spoliarium | sol + cilla
Jun 28, 2014 8:06:01 GMT -5
Post by gamemaker kelsier on Jun 28, 2014 8:06:01 GMT -5
S O L
He sees her everywhere.
In every step he takes, she is there beside him, trudging along or running along ahead, disappearing inter the ether, blood blooming through the white of her t-shirt, making her sprout rings of bloody death. He doesn't know what to make of this because he's sure she's haunting him when she promised that she wouldn't.
He goes to the training center to make sure he stays fit and able. His mother demands that he become the family sacrifice one day to please the gods and make them wealthy one day. He has no one to spar with because he only ever used to spar with Luna and even if he hadn't killed her the cancer would have killed her by now. So he spars with shadows and ghosts, knifes slicing the invisible flesh of an invisible friend. Always, he always elicits invisible blood, coming fast and blooming, beading along the cut and dripping down the arm.
He goes to the training center in the mornings and works at the morgue in the afternoons, routinely burning bodies and sewing shut the mouths of those that are for burial. The bodies are always cold, always lifeless but he watches them closely to make sure that they don't blink. He doesn't want to burn anyone alive but at the same time if they are pretending at death then maybe it's what they deserve. He lights their bodies aflame before they can make the decision to breath again.
Once, Sol read a story about a girl who was not dead and her parents buried her thinking that she was. They put a bell with a string above the dirt above her coffin and if she was still alive, she could ring it and they would rescue her. The day after she was buried, they fund that the bell had toppled over and the string dragged down into the earth. When they dug her up and lifted the casket's lid, they found her lifeless, the inside of the lid gouged and bloody, and all of her nails torn off.
He is unafraid of being buried alive. It could be peaceful.
His mother flutters around him these days, sensing the deep pain that he is in over the sudden loss of his girlfriend and unable to do anything. She changes his hair colour and style once a week at least, sitting him down and snipping away until she has a style that she favours. He sits obediently, silent to all of her questions. Sensing her son's sadness, she dies his hair the darkest black she can find, leaving his hair unruly and a mess on the top of his head.
It suits him that way but he doesn't care to pay attention, he likes to sit in his room and take the long braid of hair out of his t-shirt drawer and lay it on the bed beside him. He likes to stick it out from under the covers and pretend that she is only playing around, only hiding. The bed is too flat, the covers do not move with her breathing. She is not there.
Her ashes are in a medium sized velvet bag and it is in the bag of his closet. The bag is heavier than expected. A human body weighs a lot in ashes. He knows that he should spread them somewhere but he cannot bring himself to it. When he enters his room nowadays it feels like walking into her arms because she is present, buried there, in the back of his closet. The velvet bag is a heavy maroon colour with silver trim, the drawstrings heavily braided silver cord. It's pretty, like her.
He put his sword through her heart.
He trains with a wooden staff, hitting the dummy in front of him with expert precision, expressionless, uncaring. He pretends that the dummy is a body and that he can hear it's cries of pain but he ignores them, enjoying the growing blisters on his hands, whacking at the dummy for hours and hours until everyone else is gone and his hands are bloody.
He should stop, but he continues hitting the dummy, smacking it into pieces through sheer force, moving onto another one when his target breaks down in front of him.