Which Way Is Up {April+June Rhodes}

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J U N E R H O D E S
"M Y I N N O C E N C E H A S B E E N K I L L E D"

I stand with my face contorted and my cheeks freshly moistened by my salty tears. I watched as my sister May who I just got back get ripped away from me again. It's like a relapse that someone insane gets while locked in an asylum. Or its either one extreme and inhumane case of the repeats. My body feels weak and my legs feels as though they could snap like twigs beneath me. All I yearn to do is be able to pinch myself and awaken in my bed from another nightmare. Yet I know there will be no waking up from this, this is all real life and I'm not ready for it. In fact, I'm so scarred I want to turn tail and cry back to my mommy.

My head is spinning with a million thoughts and it feels as though my heart as been shot with a million arrows. I stumble back and knock into a girl I try to mutter out an apology but I have no words except an exotic guttural sound. However, it appears she doesn't care she just apologizes to me for May and then leaves. My hands tighten into fists at the whole thought of people apologizing about May as if she is already dead. She can't be dead I won't let her die, I won't lose her a second time. Then finally through the sea of leaving girls my blue sweet eyes find April and tears yet again spring forth from them.

I race forward shoving girls as I go and not stopping to apologize. Part of me is seizing up for a panic attack from all the people but my mind fights it off this time. I can't afford to have an attack here not now. I only stop sprinting after I have barreled into April's arms still sobbing like an infant child. Truthfully that's how I feel. I feel as though the Capitol has just spanked me and now I am blubbering in the corner. I dig my head into April's shoulder then through the sobs I whisper, "What... wh.. what.. are we gonna do?" I know April will know what to do she has to, I mean she is the oldest of us and she brought us back together. Now yet again I find myself relying on her for her strength to get me back up onto my feet.

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I stand with my face contorted and my cheeks freshly moistened by my salty tears. I watched as my sister May who I just got back get ripped away from me again. It's like a relapse that someone insane gets while locked in an asylum. Or its either one extreme and inhumane case of the repeats. My body feels weak and my legs feels as though they could snap like twigs beneath me. All I yearn to do is be able to pinch myself and awaken in my bed from another nightmare. Yet I know there will be no waking up from this, this is all real life and I'm not ready for it. In fact, I'm so scarred I want to turn tail and cry back to my mommy.

My head is spinning with a million thoughts and it feels as though my heart as been shot with a million arrows. I stumble back and knock into a girl I try to mutter out an apology but I have no words except an exotic guttural sound. However, it appears she doesn't care she just apologizes to me for May and then leaves. My hands tighten into fists at the whole thought of people apologizing about May as if she is already dead. She can't be dead I won't let her die, I won't lose her a second time. Then finally through the sea of leaving girls my blue sweet eyes find April and tears yet again spring forth from them.

I race forward shoving girls as I go and not stopping to apologize. Part of me is seizing up for a panic attack from all the people but my mind fights it off this time. I can't afford to have an attack here not now. I only stop sprinting after I have barreled into April's arms still sobbing like an infant child. Truthfully that's how I feel. I feel as though the Capitol has just spanked me and now I am blubbering in the corner. I dig my head into April's shoulder then through the sobs I whisper, "What... wh.. what.. are we gonna do?" I know April will know what to do she has to, I mean she is the oldest of us and she brought us back together. Now yet again I find myself relying on her for her strength to get me back up onto my feet.

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[arya]

APRIL RHODES EIGHTEEN - DISTRICT 9 I knew June would look for me for advice, for help to handle this when she suddenly came running. I just collected her in my arms and held her there. I didn't know what to say, because there were no words. I could have saved her. I knew that. I could have saved her but I just didn't. I just didn't think of it until it was to late. Tears was flushing down my face all the sudden, I hadn't cried in years but this was a good occasion to start. I never felt that ashamed of myself, not in my entire life. Why didn't I save her? I needed to stay strong now, stay strong for June. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't volonteer. I don't know why I didn't." The hickups didn't stop. I had to gather myself. I had to stay guarded for her. As I held my little sister in my arms I realized the missfortune that seemed to be following us Rhodes sisters around. It was like we were cursed. The pain and misery just kept coming. When I finally thought I was happy, it appeared that the gods were just giving my some happiness to steal it away. "Okey honey, I don't know because there is nothing we can do. We can't sponsor her, thats just for the capitolists. I don't know but we have to do something" I took her hands in mine, kissed her on the fore head. "I'm sorry I didn't save her June. I don't now why I didn't. IT just didn't happen somehow." I held her body close to mine, I feel her body heath warming me up template by chelsey

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JUNE RHODES

The world is cruel and abusive, no the Capitol is real cruel ones. I have means to believe they purposely did this to us since they never really did want us together. My body shakes violently as I continue to sob into April's shoulder. She was already ready for me before I even ran her way. She knew she had to support me again, save me from the darkness of the world. Rose always told me how bad things are in the world but I never thought so I lived in a bubble of light and safety. Yet now as I am here in the district square at my weakest I realize just how bad the world really is. Something inside me twists as my grip tenses on April, the innocent little girl inside of me is sick, no she is dead. Now filling her once empty space is something I have never known, hate and rage. I am terrified as its power fills my body threatening to engulf me in seconds. Yet it never does instead I grow stronger from it.

My face hardens as my tears dry and I pull myself off of April. She begins to apologize for not saving May and being weak and I do something I have never done before, I snap at her. "Knock it off April! I didn't want you to save her! I didn't want you to have to save anyone! I didn't want any of this to happen but look what they did! The Capitol obviously did this as punishment for finding each other again!" My rage is begin to explode as my voice rises louder and louder until I am screaming. "How would they like it if we destroyed their families!" I see a nearby peace keeper then storm up to him and kick him hard in the back screaming still. "Ya you ass hole! Who do you think you are to kill my sister!" I then punch him hard in the helmet which sends him slightly backwards and a pain in my fist.

Instantly after the punch he draws out his abusive stick which only infuriates me more. "Oh you are going to abuse me even more! Well bring it on you don't deserve the power you have you deserve the death you sent my sister off to!" Finally the peace keeper's fed up with me and swings his stick. I duck the first time but when he brings it back around it slams into my head and I fall to the ground. My head is screaming and bleeding as well but I won't let this murderer Capitol scum beat me so I get back up then with all my weight I tackle him. I get a few more punches on him before he throws me off and hits me with the stick in my stomach.

When I finally return to my feat standing still burning with fury four other peace keepers have surrounded me. "Citizen stop fighting now or we will use more force." One states but I just spit at him the second he says it then I punch another. They instantly swarm me and in a matter of seconds have me restrained. I scream as I struggle against them all, "Look they are oppressing us again! April help me you know they all deserve to pay for what they did!" I can barely see her through the white but I make sure to give her the longest stare I have ever given.

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[arya]

APRIL RHODES EIGHTEEN - DISTRICT 9 "HEY HEY" I stepped infront of June, and hardly pushed the peacekeeper away. He grabbed tried the shove me away, but I held my ground refusing to move. "You stay the fuck away from her, do you hear me? If you lay a finger on my sister again, I will destroy every piece of you" My voice was cocky, I refused moving a single centimeter. As he hit me with his baton, right in the arm I refused to cry out. I just nodded in disappointed. "Wow. I'm so impressed. Go home to you to District 2 you traitor" I told him, before he could hit me again, I grabbed June and disappeared into the crowds.  "What the fuck was that?" I grabbed her wrist and gave stared angry into her eyes. What a stupid little kid. "You are such a stupid little child." I signed loudly. I usually never treated her as she was younger than me, but if she behaved like a child she would be treated like one. "Do you really think rage will settle anything? I get that you're mad. That was just stupid. I've been angry too, okay I know what it's like. I've been living this hell a lot longer than you have. Do you think that little outburst you had there would make Mays chances any better? If they found out her sister was messing with a peacekeeper, they would probably do everything in their power to do everything they can to kill her off as fast as they can the second she steps into that arena. Is that what you want? I didn't think so. Behave for godsake. You can't be a child any longer June. I'm sorry you should be able to be, but this world doesn't allow it. Its time for you to grow the fuck up and take some responsibility for your actions" I gave her a hard look. I barely ever been mad at her before, but at the moment I felt as if there weren't words to express my rage. Maybe I took out my anger on the capitol a bit on here, but since our mother wasn't here to teach her about the upsetting, yet true injustices of the world I had to do it for her. I pulled her into my arms, even if she would hate me for it. A few times, like when she broke my favourite doll. She was just two years of age, but I cried for hours. My tune got a bit softer, and I kissed her on the forehead. "Okay honey we have to do this the right way" I let my hand slide through her hair, gentle holding her head next to my body. "June, I hate the capitol and their fucking crap too. I'm not saying that you should take their bullshit, but if you're going to e a rebell be smart about it. You can't let your emotions get the best of you. Thats how you die in this world. They hold all of their power, if he would have decided to blow your pretty little face of he would have, and you wouldn't have anything to say about it. Nobody would even raise an eyebrow, just like nobody cared when our mother died or when May got reaped. Every single soul here is powerless. But together we are strong, and thats where the little capitols theories bursts. We have to stay together and we have to stay strong. We have to help May, and being killed is not the way. I have no idea how, but I certainly now that, that is not the way" I couldn't believe how hard I was being towards her, but it was for her own best. She could hate me if she'd like, as long as she listen. When it came to her, I didn't care about the way she felt about me nearly as much as I cared about her safety.  template by chelsey

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J U N E R H O D E S
"I A M U N S T A B L E"

My mind and body go numb as April pulls me quickly away from the peace keepers. The hole in my body is no longer filled with rage, in fact it lies completely empty. I almost feel sick since it is as if I don't have anything left inside me, not even my soul. All my life I have been a passive innocent but now look at me, I am a girl lost in the smog of the world. I never knew anyone could feel as helpless and as cold as I do right in this moment. Then guilt twists in my stomach as somewhere through her scolds I hear April say I'm not helping May's chances. I then come to the realization that other families have had to deal with their siblings be reaped and they don't go crazy over it. Yes they hurt but they control their anger unlike me apparently.

Part of me wishes to be mad at April for being angry for acting out towards the peace keepers but I know I have no right to be. Everything she says is logical and makes perfect sense. Yet what she says last throws an unexpected curve ball leaving me without a response for a moment. She said if I want to be a rebel I have to play it smart not dumb enough to get myself killed. The word rebel resonates through my skull and I think of the rebellion that got us here in the first place. My mind throws itself back and forth about if I really do want to be a rebel or not. I run my fingers through my hear as sweat begins to form on my forehead. I even find myself biting my lip to the point it starts bleeding from just trying to figure out my answer to what she said.

I slowly turn my back to April as my mind continues to race as fast as the blood oozes from the new cut in my lip. My eyes trail down to my hands where I look at the peace keepers' blood plastered across my knuckles. My stomach twists and I gulp at the thought of hurting someone like this. My mind then ventures of to May who will have to go into the arena and do things worse than just punching them to win. Suddenly a shiver dives down my spine as I think of what could become of May while in that arena. I shake my head vigorously trying to expel all these overwhelming and startling thoughts that are clashing frequently inside my mind.

Finally with a sigh I speak in a hushed voice to April still not daring to turn and face her. "I.. I don't know...I really don't know April. Part of me wants to be a rebel, yet the only way that could happen is if I didn't have to hurt someone face to face. After today and my fight with those peace keepers I don't want to hurt people again. Don't get me wrong I want to fight back but maybe behind the line where I can just do strategies. Ugh I don't know I have never thought about this April!" With an exasperated sigh I fall against a nearby building wall and slide down into a sitting position with my face buried away in my knees.

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APRIL RHODES EIGHTEEN - DISTRICT 9 "Honey don't" I grabbed her hand softly and sat down next to her, leaning towards the wall. I didn't know what to say to make it feel better, but I had to say something. She couldn't be a rebel, she was to little, to vunerable. Doing anything rebellious at all would, either of us would not only put us in a awkward situation with our adoptive parents but also destroy Mays chances. "Honey no, not right now. Not while they got May" I petted her pretty blonde hair carefully. It was about the same length as mine, but lighter. I got up on my legs and reached my hand towards her. "Lets go home little sis'" We didn't have a home, at least not a common one for both of us. I had to get us a home, a little cabin where we could live. I could be her legal guardian, and Mays as well when she came home. If she came home. I didn't even want to think about it. "Would you mind me applying for your guardianship? I'll get a job, a little cabin for us. May would like to come home to that don't you think? I'll apply for her too". It sounded naive, but I wanted her to be naive. I wanted her to be happy and not think of the horrors waiting for May. I'll make sure of that. "We'll get May sponsors. I'll apply for your guardianship but wait to by a house so I can spend all of the money on her sponsors. I think our parents may have some money waiting for us. We'll talk to every rich bastard in the entire district. I promise you, we'll get her home" template by chelsey

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~JUNE RHODES~

    I listen to April as she explains her plans for the future and how life will be okay and May will come home. I envy her confidence and her strength, she could survive anything unlike me. I am her complete opposite, I am a weak and pathetic little girl who wants life to be perfect. My hands run through my hair as I fight back the tears threatening to break over my eyelids. Yet I won't allow them not this time, it is time I become strong like April so if anything ever happens I can survive for her. My mind trails off to May though, I begin to wonder what kind of girl she is, strong or weak? From what I knew about her I would believe a strong woman but I just don't know. In all honesty it feels as if I know hardly anything is this Capitol ruled world. I lean my head against the wall behind me as I turn my eyes finally back at April, "I know May will come home too April, but I just pray to Ripred it isn't in a coffin. I just don't know how I would carry on after that. If May..." my voice trails off into the darkness of silence.

    I shake my head vigoriously and decide to turn my attention towards the other things April was talking about. Like her applying for guardianship over me and having me live with her. My heart swells with excitement at the thought of finally being back with my real family with April always there for me. Suddenly ideas begin sweltering to my mind about how I could help with our new living spaces for May if she came home. "You know I don't need school that much I know a lot already since I was home schooled so I could get a job too. Oh and my answer if yes of course I would love for us to live together as a family again."

OOC-Sorry its short I am just trying to play catch up on all my threads now that school is finally done.

[arya]

APRIL RHODES EIGHTEEN - DISTRICT 9 "I know May will come home too April, but I just pray to Ripred it isn't in a coffin. I just don't know how I would carry on after that. If May..." Her words cut like a knife through my heart. My little sisters words. I knew she was right, but I didn't want her to think that way. I just wanted her to laugh and be happy and have a boyfriend and gossip with her girlfrieds, I just wanted her to be a 14 yearold. Was that to much to ask for? Her words were too pure, too honest. The worst thing was that I couldn't lie to her, I couldn't promise her anything. I was as clueless and lost as she were. "I know my dear. It hurts so bad.. But whatever happens.. We'll have to figure it out." Was that really the best I could do? I had always had a strange talent in comforting people, but that didn't seem to come to use at the moment. "I don't know what to say.. You're right. And it's terrible, it's just mad. I keep thinking of ways to save her, to help her but there aren't any. Honestly, even if we tried to send her every penny of both our salaries, she wouldn't even get a pen for that." Sponsorship was expensive, and I'm not even sure if us districts people could send them. "At least she survived the bloodbath. She has a great chance now, with some allies and stuff too. Not all families can celebrate that" I grabbed her head and pulled it too my chest, carefully kissed her forehead. "I don't want you to worry about that. I make a enough to house and feed us both. I just need you to finish school properly, I don't want the peacekeepers up my butt when I finally get your guardiance. I think it will be rather easy though, because  we were meant to be picked up by a close realitve, problem was no one ever came. We were placed in hostfamilies, just until they came along. They never did though, but since I am 18 now, I am an adult and a close family member, which means they cannot deny me your guardianship" I had done some reseach down at the orphanage. They had hated me for it, because they already knew what I was searching for. Still, they couldn't change it. "You know if May comes home a victor" If, if if. How could I even say that? I didn't want to create an illusion of something that wasn't sure. It wasn't even in the odds. I had denied it, even to myself but the odds weren't in Mays favour. Most likely, she would come home in that coffin June mentioned. I pushed that thought away, because I couldn't even handle it myself. How was I supposed to support June through this, if I couldn't even handle it myself? "We'll get an house in the victors village, so then we won't have to worry about paying the rent. But until then, I'll get a job. I already got some offers actually" I didn't want to tell her, but they all came up to me after Mays reaping. Petted me on the back and offered me a job. We all knew how badly it hurt loosing a family memeber, all thanks to the capitol. They were just trying to be nice, yet I found myself just mad at the sympathic strangers.  template by chelsey

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*June Rhodes*

    I listen patiently as I listen to April talk about how I have to not worry about quitting school and my stomach twists. My heart twists at the reality that she doesn't even know how much I hate school. She doesn't know that I am teased and picked on and that I am an odd one according to the others. I have only just found Sammy, oh Sammy, he is my safety he is my light at the end of the tunnel. He is an odd one out too but now we can be out together, on the brink of weirdom. He was making these days without may so much more bearable, he has been almost as big as a support as April has been towards me. My head just spins as I think of all the things that have occurred and then my stomach joins in with the spinning. Most people would break if all the things that have happened to them happened to me, but not me and only now do I truly now why that is. It's because I have people beside me, helping me, keeping me alive. Without them I would be a pile of rubble alone drifting in my own consciousness waiting until I finally die. Yet I am not that person instead I am alive and I am growing stronger as these few supports are joining together to help me. I now know that I will never be able to truly thank April and Sammy, and May.

    As I look at April all I see is such a strong and determined woman, a woman I want to become. All my life I have never had a role model but now sitting here against this wall today that has changed. I haven't seen her shed a single tear and that isn't a bad thing in fact it's a good thing. It shows that she has faith that May will come back home to us while I have been bawling like she is already buried. Her eyes show an array of lights all connected to her dreams of getting us a home and possibly one in the Victor's Village if May did come home. I imagine it a life as Colgate's neighbor, a life of unbelievable luxury I have never known. Yet I also think about what will it be worth? Will May ever be the same once she comes back from that arena. I mean I have heard stories of victors losing their old selves after returning home and I don't want to lose the May I know. Simply for the selfish reason that I love the May I have come to known before she was swept away.

    My mind drifts off to May out in that desert battling those brutal mutations that the Capitol sent after all the tributes. Luckily May and her allies were well coordinated and fought off the beasts and that gives me hope. All her allies seem like good people like her and strong too. So maybe she does have a chance at coming home after all. The only big threat to her life I can think of is that frightening boy from District 1 who already have killed two tributes. Well no just him that other brute from District 2 is quite scary as well especially when he hacked that one snake mutt to pieces. I give myself a quick shake to clear my head of these thoughts, I want to be like April so I have to believe with all my heart that May will be back home with us soon.

    I let my hand glide over to one of Aprils and I grasp it softly as I ask softly, "April what if they take you away too one day?" I couldn't resist asking since the intention was pure. I couldn't bare to imagine a life in which April isn't there to protect me and help keep me afloat. As I run my heads softly through my hair I continue to speak ever so softly to April, "And I will finish school like you want but I want you to know I hate it there and everyone hates me. Everyone but Sammy, and if you are going to be my guardian you sure as hell better let us hang out. We won't do anything to stupid." I laugh lightly which is something I haven't done in a while and I elbow her jokingly. I can just tell no matter what happens in the games that life is going to start looking up again and I am ready to finally see the sun again.

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APRIL RHODES District 9 - Eighteen I couldn't allow myself to tell my sister that I had been more useless than ever since May had left for the games. I had tried getting a job for weeks, but the unemployment was high for the time being and I had struggled to even find places where they didn't send me out the door right away. Still, each and every day I had been walking the streets of district nine, stopping by every store and every factory I could find. The day of May's reaping, and the days to come the offers had been rolling in. Bakerys aswell as factories and the shops who sell clothes, I could pick and choose as I liked. With my stomach filled with guilt, the last few drops of energy I could manage scraping together was simply used for mourning or trying to stay strong for June. She had survived until this point, and that was the one and only thing that kept me going. Every single death in the games of this year had sent a cold shiver through my nerves. My compassion to the tributes families had been stronger than the years before, simply because I knew how it felt. Even if I somehow suffered with the families who had lost their dearly beloveed ones, I couldn't help it to feel relieved that it wasn't my loved one. She was still alive, my sister. 7 dead meant her chances were better. 17 tributes left, only one could survive. This year, it had to be her. Junes words were soft spoken,, yet they cut like razorblades. Her thoughts seemed to have that effect on me. She was sharp, smart, very mature for such a young age. I hated just how mature she had been forced to become. It bothered me that she wasn't as young as she should be. "Oh honey, don't think like that. I will never leave you. I'll make sure of it" I grabbed her hand as it touch mine and started massaging her palm with my thumb. "Everyone hates school. That's like, the point of school or something. You'll have to suffer through it. Or I'll ground you" I messed up her hand with my fingers and smiled towards her. One of the first times in a while. "I hated school to. And school hated me aswell. I barely had any friends at all." I admitted "I've met Sammy. He' seems very nice" I nodded approving with a playfull smile.  I had met the red haired boy in the square on day, he told me he had to speak to me concerning May, but that he was a friend of Junes. "Is he your boyfriend?" Teasingly, I nudged her with my elbow on her knee. Did my little sister seriously get a boyfriend before me? I was happy for her,, that wasn't the issue. It wasn't that I was jealous or being overprotective. It just felt ironic, pathetic somehow. "Don't worry you can bring Sammy whenever you'd like" template by chelsey

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*June Rhodes*

    It was another typical school day as I sat in the back corner of the class room staring at the clock in hopes that it might make the bell ring sooner. Yet today it just simply moved slower than usual especially when my teacher announced it was time. A girl a few rows over asked time for what, the same question I was wondering and what my teacher said froze my heart. "To watch the Hunger Games as required by the Capitol of course." Instantly murmurs erupted from the class about certain tributes and certain deaths. My favorite is Leon, did you see that mutt kill the girl from three? Oh that girl from district two sure is hot. Through all the ridiculous and heinous words not one was said about May except for the small almost inaudible whisper, "You know the sister of May is in our class?" At that moment I felt twenty pairs of eyes sear into my flesh and my instinct was to turn my head away but instead I kept looking forward. No matter what anyone said or did I promised myself I would be strong like April until the end of this games or until May... well you know perishes.

    As soon as the holographic tv flickered on I wanted to look away but I couldn't instead my eyes locked onto the games. All I could do was gasp as I saw alliance after alliance begin to face off against one another, including May's. My heart was hammering in my chest knowing that any moment May could lie dead on the sand. Yet that isn't even close to what happened, but instead the opposite. Instead of targeting May the other alliance went for the girl from district four first and May began ruthlessly attacking the boy from ten. In a way I was happy she was attacking him due to the fact he had killed the girl from his own district in the bloodbath. I then gasped and nearly leaped out of my seat as I saw May's knife bury itself with the boy from ten's eye. I watched in shock as his body fell to the ground and May continue to fearlessly attack with her allies. And it seemed that except for the girl from four that her allies were winning the fight!

    My head was now spinning with uncontrollable mixed emotions of happiness and fright. On one hand, I was over joyed that May had proven she can kill and that she is a contender to win these games. Yet on the other hand, I was terrified of how it almost seemed to easy for May to kill that boy then to keep on fighting. But who the hell am I to judge her? I mean if I was in her situation wouldn't I do the exact same thing? I am almost sure I would because if she didn't she could be killed herself and I don't think she wants that to happen. As I continue to watch the bloody battle unfold I see May open up an escape route for the girl from four who flees instantly since she knows she is flirting with death. I then see the boy from four follow his company after embracing one of their enemies and apologizing to them. What the hell was wrong with him why did he care about them so much? And why did they all seem to know each other? Ever since the beginning of these games he has been with the card sharps. Yet I suppose he might have been planing to ally with those other tributes first but got separated. However, I still don't like the way he seems to contain so many ties to other tributes.

    Finally I feel as though I am going to throw up so I stand up and make my way for the door. My teacher turns to stop me but once she sees it is me she lets me leave without a word. As I walk out of the school grounds I know where I need to go, and that would be the district square. For some reason I just know April will be there watching this while at the same time looking for a job. It only takes me several minutes to reach the square and sure enough I see April and run up to her. "April!" I holler as I run up to her side, "May she killed that boy from ten! And she is still fighting she is a murderer! But yet that means she has a better chance at winning right?" I look up to April with my eyes full of confusion about what to think about what is occurring to May this very moment.

[arya]

APRIL RHODES District 9 - Eighteen She's my little sister and she killed him. She killed him. I couldn't even... I just couldn't even imagine. I sat there, with the cold ground against my legs. I had been sitting there for so long, it wouldn't be too surprising if I left an assmark in the concrete when I finally decided to leave. My heart felt empty as she killed him, my heart beated as never before, yet I couldn't find a single thought. It was just empty, as if all sense had left my mind.  She came running, my little sister. Not that sister, the other one. I stared upon her as she came running. It was impossible, even trying to imagine what May is going through, right this second. She's not there, she's not home. Her world is now a game of survival, survival of the fittest. Kill or be killed. That is her reality, and I couldn't do a single thing about it. She had been snatched away, tormented and broken. The girl killing that boy on that TV wasn't my sister, they had destroyed her. My sisters eyes were confused, and so were her words. She didn't know what to make of this, and neither did I. But one of her words caugt my attention. Murderer. She is a murderer. I didn't want to see her that way. Our father was a murderer, not her, not May. Oh how did this happen? I forced Junes body close to mine and wrapped my arms around her. I could feel the warmth of her body. "No, my sweetest. She's not a murderer. Our father was a murderer. May is a puppet. She's a capitol puppet" I told her, while kissing her gently on the forehead. "I wish that was the worst of news, but it couldn't get much better. That's what they want from her, and if she gives them that, she'll survive" I explained, with a creaking voice filled with the fear I had hoped to god I would never feel template by chelsey