A {hope}ful wish {Puppy/Muffins}

[Knuckles]

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Canvas Hope

Fifteen | Male | District 8

Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscrapers

Simple distractions bring temporary happiness into the lives of those mourning the loss of a loved one. Maybe that's what this is. A chance to find the happiness that was lost the moment Lily volunteered for the games. It's ironic having the last name of Hope when every piece of hope I had was gone. How could someone so small and tiny like herself win the games? She almost proved me wrong, and I regret thinking she would die. I regret not showing up to say goodbye to her after she volunteered for the games. I regret not spending enough time with her through her short life.

I could spend an entire lifetime living off the regrets I have, but right now in this very moment, the highland games offers a sense of distraction. It gives me something to look forward to when I wake up in the tiny tents each morning. It's not much, yet it reminds me that I'm alive. That I am still breathing, and giving up hope isn't an option because Lily would want us to remain strong. She wouldn't want us crying every second of the day, and that's what I have done for so long.

It's time to move on. It's time to change my ways of life and live in the moment like every moment could be my last. The wounds, the constant reminders, all if it can tear my down, but I'm rising from the ground. I'm growing stronger with each and every day. Distracting myself doesn't heal the wound that's growing in my heart, it offers a temporary band aid. Something to hold the broken pieces together long enough for me to find some enjoyment in life. Honestly, I'll never be completely healed of her death. Yet I'll find a way to learn to live with it.

Sighing to myself, I walk around the village wondering if I could find Paige. Maybe talking to her could offer some more of a distraction, yet each time I think of her name I want to shout for Lily too because they were twins. They went through life together talking to one another. It was always Paige and Lily, and Lily and Paige. Now it's just Paige.

"Paige?" I keep my voice quiet as I move around trying to find her. "Eterna?" They could be anywhere right now. They could be hiding in the distance, and I would never know. But maybe I can find one of them. Maybe we can share memories and figure out a way to honor Lily as we all compete in the highland games. This isn't about me personally. No, it's about honoring Lily because all I want to do now is make her proud.

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Paige Hope

I am sitting up in a tree, the pole climb has ended and I thought I could do better, much better. The whole purpose of me being here was to make Lily happy where ever she is now, and I am failing at that I bet. I did awful in the pole climb, and just to prove that I was a good climber, not a failure, I snuck off to some trees and climbed them, sitting up high in the branches. Because today was the games, the lumberjacks of district seven were not working, and I'm glad because then I would be falling down with the tree by now. I have been crying, wishing that Lily was here with me, a victor, or not even in the games at all. Now though there is no chance the girl I once knew would ever come back to me.

I just wish I could make her proud one last time.

I carefully find my way down the tree, shimmying like on the pole climb. I wipe my eyes dry, and the only trace of tears was the puffiness of my eyes. I make my way to the village, it is almost time for the egg toss which I would be doing with Canvas. I suddenly hear the voice of my cousin that I love so much whispering my name, and my other cousins name, Eterna. She is here too in the games. I decide to startle him, a mischievous grin over coming me.

I hide in a small alleyway, and when I see him walk towards me, I try to jump out, trying to tackle him with a hug.

[Muffinface]

Her hands slither across her thin coat, fiddling with a zipper that has long since broken, like the feelings of anguish that grip their small family. Her frown resonate from her forehead all the way down to her toes, and she feels the familiar fingers of grief begin to seize at her throat, clutching and clawing its way into her soul.

Enough.

A shaking sigh echoes through her chest, her gaze lifting from the crevices of the world, arcing instead to the horizon, pondering for a few moments, resting on the roof of where the sky touches the Earth below. That's where she lived now, forever on the edge of her vision.

Her stomach aches from the remainders of the pies, twisting, turning, knotting into a frayed ball of emotions. Already she'd vomited, not used to the feeling of being full, and her hand carefully lifts to her neck, massaging the ball in her throat.

A voice calls on the wind, soft at first, though as it penetrates her ears, she recognizes it- Canvas.

Her heart lifts at the thought, and she speeds up, steps elongating to match her excitement. Family, the kind who didn't shove her away for pets.

"Hey!" she calls out, her excited breath slipping out in wisps, her hands rising, waving at her two cousins. "I forgot you were here!"

[Knuckles]

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Canvas Hope

Fifteen | Male | District 8

Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscrapers

Not once did I imagine life losing someone to the hunger games. And it hurts. Every second grows longer and longer, yet with every long seconds comes a long breath. Inhaling and exhaling. Fighting against the world where I obviously don't belong. Living my life to the fullest was once my goal, but it's gone. All my goals, all my wills, and all my wishes left the moment her cannon sound. The picture changed. Blood stained tears fall down the face of an innocent life mixing with a pale face. A blood stained joy. Shattered and broken hearts. None of that matters to the Capitol now. My happiness doesn't matter, but at least I can take a moment to relax. A moment to distract myself as I search for my cousins.

It's quiet, and I want to call out for them again, but the moment I take a step in front of a small alley, something hits me hard knocking me to the ground as it completely caught me off guard as arms wrap around me. A large grin plasters against my face twisting its way across my face, and I can't help but wrap my arms around her in return. Thinking about Paige puzzles me. I'm not a twin, and I can't imagine losing someone who's apart of me, yet she seems so strong. So brave. So amazing, and for that I admire her.

"It's good to see you."

As soon as the words fall from my lips, Eterna's voice echoes through the air. Both of them are here, yet the entire family isn't. Some are gone, and I don't know if I'll ever see them again. Dead. Trapped. Lost. Hopefully alive. Yet not here. And inside it's eating me alive. Tearing away at the artistic strings. Pulling my life into ruins, yet somehow I manage to keep breathing.

"How's the events going?" It's a simple question directed towards both of them. "Oh, Paige, sorry about the flop I had earlier." It felt wrong wrecking a moment. A chance to shine with glory, yet it was gone. Far away, and all that was left was a small bit of hope. A chance of survival. Perhaps a way to turn a life around.

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[pup]

Paige Hope

As soon as I tackle my cousin to the ground I stand up laughing. I didn't realize it would actually work, and that I would have landed on the hard, cold, filthy cobblestones from district seven. You wouldthink they would clean them before they had all their guests from other districts over, but no, they just had to go and leave all those pine needles to sting us. I turn around, a small smile still on my face, and I see my other cousin. Eterna.

She comes running over to us and exclaims a hi and that she forgot we were here too. How did she do that? We all left together at the same time on the same day on the same train. I push that out of my mind though. I back up a few steps so that I can have them in both in my line of sight so that I won't seem rude. I turn though, slightly, to answer Canvas' question. "I'm going well in the events. I was just doing the log throw and I slispped at the end which made me throw it farther which gave me a good score!" I said excitedly in answer to his question. Then in response to his comment about the egg throw I replied, "It's ok. I think that was one of the harder events. Remember, no one got through one pass." I smile again.

[Muffinface]

"Actually, I saw that." Eterna answers with a content smile, choosing to keep her pitiful scores to herself. Right now, Paige's scores were a time for celebration- a moment where Lily wasn't perched right at the forefront of her memories, instead, the gleeful grin of her twin burned in her retinas.



"You did wonderfully! First place, right?" she adds, her hands lowering to begin patting away pine needles inground in the girl's coat. Eterna wondered often what it'd be like to live here, in Seven. She wanted to stay, honestly. The open aired forests stretched in every direction, and she felt as though she may loose herself in the forest at any given moment, and no one would look for her.



Here, she could hide. Here, she could be happy.

"What about you, Canvas? How'd you do?" Her own stomach burns with guilt from her lack of hunger at the pie eating contest, and she nervously touches her distended stomach. It was kind of neat though- to sit next to an actual victor; even though her cousin could have been, should have been at that table as well.

[Knuckles]

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Canvas Hope

Fifteen | Male | District 8

Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscrapers

Being with family changed things. It turned darkness into light and hopeless feelings into hopeful ones. Yet it couldn't mend a broken heart destroyed far too soon. Families shouldn't have to worry about losing someone they love. Someone they're close to, but at the end of the day it's a miracle if anyone can say they've laid their head down on a pillow for a night of sleep. So many people die every day. So many families mourn, and the Capitol and those in charge expect us to move on like nothing is wrong. Like nothing has happened when everything has happened.

Paige had done well so far. Her throw in the log toss was incredible. My tiny cousin had thrown better than anyone out there. It's a time to celebrate. A time to rejoice and be happy, but I've lost the meaning of happiness. Many tears have fallen down my face. My downcast eyes stare at the ground in front of me each night wondering if I'll ever wake up from this terrible nightmare. Yet I stand tall. Trying to mask away the pain hidden away deep inside. Only in drawing would I allow myself to reveal it.

"Yeah! Paige you did amazing! I'm so happy for you!" A fake smile twists across my face, but it looks genuine. Many years of practice showed me how to turn the corners of my eyes up. It's a mask that I've worn for a long time. Especially this last year. "I've done alright. Got first in tug-a-war. Uh, other than that nothing to brag about." Shrugging my shoulders carefully, I turn towards Eterna. "How have you done?" It's a simple question, but honestly it doesn't matter how's she's done because right now we're a family, and that's all anyone ever needs.

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