the afterparty ; day one, night one. oneshots&collecting

[thompson harvard - d2b - arc]

I made the very smart decision of running away from the older girl. I didn't want the chance to be out this soon, I wanted to try and at least give the people some kind of show. Right? It has only just begun and I don't think night will be coming very soon. The number one thing I need to do right now is hide. Hide away from everyone in the maze and labyrinth, whatever the hell this place was, and find my way to another place in time. Another place in this world that wasn't as deadly as it is already. I wish. I could only wish that I was somewhere else and not here. If only I wasn't so puny and deaf, maybe I could've had a better life than this one itself. I was running for sure. Don't know where, don't know why I kept running. Maybe so I could get away from everyone else. Hopefully to find a better place where I can hide and not be disturbed by anyone else. That'd be great, living in a world and place where nobody killed each other and we didn't use each other for entertainment. I wish, only to look at the stars, to hope theres someone else out there.

I was panting hard, and finally after what seemed hours I fell to the ground in a corner of a dead end and just sat there. I kept to myself in this tiny little corner and hoped that noboy would be able to find me. I don't want to be found, I want to stay here for the rest of the pregames and hope the others starve or something. I want to hide, I don't want to fight. I just want to be alone. Being alone is what I do best. It's when I am the best. I could win a contest for being alone, really, because I just dislike people in general. It's not that I just dislike them because they're annoying a lot. It's because I've lost trust in people. My father, the people who signed me up for this, and the foster care I live in all have ruined the trust I had in people. So really the only thing I would do to a person would be ignore them and/or punch them.  I sit there panting and breathing, and I seem to fall sleepy. I didn't even know where the sleepiness came from, maybe just running all that time? Possibly something like that.

Each breath I take, each breath I inhale and exhale makes it seem even better to me. I'm still alive, which is a big step since I was highly doubted I would get farther than stepping into the maze itself because they'd swarm me. I'm surprised they didn't. But whatever, I'm not gonna question their decision making at this point of time because if it was otherwise I would've been out by now.

My mind seemed to slow down and the sleepiness had started to overwhelm me. I wanted to sleep but I didn't, because what I've heard is I snore a little in my sleep and that'd give away my position.

My eyes flutter shut for a second, almost teasing me with the thought of sleep and I keep them closed for a few more seconds, I start to drift off but then I jab myself awake.

No, Cyder, you're not going to fall asleep.

But I want to.

You'll get caught.

Sleeping won't hurt anyone... Right? I wont win anyways so whats the point?

Don't do it...

It's too late. I drift off into sleep.

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FIRST ONE SHOT OUT OF THREE.

Recap: She runs away from the girl she was fighting
She runs a long time
Thinks about not liking Panem
Falls
Contemplates sleep
Tries not to sleep
Sleeps.
WC: 525.