the aftermath // mylee, train blitz
Jun 7, 2014 22:34:42 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Jun 7, 2014 22:34:42 GMT -5
|| JACINDA ZEMBORI || DISTRICT EIGHT ||
♚
i'm a ghost of a girl that i want to be most ,
i'm a ghost of a girl that i want to be most ,
Momma didn't come to say goodbye. Maybe because she knows that I'm a lost cause, or maybe she couldn't hold herself together well enough to say goodbye. The reason why she didn't say goodbye to me doesn't matter. The bottom line is she didn't come to see me one last time. A million apologies from her would not heal the wound she has created in my heart.
I feel abandoned, empty, and alone, although I am in the company of my district partner, Owen Bowers-Fox. He is a stranger to me, but I can't help but feel comforted that we have one thing in common: we are sacrifices. We are going to the Capitol for the Capitolites' entertainment. We'll let them dress us up like dolls, cheer for us, control us, and then mourn for five minutes over our brutal deaths. I have that in common with all of the tributes, all but one: the Victor, the lucky one that gets to live.
My dark thoughts summon tears to my eyes, but I refuse to let them fall. I won't let myself look even weaker than I already do, especially not in front of a fellow tribute. I look like I'm a younger child than I am, about fourteen or fifteen, with my ridiculously short stature and noodle-like limbs. It wouldn't be very difficult to divide me into two with a weapon.
I fight back the tears with all of my might, but despite my efforts, a fat tear streaks down my cheek, but I wipe it away, hopefully before Owen saw. My legs are trembling like crumbly pillars during an earthquake, and my heart is pounding in my chest like a bird desperately trying to escape from a cage. I'm on the train to the slaughterhouse, and there's no going back. I'm trapped like an animal in this metal, snake-like form of transportation.
When the train begins to move, the urge to cry is greater than ever. My heart has been violently wrenched out of my chest by the absence of Momma, and taking a final glance at the gray, polluted District Eight only reminds me of my abandonment. I want to curl up on the strange, expensive furniture in the train and bawl my eyes out, but I can't, not here, not now.
I try to distract myself by talking. "That was brave," I blurt, glancing at Owen. My words come out quieter and more high-pitched than I intended them to. "What you did . . . volunteering for Duncan. Is he your brother?"
All I can think is, I wish I could be that brave.
I feel abandoned, empty, and alone, although I am in the company of my district partner, Owen Bowers-Fox. He is a stranger to me, but I can't help but feel comforted that we have one thing in common: we are sacrifices. We are going to the Capitol for the Capitolites' entertainment. We'll let them dress us up like dolls, cheer for us, control us, and then mourn for five minutes over our brutal deaths. I have that in common with all of the tributes, all but one: the Victor, the lucky one that gets to live.
My dark thoughts summon tears to my eyes, but I refuse to let them fall. I won't let myself look even weaker than I already do, especially not in front of a fellow tribute. I look like I'm a younger child than I am, about fourteen or fifteen, with my ridiculously short stature and noodle-like limbs. It wouldn't be very difficult to divide me into two with a weapon.
I fight back the tears with all of my might, but despite my efforts, a fat tear streaks down my cheek, but I wipe it away, hopefully before Owen saw. My legs are trembling like crumbly pillars during an earthquake, and my heart is pounding in my chest like a bird desperately trying to escape from a cage. I'm on the train to the slaughterhouse, and there's no going back. I'm trapped like an animal in this metal, snake-like form of transportation.
When the train begins to move, the urge to cry is greater than ever. My heart has been violently wrenched out of my chest by the absence of Momma, and taking a final glance at the gray, polluted District Eight only reminds me of my abandonment. I want to curl up on the strange, expensive furniture in the train and bawl my eyes out, but I can't, not here, not now.
I try to distract myself by talking. "That was brave," I blurt, glancing at Owen. My words come out quieter and more high-pitched than I intended them to. "What you did . . . volunteering for Duncan. Is he your brother?"
All I can think is, I wish I could be that brave.
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