wanderlust [phresh]
Dec 4, 2017 18:49:13 GMT -5
Post by sadniss everdeen on Dec 4, 2017 18:49:13 GMT -5
The first time Alyssa saw the sky, she was twenty years old.
Bloody-knuckled and gritted teeth, up and out the barbed wire, the turrets, slipping away from the coal and concrete prison that had been her home, and her father's, and her father's father. It was dark and quiet and her breath turned into clouds that escaped from her, condensed in front of her eyes and drifted away just like the remnants of her old life. Like her dreams, her memories, all her friends who had left one by one until she was alone. Just like then, just like now, her beaten sneakers slip-sliding down the embankment and away from the bunker with a promise not to cry and the necklace Bentley made for her when they were thirteen clenched in her trembling fist.
Don't think about it. Don't talk about it. Just swallow, breathe, move forward.
A life in a man-made hole left her ill-equipped for crossing the vast forests between the Districts. The wind on her face feels like fingers, always looking over her shoulder for the person who ruffled her hair. Water soaks her torn-up backpack when she crosses the river and nearly ruins the single faded photograph inside, nipping at her toes and chilling her skin. It licks at her a little like fire, if she's being honest, just a little less violent and a little more steady. Just like--
No.
When she tries to sleep, the forest is too loud. When she wants to stop thinking, too quiet. Figures.
The night is too dark, the day too bright. The sun burns her near-translucent skin and it peels from her shoulders in all the places her hair doesn't cover. Each new step introduces her to insects she's never seen, traps she's never fallen into. She sleeps in a tree to avoid the ground and wakes up to a squirrel chewing through her already-broken backpack. The bark is sticky on her hands and cements her fingers together until the river washes it clean again.
But she gets by. Her father didn't raise a quitter, nor a whiner. Alyssa just breathes and bares it and forages onwards; her shoes fall apart and her clothes don't fit right but she just. Goes. Everything else is manageable now that she doesn't have to exist in a place that smothers her. Now that she's free. The stars are beautiful and the clouds are huge and drift lazily, shedding shade onto her unfortunate back, and when the rain comes she tilts her face up to the sky and opens her parched mouth until she chokes.
It's not all bad, but fuck she's hungry. A run-in with a bad mushroom on what was supposed to be her birthday (happy fucking birthday, liquefying her insides and sending them outside) has left her wary, and the forest is bountiful, she just doesn't know how to collect.
But while Alyssa knows next to nothing about nature, she knows a lot about people. So when she finds the smouldering fire next to a bursting backpack, she doesn't hesitate before pilfering it. Whoever owns this knows a lot more about nature than she does; they'll figure it out.
Three-quarters of the way out the clearing, her mouth full of leaves and berries and a weird looking tree-nut, the hair of her nape bristles. Alyssa leans to the side just in time for an axe to whistle past her face, blowing air against her cheekbone and embedding itself in a distant tree. She blinks, watching it vibrate, before turning.
"You know," she says, swallowing slow and obvious, "you probably should've kept that on you." Her knuckles crack all at once like crushing a stone. "Now you have nothing to stop me from beating you to dust."