(and your head held high, my friend) [Neela's funeral](open)
Oct 16, 2018 4:48:30 GMT -5
Post by Lyn𝛿is on Oct 16, 2018 4:48:30 GMT -5
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keep your shield before you
and your head held high, my friend
I'll bring my sword to join you when
the Prydwen sails again
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keep your shield before you
and your head held high, my friend
I'll bring my sword to join you when
the Prydwen sails again
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So many people came, you know.
Some of them protested when I'd invited them, of course, and said they never even knew you - but I'd told Satin to make sure she set out extra chairs, and to reinforce the fabric siding of the tent so it wouldn't get blown over by the wind and the rain. I figured for how you kept going on and on about becoming some sort of district hero, it would have been a disgrace to give you a funeral out in the cold that nobody attended.
But you don't have to be lonely little Neela sitting in the corner anymore. You don't have to be anything you don't want anymore. I'm gonna make sure you become more than that - don't you see? You'll be a symbol now. A martyr. You won't have to worry about being forgotten.
Your mother is taking it harder than anyone so far. You always took her teasing too seriously, and thought it meant she didn't like you, but I'm sure she did. Satin tells me all she does is pick on her, now that you're gone. You know, she was only protective of you because she feared the day you'd grow up and leave her - and you did leave her, but you never got to grow up.
Yet - that's why they will have sympathy, I think as I step up to the little podium at the front. You never lost that idealism, even in a world like ours - maybe that's why Ripred took you and left me, to remember you by. Someone to actually do something with all those ideas in your head you'd always theorize about and never act on.
So I got them all to come here - they'll listen to you now, Neela, or at least the ideas you had and the words you would have said. I owe this to you; I couldn't really say I'd been a friend of yours if I didn't become that voice, to carry on those words even after you have passed on.
"She was too innocent for a place like this district," I begin, addressing the assembled crowd. "The only thing she ever wished for was for everyone around her to be happy."
I can recall how you'd stepped unflinchingly onto the reaping stage, your gaze set past us and towards the horizon, as though somewhere deep inside you you already knew - as though you had foretold yourself being chosen.
"Yet even with that innocence - that childlike idealism - she bore with grace the fate she was given, the fate of being this year's sacrifice for District Eight. For all of us."
I wish I could speak with more certainty on who you were. I know that your favorite color was still pink after all these years, from the times you stopped by our little shop on the weekends, with a handful of coins to trade for skeins of yarn. I know that you loved to listen to the songs Jacob Brontz played on his violin, that you had five different ways you liked to make sock heels, that you wished my grandmother could teach you history as well as she had the honeycomb-stitch.
The rest I can only fill in with guesses.
You should've given this speech, you know. You should've been prattling on to me about how there ought to be a big eulogy for the tributes, and Dev you should do it you'd say things all better - but you'd have done it, if I told you I wasn't gonna take care of your own thoughts for you.
...so now it's up to me, if you're not gonna say anything.
"But we are not merely here to mourn. We are not here to mourn, because that would be a waste, to cry for her and move on with our lives. Because they took her, took someone who was never meant to survive in the arena, and tried to make her be cruel. And when it couldn't break her, it killed her instead."
And her killer - the one Stitch had allied with, after she spent so many days trying to protect him - it was his victory tour we were preparing for, it was for him that everyone was working in the factories for, to make displays and ribbons and gaudy Capitol decorations.
"So. We're not here to mourn, because we're here to fight. Because this is about more than just one tribute - it's for everyone here who works too hard, who struggles to put food on the table, who fears for their loved ones, because of them. And the only way to make them listen is to hurt what they value - to show them it's all a farce. Their celebrations. Their Victory Tour."
"They tell us, every day, how much we need them, but the truth is - they need us too. Without our men and women - without our workers sewing their costumes and their banners, they lose the stability and comfort they work so hard to maintain. As citizens of District Eight - we'll strike them where they'll feel it. Because this is for her - and - this is for all of us."
You would've been so proud.
lyrics: the prydwen sails again - heather dale