pippi dexter { seven } finished

[jj jenkins d7. ✨ zozo.]

pippi violet dexter

fifteen

seven

alice rose & eva lily
those dexter girls, they'll break your heart
(and probably your jaw)

[jj jenkins d7. ✨ zozo.]

P I P P I ;

Alice Rose n' Eva Lily.

Eva Lily  n' Alice Rose.

Take out the 'n' and put it in me.

Pippi Viole(n)t.

If Alice is the mind and Eva is the soul then I am the body, screaming and sobbing to be let out of their bedroom closet, pounding my fists into the locked doors over and over again, Alice laughing through the keyhole after throwing me inside. Seven years old and wreaking havoc, the twins are 10 and Alice has already learnt how to inflict her own.

"We should let her out now" Eva says quietly underneath my pandemonium.

"Why?" Alice spits, her grin turning to a scowl.

"Because she's upset."

"I don't care!" Alice yells, kicking at her side of the door and screaming "SHUT UP PIPPI!" for good measure. 

"I do" whispers Eva.

"Why?!"

Lone wolf howling, trapped in the darkness, skin raw and bleeding from splinters in the door. I think I'll die in here.

"Because I love her."

Alice frowns.

"Then why did you let me put her in there?"

Eva pauses, then admits the truth.

"Because I love you more."

3 hours later, woken from my bed of old jumpers and winter coats and long-forgotten toys to the sound of Alice turning the key in the lock, she lets me go.

I hear her whispering to Eva as I flee my captivity - "I love you more too."

I whimper. Because Alice will always have Eva and Eva will always have Alice and I will have myself and the rage underneath my skin, a burning acid bubbling up my throat, white-hot flares scorching my bones and everything I touch.

Despite this, I flinch when Alice walks past. At dinner I take Eva's hand underneath the table and feel her squeeze my own a secret apology.

"Because I love her."

But she'll always love Alice more.

That's okay. I'm learning that, slowly. The universe decided that they would have each other and I would have nobody. I don't think Eva will ever stop apologising for all that Alice does and still loving her for it anyway. She can't help that. It's just the way the universe made her.

Alice grew up to be a blackmailer playing with fire and Eva grew up to be the only person who could ever stand up to Alice and quench the flames that she danced in before they could consume her whole. I grew into Pippi, sent home from school for fighting (again). Pippi, a fuse. Pippi, landmine child of concerned florists almost giving up on their youngest daughter. Pippi, spark on the tongue of others with her nosebleeds and cut lips, bruises and scars on her brows. Pippi, kissing boys with her eyes open and watching the girls walk past with a longing in her chest. 

Watching.

Waiting.

For my destruction.

[jj jenkins d7. ✨ zozo.]

finito

[Avalon]

she is ART
YOU are ART

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