hands. I bite hard on my lower lip. A deep breath fills my lungs and with a slow breath out, it doesn't seem to aid me in my need to get rid of this skin crawling feeling. I start to fumble around with the Iv tubing on my arm, clicking the mechanism on the plastic before I unscrew the cap, seperating me from the machine. The tiny, blue lit up numbers and things blink a symbol telling me that the bag is empty. However, the nurse has yet to check on me at all in the last little while. The last thing I remember was the fact that they were made to keep the saline going because I've refused to eat or drink. I can't and they don't understand what I'm going through. They never will. The only ones that can know, are the ones that helped me tonight and the ones that got hurt by him as well. They are the only ones who truely know what kind of a messed up creep that I've had to deal with for so long.
Why did it take this long for me to finally ask for help? To call for someone to come to my aid?
The night shift is vacant of noise outside of this room, and of nurses. From what I heard, Gala is in the next room to me and if that's so, why haven't I been in there to check on her? Why am I still laying here listening to Jeran's rythmic breathing beside me? Go check on her. You have to apologize. You won't feel better until you do. It is all on you that she almost died tonight. It's on your shoulders that Matthew was hurt as well. Everyone made sacrifices for you... set things right. I was almost killed as well... if it wasn't for Tyren. Thank God for him.
I draw my legs over the side of the bed, and pull the gown over to sheild my naked back. My hand goes straight for my neck, pain so evident when I swallow though. So, I try to clear my throat yet that only irritates the feeling even more. I grimace heavily, dropping my head a little and the pain is there even more making me straighten up my head.
I sigh.
I let the tears begin to well up into my eyes and for a moment, I just let the tears roll down my cheeks. They crash on my gown, soaking it through to my leg. I have no one to impress. I can't find any other way to express my own fear right now. No one is here to witness my mental breakdown. No one can hear me cry or sniffle because my nose wants to run all of a sudden. Jeran is asleep, so I have no worries.
I am alone.
I extend my legs slowly, letting my toes touch the ground first and the socks that cover my feet keep me warm. No sudden chills of an icy floor will bother me tonight. I push off the bed and stand with pain and weakness. The bruise keeps me from straightening up my back to fast. It pulls so harshly with each movement from when I was thrown into the table. When Gala set off a death match with my bully. When she challenged the devil to a race to hell. Because of what I've kept secret, she lost. Her tiny body couldn't handle what he put her through.
I step lightly across the room. My feet moving with such precision, heel to toe. When I reach the door to the hallway, I hesitate and rest my forehead against the wood. The salty drops still fall, and with a gentle movement against my lower lids, I pull my chin up and leave my room.
A few voices grace my ear from the nurse's station, but no one dares to enter the hallway, so I make my way to her room just down one room from mine. I let myself in. What little light from the hallway there is, floods the room in here and I can see the monitor that has been hooked up to this brave little girl. This little girl that practically saved my life only to have her's almost ended. Does she know how horrible I feel? Has she even woken up since this whole thing started and she's been in this bed.
How is her stomach? The cut.... with the blade Jins had.
Please wake up Gala.
I close the door just slightly, leaving the little light to aid my vision. I cross the distance with a few uneasy steps and dread when I see her closed eyes and I feel nothing but dread.
"Gala...?" My whispered voice calls outward to her. Nothing happens though. She don't stir. She don't move. NOt even her breaths change. She's truely asleep or is she worse? "I'm sorry Gala. I didn't mean for this to happen. I... should have warned you more. I should have protected you. You're my best friend. You protected me from him. I'm nothing..."
I confess everything I've been hoarding. I stand beside her bed for one moment before I sit on the empty spot beside her. My hands drop into my lap. My feet dangle above the ground. I stare off into the nothingness of the black floor and I just go silent listening to the gentle breaths that tell me that even through this harrowing ordeal, she is still alive thanks to Max.
Will this feeling ever go away?
I sit up quickly, and bring my head to rest in my hands. I bite hard on my lower lip. A deep breath fills my lungs and with a slow breath out, it doesn't seem to aid me in my need to get rid of this skin crawling feeling. I start to fumble around with the Iv tubing on my arm, clicking the mechanism on the plastic before I unscrew the cap, seperating me from the machine. The tiny, blue lit up numbers and things blink a symbol telling me that the bag is empty. However, the nurse has yet to check on me at all in the last little while. The last thing I remember was the fact that they were made to keep the saline going because I've refused to eat or drink. I can't and they don't understand what I'm going through. They never will. The only ones that can know, are the ones that helped me tonight and the ones that got hurt by him as well. They are the only ones who truely know what kind of a messed up creep that I've had to deal with for so long.
Why did it take this long for me to finally ask for help? To call for someone to come to my aid?
The night shift is vacant of noise outside of this room, and of nurses. From what I heard, Gala is in the next room to me and if that's so, why haven't I been in there to check on her? Why am I still laying here listening to Jeran's rythmic breathing beside me? Go check on her. You have to apologize. You won't feel better until you do. It is all on you that she almost died tonight. It's on your shoulders that Matthew was hurt as well. Everyone made sacrifices for you... set things right. I was almost killed as well... if it wasn't for Tyren. Thank God for him.
I draw my legs over the side of the bed, and pull the gown over to sheild my naked back. My hand goes straight for my neck, pain so evident when I swallow though. So, I try to clear my throat yet that only irritates the feeling even more. I grimace heavily, dropping my head a little and the pain is there even more making me straighten up my head.
I sigh.
I let the tears begin to well up into my eyes and for a moment, I just let the tears roll down my cheeks. They crash on my gown, soaking it through to my leg. I have no one to impress. I can't find any other way to express my own fear right now. No one is here to witness my mental breakdown. No one can hear me cry or sniffle because my nose wants to run all of a sudden. Jeran is asleep, so I have no worries.
I am alone.
I extend my legs slowly, letting my toes touch the ground first and the socks that cover my feet keep me warm. No sudden chills of an icy floor will bother me tonight. I push off the bed and stand with pain and weakness. The bruise keeps me from straightening up my back to fast. It pulls so harshly with each movement from when I was thrown into the table. When Gala set off a death match with my bully. When she challenged the devil to a race to hell. Because of what I've kept secret, she lost. Her tiny body couldn't handle what he put her through.
I step lightly across the room. My feet moving with such precision, heel to toe. When I reach the door to the hallway, I hesitate and rest my forehead against the wood. The salty drops still fall, and with a gentle movement against my lower lids, I pull my chin up and leave my room.
A few voices grace my ear from the nurse's station, but no one dares to enter the hallway, so I make my way to her room just down one room from mine. I let myself in. What little light from the hallway there is, floods the room in here and I can see the monitor that has been hooked up to this brave little girl. This little girl that practically saved my life only to have her's almost ended. Does she know how horrible I feel? Has she even woken up since this whole thing started and she's been in this bed.
How is her stomach? The cut.... with the blade Jins had.
Please wake up Gala.
I close the door just slightly, leaving the little light to aid my vision. I cross the distance with a few uneasy steps and dread when I see her closed eyes and I feel nothing but dread.
"Gala...?" My whispered voice calls outward to her. Nothing happens though. She don't stir. She don't move. NOt even her breaths change. She's truely asleep or is she worse? "I'm sorry Gala. I didn't mean for this to happen. I... should have warned you more. I should have protected you. You're my best friend. You protected me from him. I'm nothing..."
I confess everything I've been hoarding. I stand beside her bed for one moment before I sit on the empty spot beside her. My hands drop into my lap. My feet dangle above the ground. I stare off into the nothingness of the black floor and I just go silent listening to the gentle breaths that tell me that even through this harrowing ordeal, she is still alive thanks to Max.