Game of Sitting on Thrones of Lies (Gaby)
Dec 24, 2016 4:20:30 GMT -5
Post by uwu on Dec 24, 2016 4:20:30 GMT -5
Today was the start of something amazing: winter break. It's not my favorite break, but any break from school is amazing. However, every week before the break gradually slows time until the last day before. I swear time can sense anticipation. It probably does that to annoy humans. The entire day felt dragged out, much more dragged out than usual I just wanted to leave. There were a couple of times where I was tempted to ditch school, but I knew that once I released, it would feel so much better. I also didn't want to get in trouble with authority, or my dad. I knew without a good reason, I'd get my butt whooped, and I'm barely certain wanting break to end sooner didn't make that list.
Come on... only one more minute to go. Hurry up, you slow piece of... The bell suddenly goes off. "Yes!" I grab my bag and sprint off, enjoying the begging of no school for a little bit. Wait, don't I still have to work? Dammit. The thought dampens my mood as I slow down my pace. I shouldn't have signed up for more shifts over the break. I should have just let myself enjoy it. I barely get to sleep in anymore. Maybe the boss'll be lenient since he knows I'm on break. No. When has he ever been lenient? He'll say something about it being break and how I should have more time to work. I wish I didn't have to. I wish my dad didn't do what he did. Stupid freaking emotions. Why couldn't he control them? At least he's better?
My moping continues all the way to home. I head to my room, throw my book bag onto the floor, and fall onto my bed. I stuff my head into my pillow and scream. Why is this causing me more misery than usual? I shouldn't be upset about it. I even willingly signed up for shifts over the break. I WANTED TO. Stop blaming dad for your mistakes. If it even is a mistake. I do get money out of it. That's always something. Speaking of money, I think I have enough money to go shopping. What did i need to get? I'll figure it out when I get to the market.
The thought of buying something for myself lightens my mood slightly, but I'm still slightly annoyed at myself. Just suck it up. You get payed. be happy about it. I mentally make a list of all the items that I needed and wanted. With hardly any luck, a sensation of stress fills me up. What's there to be stressed out about? This is supposed to get my mind off of stress. I need to sit down. I steer myself to the nearest bench. I briskly sit down and focus on calming myself down. Goddammit, what's wrong with me today? What happened? So what if I have to work over break? It's life. But I'm only 14. Shut up. I have to work. Dad can't afford to spend more than he has to, and I won't let Anna pay for me. She should save money for herself. Working isn't new, anyways. What difference does it make if I have to work? I'm sure I won't work every day. Just calm yourself before you wreck yourself. I remain sitting for a little while longer before looking up and seeing a familiar face. Shit, it's her. I stand up and hurriedly move in a different direction. Don't want to be seen by her. DOn't need any trouble right now.
Come on... only one more minute to go. Hurry up, you slow piece of... The bell suddenly goes off. "Yes!" I grab my bag and sprint off, enjoying the begging of no school for a little bit. Wait, don't I still have to work? Dammit. The thought dampens my mood as I slow down my pace. I shouldn't have signed up for more shifts over the break. I should have just let myself enjoy it. I barely get to sleep in anymore. Maybe the boss'll be lenient since he knows I'm on break. No. When has he ever been lenient? He'll say something about it being break and how I should have more time to work. I wish I didn't have to. I wish my dad didn't do what he did. Stupid freaking emotions. Why couldn't he control them? At least he's better?
My moping continues all the way to home. I head to my room, throw my book bag onto the floor, and fall onto my bed. I stuff my head into my pillow and scream. Why is this causing me more misery than usual? I shouldn't be upset about it. I even willingly signed up for shifts over the break. I WANTED TO. Stop blaming dad for your mistakes. If it even is a mistake. I do get money out of it. That's always something. Speaking of money, I think I have enough money to go shopping. What did i need to get? I'll figure it out when I get to the market.
The thought of buying something for myself lightens my mood slightly, but I'm still slightly annoyed at myself. Just suck it up. You get payed. be happy about it. I mentally make a list of all the items that I needed and wanted. With hardly any luck, a sensation of stress fills me up. What's there to be stressed out about? This is supposed to get my mind off of stress. I need to sit down. I steer myself to the nearest bench. I briskly sit down and focus on calming myself down. Goddammit, what's wrong with me today? What happened? So what if I have to work over break? It's life. But I'm only 14. Shut up. I have to work. Dad can't afford to spend more than he has to, and I won't let Anna pay for me. She should save money for herself. Working isn't new, anyways. What difference does it make if I have to work? I'm sure I won't work every day. Just calm yourself before you wreck yourself. I remain sitting for a little while longer before looking up and seeing a familiar face. Shit, it's her. I stand up and hurriedly move in a different direction. Don't want to be seen by her. DOn't need any trouble right now.