Cyd Sanford D6 FIN
Apr 30, 2015 11:11:15 GMT -5
Post by goddessashara on Apr 30, 2015 11:11:15 GMT -5
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Where did I make my mistake
I'm the person that makes sure you stay alive
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Where the world meets the horizon is where you will find me. Those are literally the best words to describe me, because I'm always trying to learn more, I'm always trying to be in the place where I can learn the most. I hate to be that prototypical person that fits into their district really well, but I am even if I don't look like it. I love to learn, I love to create and discover, I love to put my mind to good work and put together the pieces of mysteries that no one else can. Let's get this things started though, I don't like to waste time. There is too little of it in the world.
Okay, my look, it definitely stands out form everyone else here. I'm edgy and punk and goth, I'm just everything that people DON'T look like here. When you grow up alone and homeless though you start to adopt the look and attitude of someone that needs to survive. That's sort of what I did with my look and attitude, which of course we'll cover later. Dark makeup usually adorns my face, dark rings around my eyes, very very dark and sharp. It immediately draws attention to my grey blue eyes that are always full of feeling. Something I'm also told is completely different from most other people with brains is that I have a lot more empathy to the human species which is very odd. It's not like I should have any empathy for anyone considering my background though.
My look though, I keep wandering off the subject, and I apologize for that. It's a habit of mine since I like to think about several things at once so that way I can get more projects done. My clothes aren't very suitable for my work, usually it's dresses or gowns that are completely out of the ordinary, but again it's me. It's part of the adoption of a persona that would keep people away from me, or create and aura of mystery around me. It worked too, which is something I loved, and to be honest it was more me than anything else was anyways. Along with that usually dress look a thick black choker can be ore often than not found around my neck, with a small red gem inlaid into the middle of it.
It was all about perception, I realized from a young age that while most people professed and taught not to "judge a book by it's cover" we all do. It's a habit of the human mind as well as a fact of society. Our perceptions of people are based purely on how they look or how they hold themselves. It's a sad thing to think about, but I'm just glad I learned early on that this was something that happened no matter who or how you were, even if reality made you out to be completely different.
There I go again talking about so many different things that my perceptions and personality come out while I'm trying to talk about how I look. Oh well, I think it was as good a time as any to start talking about what makes me, who I am. By this point I'm sure you know I'm intelligent, it's my life to be honest, I need to learn and I need to know. If I don't understand something or it confuses me I will focus on it until my brain hurts just trying to figure it out. The same works for people, since they're ever changing I love to watch them and learn. They like my every day experiment that I do on the side.
Also if you can't tell I'm a bit quirky and out there, but that's a product of doing what I do all the time. I spend more time alone locked in an office with blueprints than I do with actual people. If I do spend time with them then I more often than not am staring rather than talking. That's tied into my history though, because I HAD to study people. I had to know how they would react to me, who was dangerous and who wasn't, who would help me and who wouldn't and of course there was the ever important group of people that I could learn from. To be honest though there weren't too many of them.
I'm not even trying to be arrogant when I say that, it's just the truth. I learn so quickly, and pick up on the knowledge of others at such a rapid pace that I'm sure you would be hard pressed to find someone that could match my wit. Call me a bitch or just pompous, I don't care what you think at this point. What matters is what I think of myself and my own perception because I don't have to live with YOU for the rest of my life, I do however have to live with myself.
Let's cover more of what brought me to this point though, or at least as much of it as I can remember. I've been homeless and without parents for as long as I can remember, I don't know their names and I don't care to. The name I have now is actually of my own choosing because it seemed to fit me, or at least was more normal than I appear to be to the outside world. My background as a homeless individual though wasn't as much of a setback as people would think it would be. I was able to learn out there, I was able to pick up on the skills of others and learn under their tutelage. I even learned how to defend myself from some of the most unlikeliest of people.
I mean, I might not believe in violence as a solution to problems, but that hardly means that I don't know how to defend myself if the need should arise. I just look at fighting as a form of art or even a large math problem. So when I watch the videos it's all about angles and the repeated mistakes the human mind can make as it tries to defend itself from the inevitable meltdown that is suffers when it falls under stress or knows that it's about to be taken down. That's another thing I like about my mind, I never lose focus, even when I'm under pressure. It's something that's been such a boon to me all these years.
But seriously, this is the picture I'm painting for you, and while it seems I'm without flaw, I most certainly am not. It's my empathy that is my enemy, the fact that while I find most people to be of little use I can't help but want to help them and end their suffering. Mostly because I know what it's like to suffer, and while people may whisper behind my back that I'm doing it for selfish reasons I truly am not. It's because I want to help people...no I NEED to help people. I hope this is enough for you because I'm not very good at describing myself, I spend more time looking at others than I do myself. Enjoy
Codeword: Odair
Okay, my look, it definitely stands out form everyone else here. I'm edgy and punk and goth, I'm just everything that people DON'T look like here. When you grow up alone and homeless though you start to adopt the look and attitude of someone that needs to survive. That's sort of what I did with my look and attitude, which of course we'll cover later. Dark makeup usually adorns my face, dark rings around my eyes, very very dark and sharp. It immediately draws attention to my grey blue eyes that are always full of feeling. Something I'm also told is completely different from most other people with brains is that I have a lot more empathy to the human species which is very odd. It's not like I should have any empathy for anyone considering my background though.
My look though, I keep wandering off the subject, and I apologize for that. It's a habit of mine since I like to think about several things at once so that way I can get more projects done. My clothes aren't very suitable for my work, usually it's dresses or gowns that are completely out of the ordinary, but again it's me. It's part of the adoption of a persona that would keep people away from me, or create and aura of mystery around me. It worked too, which is something I loved, and to be honest it was more me than anything else was anyways. Along with that usually dress look a thick black choker can be ore often than not found around my neck, with a small red gem inlaid into the middle of it.
It was all about perception, I realized from a young age that while most people professed and taught not to "judge a book by it's cover" we all do. It's a habit of the human mind as well as a fact of society. Our perceptions of people are based purely on how they look or how they hold themselves. It's a sad thing to think about, but I'm just glad I learned early on that this was something that happened no matter who or how you were, even if reality made you out to be completely different.
There I go again talking about so many different things that my perceptions and personality come out while I'm trying to talk about how I look. Oh well, I think it was as good a time as any to start talking about what makes me, who I am. By this point I'm sure you know I'm intelligent, it's my life to be honest, I need to learn and I need to know. If I don't understand something or it confuses me I will focus on it until my brain hurts just trying to figure it out. The same works for people, since they're ever changing I love to watch them and learn. They like my every day experiment that I do on the side.
Also if you can't tell I'm a bit quirky and out there, but that's a product of doing what I do all the time. I spend more time alone locked in an office with blueprints than I do with actual people. If I do spend time with them then I more often than not am staring rather than talking. That's tied into my history though, because I HAD to study people. I had to know how they would react to me, who was dangerous and who wasn't, who would help me and who wouldn't and of course there was the ever important group of people that I could learn from. To be honest though there weren't too many of them.
I'm not even trying to be arrogant when I say that, it's just the truth. I learn so quickly, and pick up on the knowledge of others at such a rapid pace that I'm sure you would be hard pressed to find someone that could match my wit. Call me a bitch or just pompous, I don't care what you think at this point. What matters is what I think of myself and my own perception because I don't have to live with YOU for the rest of my life, I do however have to live with myself.
Let's cover more of what brought me to this point though, or at least as much of it as I can remember. I've been homeless and without parents for as long as I can remember, I don't know their names and I don't care to. The name I have now is actually of my own choosing because it seemed to fit me, or at least was more normal than I appear to be to the outside world. My background as a homeless individual though wasn't as much of a setback as people would think it would be. I was able to learn out there, I was able to pick up on the skills of others and learn under their tutelage. I even learned how to defend myself from some of the most unlikeliest of people.
I mean, I might not believe in violence as a solution to problems, but that hardly means that I don't know how to defend myself if the need should arise. I just look at fighting as a form of art or even a large math problem. So when I watch the videos it's all about angles and the repeated mistakes the human mind can make as it tries to defend itself from the inevitable meltdown that is suffers when it falls under stress or knows that it's about to be taken down. That's another thing I like about my mind, I never lose focus, even when I'm under pressure. It's something that's been such a boon to me all these years.
But seriously, this is the picture I'm painting for you, and while it seems I'm without flaw, I most certainly am not. It's my empathy that is my enemy, the fact that while I find most people to be of little use I can't help but want to help them and end their suffering. Mostly because I know what it's like to suffer, and while people may whisper behind my back that I'm doing it for selfish reasons I truly am not. It's because I want to help people...no I NEED to help people. I hope this is enough for you because I'm not very good at describing myself, I spend more time looking at others than I do myself. Enjoy
Codeword: Odair
Where did I make my mistake
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Cyd Sanford
Brains always beat brawn
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