Too late to make amends [Mason and Ally JB blitz]

[Sage]

I don't know what exactly I'm thinking when my feet carry me towards the Justice building. Perhaps it is the desire to make amends with my past and to repent for my sins but I highly doubt Mason will forgive me. I'm not worth forgiving, I hurt him too badly to deserve his forgiveness. Why, then, am I standing on the other side of the door, my fingers clenching the door handle as I try to pull myself together enough to face him.

Finally, ten minutes later, I work up the nerve to turn the handle and open the door, my baby blue eyes taking in his face. I don't think I can do this, I don't know why I'm so afraid of him now, maybe it's because the way we ended our relationship wasn't exactly the best but I cast my eyes downwards. "I'm probably the last person you want to see so I'll make this quick. Don't fight to come home for me, fight to come home for district two." I say, taking Caido from its sheath. "I don't expect you to forgive me but I want to tell you that I'm sorry for royally fucking up. I'm a monster and you have every right to hate me. When you come home, I'll be gone and you will never have to see me again. I know you can't bring this into the arena but I'd rather I gave it to someone else than risk hurting another person. I'm done hurting people and it's taken me losing the only person who gave me a chance to realize that. Do what you will with it but I'm done with hurting people and I'm done with killing." I say softly, placing Caido, along with its sheath and belt on the shelf. "Good bye Mason." I say, having every intention of leaving however I have no idea what he'll do.

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I'm not sure what I expected really. The only feeling I have right now would be an odd sense of relief. Ironic considering my going into the arena will almost certainly ensure my death. I've realized no amount of preparation will adequately prepare me for the real horrors. I'm not even sure If I will have any visitors. I want to use this time alone to reflect on what I've done. Things that could have happened differently. I regret not spending more time with my brother. He's going to watch his brother die in the games and might not care either. The things I've done to him breaks my heart. I vow to win the games for him. When the door opens and Ally's voice fills the room, I can only silently nod. I have to keep my temper in check. Everything she says is true. Much as I want to deny what's being said there's no words that escape. I hear something placed on a shelf and turn around to hear her say goodbye. I pick up her trademark knife and mess around with it briefly. "Goodbye huh? Who says I'm not coming home."

[Sage]

The silence he greets me with is like a slap in the face but I don't cringe away. I'm done with hiding in the shadows. "Goodbye huh? Who says I'm not coming home?" he asks, turning towards me and I try to meet his gaze with my own. "I don't doubt you will but by then, I won't be Allyssa Tornhell. I'm done with causing pain. I wish you luck just be prepared because training in the training center and actually killing a person are two entirely different things. Just don't become a monster and lose the light in you." I say, fighting back the tears that have sprung to my eyes, god I'm weak. I'm crying because I'm giving up the only person who gave me a chance to be a good person. I'll prove it that I can be good, I'll prove that I'm not a monster. Show me you're not as bad as everyone thinks. The voice that has been speaking in my head for the last few months speaks, having finally found a voice inside of me that shows I can be good. "When you get home, there's a letter waiting for you in my apartment which will be likely empty within two weeks." I say before turning my back and walking away from my past and leaving it all behind. "I'm not a Tornhell anymore"

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She lectures me on the differences between killing and training. I may not have hands on experience with taking a life, but I guess in a few weeks that will change. I want to say I'm ready to take a life. Only that probably wouldn't be the truth. Ally has a point about taking a life. Her knife is still in my grasp. A tear forms in my eye as I throw the knife at the wall behind her. She may have wanted to make amends. I don't have to guess much about the contents of the letter if she's saying it'll be empty when I return. I've lost so much in my life that this point I expect to lose much more than just my humanity. "That's just it. I don't have any light left in me. If you want to delude yourself into thinking I'm a not a bad person well don't watch the screen if you can."

[Sage]

I feel the knife graze past my head, embedding in the wall behind me and a small part of me smiles, he's got good aim. I don't miss the tear in his eye as I look up at him, hearing his words in my ears. He says he has no light left but I know that that isn't true. If it was true, he'd have no issues taking a life but I know he may not be ready for it, therefore, he still has light in him.

I don't feel like standing here trying to convince him of whether he has light in him or not and so, I sigh. "Look, I'm not going to argue with you, I simply came to apologize. I'm sorry Mason and I wish, everyday, that I could go back in time and undo everything but I can't and so, I have to live with it. Just don't get yourself killed in there and come back to two." I say before leaving for real this time, waiting until I'm out the door to let the tears fall freely, not caring who sees me. "I'll never be able to make up for what I did."