Lets Start With Forever [Kay]
Apr 20, 2016 14:07:34 GMT -5
Post by Noah Vau - D2 (Cato) on Apr 20, 2016 14:07:34 GMT -5
Harbinger Rhodes Nineteen | Male | District Eleven |
It's hard to live right now knowing I'm the reason two young children have died, but I have to keep going on. For them. For Kirito. For Kate. For district eleven, yet it's harder than anyone realizes. I want to be there for them, but I don't know how. How can I tell Kirito it'll be alright when I know for fact it'll never be alright? His reality is my worst nightmare. I fear for my family knowing I have some brothers still in the reaping. I don't know what I would do if one of them ended up in the games traveling my journey, Crusader's journey. I was a worthless mentor for Iain and Carrita, and I don't want it to happen again, but I know if President Snow has his way district eleven will never see another victor.
Yet in the darkest hours I have a friend who walks by my side. Navya is the love of my life, and I need her now more than I ever had. She helps me when I feel broken. All I have to do is wrap my arms around her, and all my pain goes away. She helps me heal from the ghosts lingering in front of me, and the ones that follow behind me. Scars run deeper than the visible scars running across my body. I should be happy I'm alive, but the happiest I feel is when Navya is standing beside me. I'll never forget the day the train crashed and fuzzy critters stood in front of us. Together we helped place them in their rightful place, but I happened to find a stray that never made it back on the train.
Angel. She's my guardian angel, and I love her with all my heart, and this same love I have for my precious kitty is the same love I share for Navya. I wish I could spend all my life with her because I can't live without her. Everywhere I go I see her face, and when I'm around her I feel all warm and fuzzy. And it's been two years since I met her, and it was the greatest moment in my entire life. Which is why I've asked her to come join me today. I want to go back to where we met.
My hand protects the ring in my pocket. I bought it in the Capitol, and I hope Navya enjoys it as much as I do, and I've placed my best outfit on today. I didn't want to wear anything I bought from the Capitol because it reminds me too much of the games, and the horrible fate of tributes. I may have survived, but I never won the games - the pain lingers forever, and knowing that as long as I live the pain will always be there. Every single year I'm forced to pay the ultimate price, but today is the day my life changed forever. I just hope Navya is willing because I know I won't be able to survive without her.
Victor of the 71st Hunger Games