& Learn to Fly // [ Katelyn/Saffle/Ren ]
Apr 21, 2015 23:53:51 GMT -5
Post by Baby Wessex d9b [earthling] on Apr 21, 2015 23:53:51 GMT -5
» arenaline rush «
I'd known this day was coming since her thirteenth birthday. Since that first puff of smoke, the first kiss of a needle. Even though the monster has never been mine, I still got it. I still craved the same things she did, like some jilted lover, like some unrequited crush. So when I say I'd known, believe me. I knew this day would come better than you, better than my parents, better than even her.
But I didn't know she would die in the snow.
I'm alone on a glossy white platform and I'm wondering if it's made of ice. I just walked across it, no slippage, but I can't be sure. This is the Capitol, after all. This is a mandate from President Snow. It could transform and take me with it, just like the snow buried her.
and Velocity Rush -
I'm not sure who says her name. It's echoing in the speakers, distorted, unrecognizable. But I know her name like my own, and my neck snaps. I step forward, glide across the ice, to the edge of the podium. With every muscle aching, close to breaking, I present the cover of City's first journal. "Thank you. This was hers, and now, it's yours." Those are the only sanctioned words. The Capitol baptized a lie. This journal could never belong to Katelyn Persimmon, nor to me. It was hers, and hers alone.
The Peacekeeper takes it away and I forget a corner of my soul.
The Mayor's home is roomier than I expected. I haven't been before, but everyone expects me to know my way around. I want to tell them: I didn't say goodbye, because we had said our goodbyes so long ago. But I don't know how to tell so I walk steady, lips between my teeth. It's not until I see Saffle in elegant relief that I recognize the circumstance: this is no private funeral, no genuine mourning. This is orchestrated and we are marionettes on a string.
I fold my arms around Saffle's slight form. For myself, for Elverum and Velocity, for the cameras. For something more. I don't know what to say, and I'm tired of having words stuffed in my mouth. For a moment, I just hold her, for myself, myself, Elverum and Velocity, the cameras. I breathe so close, I almost kiss her cheek - maybe I do.
ThePeacekeepers are ushering us forward and the ghost of Saffle's embrace is still in my arms. I reach for Katelyn instinctively. My words are for her, but I know they are not really mine. "There's nothing for us here." I drop my hand to meet Katelyn's. She is so tiny, so plain, so alive. I wrap every finger around hers, reaching for her pulse.
"I'm only loaning you the journal. Right?"
But I didn't know she would die in the snow.
I'm alone on a glossy white platform and I'm wondering if it's made of ice. I just walked across it, no slippage, but I can't be sure. This is the Capitol, after all. This is a mandate from President Snow. It could transform and take me with it, just like the snow buried her.
and Velocity Rush -
I'm not sure who says her name. It's echoing in the speakers, distorted, unrecognizable. But I know her name like my own, and my neck snaps. I step forward, glide across the ice, to the edge of the podium. With every muscle aching, close to breaking, I present the cover of City's first journal. "Thank you. This was hers, and now, it's yours." Those are the only sanctioned words. The Capitol baptized a lie. This journal could never belong to Katelyn Persimmon, nor to me. It was hers, and hers alone.
The Peacekeeper takes it away and I forget a corner of my soul.
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The Mayor's home is roomier than I expected. I haven't been before, but everyone expects me to know my way around. I want to tell them: I didn't say goodbye, because we had said our goodbyes so long ago. But I don't know how to tell so I walk steady, lips between my teeth. It's not until I see Saffle in elegant relief that I recognize the circumstance: this is no private funeral, no genuine mourning. This is orchestrated and we are marionettes on a string.
I fold my arms around Saffle's slight form. For myself, for Elverum and Velocity, for the cameras. For something more. I don't know what to say, and I'm tired of having words stuffed in my mouth. For a moment, I just hold her, for myself, myself, Elverum and Velocity, the cameras. I breathe so close, I almost kiss her cheek - maybe I do.
ThePeacekeepers are ushering us forward and the ghost of Saffle's embrace is still in my arms. I reach for Katelyn instinctively. My words are for her, but I know they are not really mine. "There's nothing for us here." I drop my hand to meet Katelyn's. She is so tiny, so plain, so alive. I wrap every finger around hers, reaching for her pulse.
"I'm only loaning you the journal. Right?"