cosmo midnight [ helios v. horses ] day 4
Apr 1, 2017 15:20:31 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Apr 1, 2017 15:20:31 GMT -5
I wander in darkness, my face molding into this damn blanket - none of this makes sense. Gravity, blankets, Lucas, sinless murders; I've spent this long trying to make it all mold to my world but I'm starting to realize I'm clay for them, and I always have been. No food, no water, it's catching up to me and it's hard to even feel angry or anything more than desperate, than tired of walking through the dark.
That whole Eszter thing, trying to think of how she'd do this, how to survive these situations in a way that makes sense through both worlds - I slept through the after noon. Hungry and stained and whatever digging in my tongue, just one day. If I can survive today I can make it back to them- I can make this okay, I can see Lucas again and die okay, die in a way that fits my world.
Lying makes sense at this point.
[ wip wip i have to get ready for prom and wanna get this started sorry skipping to the good parts ]
-extreme arena survivorlist helios comes out
-no more crying, gotta check the wind for direction
-sleeps through the day, walks to the mansion at night
-really wants to cry but big girls don't cry
I'm coming, Percy.
We never really had soft days together, she had her own tough kid way of dealing with issues and I sat alone in gardens. She wouldn't come to church with me and I never blamed her- she's just a kid, I'd tell Father White. That's a name I haven't heard in a while, ha. I wonder if he's condemned me yet- I wonder if Calypso has forgotten me yet.
Percy wouldn't like it here, I don't think, the same way my eye drags trying to walk through the rose garden, staying clear of the rows and bushes - they may be dangerous. The whole spiel with the garden of eden, Ripred could send a snake to bite me in the ass if I die by that then this whole suffering thing wouldn't even be worth it.
But still I walk, torso on my back, my face masked through early morning wind, the smell of rose blinding me; I wish I could love it here. Just one more gentle day -- that'd be nice. Percy wouldn't make sense of this place either and I'd hold her hand as we'd walk, when she was small I'd carry her to reapings; that's wild right? That one of my fondest memories is the snake that killed both her and me?
But there isn't time to question, time to think; survival comes in the answers.[ firestorm ]
[helios throws axes at buzzing objects;]
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