Revealing a Revelation
Jun 24, 2014 17:23:12 GMT -5
Post by Anatra on Jun 24, 2014 17:23:12 GMT -5
Revealing a Revelation Tyren Orca - District Two - Eighteen What is wrong with me today? I can't help but slip back into my covers and wrap them tightly around my body. The warmth is uncomfortable but it helps me slide into that unconscious state that is halfway between sleep and whatever else. A moment later, or what feels like it, I roll over slightly. I'm wide awake and I look over at Alex in the opposite bed. He's snoring like a bear in his own cave with an arm hanging out of his bed. I blink twice, but suddenly I'm doing it all again; rolling out of my bed. This time I'm met with nothing but my cluttered desk, pens and scrap paper laying around like comfortable dust. I'm back in my real room, my real life. I miss it, what I used to be. I missed waking up to my brother's sleeping when we shared a room. Things have got too easy here in this house. Too convenient. They make me question whether I appreciate the difficulties of what happens elsewhere. I just want to stay in this house forever, but I know that forever ends soon. I'm eighteen, I can't be wasting my time being idle, with no idols. I slip on some loose shorts over my underwear and I leave my room intact, not caring for the state of it. The whole room is heated by the rays of sunlight that beam in at this hour - it must be around eleven o'clock in the morning. I just feel down, I'm not sure why. I must have slept rough. I look in the mirror in the bathroom, my hair is a mess. Short hair never looks messy to anybody else except for the person who has it. They know where the little imperfections are. The scruffs that raise up when you've slept. I see it all, but nobody else would. The slight curl in the front, which would be the fringe if I were to grow it - I never would. A small amount of hair litters my chest. Growing up it annoying. I hate it. Today at least. I wish I was just young and naive forever. I wish I had never got stabbed with that stupid spear. The scars riddle me today. They are calling out at me, begging for attention. I've worn them this long without hearing their cries but now they want to tell me how vulnerable I am this morning. I feel it. I must be ill, or something. There's nothing telling about it in my appearance though, nothing at all. I just look like I've woken up. I have. I stretch, brush my teeth slowly to avoid the possibly gum damage that I can get, and I head downstairs. When my hands drum against the warm surface of the kitchen counter for a moment, I try to decide what I am to do. I'm still in the shorts, not even bothering to put a top on. I look down though, and there's blood on the counter. The slightest amount, a drop or two. I look for a good moment or two but suddenly another joins it. This is all too familiar. I don't even need to check, I just roll my eyes and grab some kitchen towel to put to my nose. The door is knocked hard. I go to answer it, holding open the door with a hand, the other placed to my nose with some tissue. There is no cold to hit my bare skin. |