ultimum vale | {basil/raven} | jb blitz

[umber vivuus 12b 🥀 [dars]]

In her dreams, she had battled monsters in many forms: from the gigantic creature her brother had fought, to her own parents. She won every single time there, because her mind was supposed to be the one place she had complete control over.

Now, all she could see was Basil standing as one piece of a twenty-four part circle, terrified eyes on the clock in front of him as it was drained of life. She had no control, yet again, and as she stormed a crowd of the relieved, she didn't care when they tumbled into one another, or cursed at her as she went on.

She needed to tell him bye. She needed him to know she was there.

(She had been too afraid to say goodbye before, but now, she didn't think she had an option.)

"Basil Anatola." she said to a peacekeeper, and he grabbed her by the arm and escorted her to a wooden door. She didn't wait for him to open it for her. She shoved it open, a sense of urgency illuminating her every atom as she barreled inside and pulled her cousin in to a hug.

"Basil..." She plead into his shoulder.

She lost Gavin, and then she lost Rowan. She wouldn't let them take Basil too. She wanted to scream and cry and break everything in sight, but she swallowed it down and pulled away from the embrace. As gently as possible she cupped Basil's face in her hands.

"You are incredible, Basil. And I think you can make it back."

Her breath hitched and she closed her eyes to keep the tears at bay. This was not fucking about her. This was about Basil, and his struggle, and his fear. She had no right to cry to him when he was falling apart at the very seams. But when she opened her mouth to speak, she cursed herself for the honesty in the words:

"I need you to come back."

[chelsey]

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BASILANATOLA

Maybe my heart's numb.

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They dribble in one by one. His father shakes his hand, bids him a silent farewell. His mother cries into his shoulder, asking God “Why him?”. His sister doesn’t say anything, but hugs him when he asks her - quite seriously - to bury him next to Roland.

There’s a part of him that feels like he doesn’t deserve this: the chance to kiss his family on the cheeks and tell ‘em he loves ‘em one last time. Who gets to decide how you say your last goodbyes to the people you love, anyway? Who gets to decide if they really are your last goodbyes? Huh? Is it fate? Destiny? God? Because, boy, does he have a problem with Him, right now.

He has half an idea of how Roland felt, now, knowing that death was coming. It’s a heavy something hanging in the pit of his stomach, like a fever he just can’t sweat out. He closes his eyes after Sage leaves the room, while she’s wiping away tears she didn’t want to shed in front of him, and wishes for some kinda miracle.

Raven bursts in the room only seconds after Sage and hurtles herself at him. They are both stars - collapsing, dying, swirling black holes briefly passing by each other in the abysmal space that is their sad, tiny, dark corner of the Universe. He holds on tightly, anyway, like the way Gavin must’ve when he was standing in this spot only a few years ago.

“I need you to come back,” she whispers to him, like it’s a secret she wishes she didn’t have to keep. He chokes out something that sounds like a laugh and lets go of her, knowing he can’t be tethered for too long without pulling her down into the darkness with him.

“I can’t make any promises.”

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