About to Burst (Chevi)

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Promise yourself
to be strong so that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind

❧

It was a rather ordinary thing for Caitir to be extremely optimistic one day and majorly pessimistic the next. Sometimes she would even have both of those outlooks on life in the same day. This often made things quite difficult. That day, she had decided to go and wander through the streets on District Eight, meandering past tall factories and the people that came by.

As she was on her walk, it took a turn for the worse. There was a large amount of people around, and she felt her body begin to shake. Tremors shot through her body, and she couldn't stop them. Her breathing picked up pace and she new she had to get out of there. She wasn't good either crowds, not doubt. They often made her feel claustrophobic and would pull her into a panic.

I shouldn't have gone out today. Now I'm making a fool of myself! Who else honestly can say that they can't even take a walk through a somewhat crowded district without panicking almost every time?

As her tremors got quicker and more violent, she knew she had to get away from everything.

Closing in... Closing in... Get me out of here!

She bolted out of the crowd, weaving past people and accidentally bumping into some of them in the process. When she finally broke through the crowd, her breathing slowed a bit, but not enough to stop her shaking. Quickly, she came across a bench and went to sit down. On her way over, however, being so exhausted from how panicked she was, she nearly fell. Stumbling a bit to catch herself, she went over to sit on the bench. As she was sitting there, her body shook viciously. She pulled her legs up onto the bench and brought her knees to her chest. Why was this always so difficult?

I hope no one notices me... My shaking is so bad that it's embarrassing!

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Bea was on her way home from the market, with a basket on her arm. She had only bought some smaller things, as Mom had instructed, and she bounced along happily despite the early afternoon crowd. Bea didn't mind crowds; in fact, she enjoyed people-watching, and as she got closer to her neighborhood, she would meet more and more familiar people. Some may even stop to chat. While this close to the Games emotions were running high, it was always a nice distraction to talk to friendly people. And as far as Bea was concerned, everyone was friendly until proven otherwise.

She noticed the girl just as she was stumbling towards the bench. She was visibly shaking, and looked scared. Bea had seen people in distress before, and she had never walked past a single one of them. Stopping at the bench she placed her basket on the ground and sat next to the girl.
 
"Hello! Are you feeling okay?..." 

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[d5b sergio quiverus [kap]]

Promise yourself
to be strong so that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind

❧

Caitir was more upset that usual, her body still shaking from the tremors that shot through it. She had her head in her hands, crying, when she noticed the voice of a young girl right beside her.

She lifted her head and looked to her side. Next to her was a rather young looking girl who appeared to be genuinely concerned about Caitir. The girl asked Caitir if she was okay, and at first, she wasn't sure how to reply.

"I- I guess so..." were the words that the panicked girl managed to get out.

"I'm sorry. I just get rather panicked in crowds sometimes. I shouldn't have wandered out today when I knew there was a chance of this happening."

Caitir apologized, despite not having done anything wrong.

She looked at the young girl. The girl didn't look all too familiar. Caitir was sure she would have recognized the pretty young girl had she seen her before, as her looks seemed to stand out for someone so young. She had a nice rounded shape to her face and a happy expression. Caitir was glad to see someone that seemed so naturally joyful. She often wished that she could be that way herself, but it was rather hard with the anxiety and depression that she faced.

"I appreciate you stopping by, really, I do. I'm Caitir." she said, expressing her gratitude and delivering a smile as she introduced herself.

Caitir was somewhat of an odd name, so it always made her curious as to how uncommon it was compared to that of others. What was this girl's name? Perhaps it didn't entirely matter in the end, but to Caitir, it did. She wanted to know who this girl was, so she knew who to properly thank for actually caring about her.

At this point, Caitir had calmed down a bit, her shaking and breathing both significantly slower than before.

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"I- I guess so... I'm sorry. I just get rather panicked in crowds sometimes. I shouldn't have wandered out today when I knew there was a chance of this happening... I appreciate you stopping by, really, I do. I'm Caitir."

The girl had been crying and shaking, but Bea's words seemed to bring her out of her panic a little. Bea smiled a bright, friendly smile as she introduced herself.

"It's okay, sometimes I get scared too. We can sit here a little if you want, hm? Nice to meet you, Caitir. You have a very beautiful name... I'm Bea."

The sense of panic or anxiety was a foreign one for Bea; she had grown up in security and balance, and had apart from reapings, she had never experienced true fear. But she knew that some people did, and some people had a hard time dealing with them; it seemed that there were many in the district, but she was not sure how feelings like that were dealt with. The only thing she knew was that her mother handled everything, and everyone, with love and care, and it seemed to be the best option out there. So Bea was determined to do the same.

"Would you like something? I can bring you water, or sweets, or something to make you feel better..."

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Promise yourself
to be strong so that nothing
can disturb your peace of mind

❧

The young girl was extremely sweet towards Caitir. She had a kind, soft voice, and a well-meaning overall look to her.

"It's okay, sometimes I get scared too. We can sit here a little if you want, hm? Nice to meet you, Caitir. You have a very beautiful name... I'm Bea." the young girl had said to Caitir.

Caitir was quite surprised when the girl told her that she had a beautiful name. Normally, people found it strange and very out of place. A lot of people she met would even question her as to where her name came from (which she later found out meant 'pure').

The panicky feeling that the blonde girl had been experiencing was slowly starting to fade away as conversation was made with the one that called herself Bea. She was very well-meaning, and seemed like she knew exactly how to handle things like this. She seemed as if everything was good in life, which was an unusual outlook on things for Caitir. As someone who is unintentionally pessimistic, Caitir would find difficulty in staying calm or trying to console others.

"Would you like something? I can bring you water, or sweets, or something to make you feel better..." Bea questioned Caitir. It was a very kind offer, but at first, Caitir wasn't sure what to say. Should she take the offer, or leave it alone?

"Oh, uhm, sure. Something like that would be nice. I really appreciate it, if it doesn't trouble you." Caitir told the young girl. Troubling someone was something that Caitir hated to do, so she really hoped that it wouldn't be an inconvenience to anyone. She often felt that she was in the way, never being able to do anything right without bothering others.

Although she feared bothering the girl, she doubted at this point that she would, especially seeing as the girl had offered to get something for Caitir. No one would offer to do something that would cause them trouble if they're not asked to, would they? Caitir hoped not.

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"Oh, uhm, sure. Something like that would be nice. I really appreciate it, if it doesn't trouble you."

"Oh, it is no trouble at all!" Bea nodded with a bright smile; placing her basket on the bench, trusting the blonde girl not to take off with it, she bounced off to get some refreshments. Whatever the problem was, food and drinks usually helped with it. Or at least brought a little comfort.

Bea returned some short minutes later, carefully balancing a cup of water and a small packet of cookies. She got them from a friendly lady at the nearby market stall, someone who knew her and was willing to trade for yarn to be delivered later. Bea placed the cookies and the cup on the bench where Caitir could reach them. 

"There you go. I hope you like them." she smiled, sitting back down. "The crowd should clear in a little bit. It's just people going home from work, mostly."  

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[d5b sergio quiverus [kap]]

Caitir Bowman - District Eight

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ssuring Caitir that it wouldn't trouble her at all, the younger girl gave a smile of friendship. Caitir returned this smile, as she was rather grateful for the girl's generosity. Leaving her basket there, Caitir's new acquaintance headed off to get what she had offered to the panicked girl. This was something that relieved the blonde girl quite a bit, having someone there to help her. Normally when she was in a situation where she was panicked, she didn't have anyone to help her calm down or to support her like Bea was doing in that moment.

When Bea came back to the bench where Caitir and the basket were still sitting, she had a cup of water and some cookies. Caitir gave a soft smile to the girl when she placed then on the bench next to her.

"Thank you, Bea. I really appreciate it. It's really kind of you to help me out. I'm glad you don't think I'm being too much trouble." Caitir told the one who brought the treats.

Bea explained that the crowd should die down soon, which was reassuring to Caitir. She hated crowds, as they always made her shaky and nervous. Caitir reached for the cup of water Bea had brought, and drank a little bit of it, careful not to chug it and seem like she was being impolite. She set it back down and opened the package of cookies, taking out two and offering one to Bea.

"Would you like one, too?" she asked before eating her own. She thought it would be a good idea to offer one to the one who had gotten her the cookies in the first place before just diving into them without being polite.

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